Days of old are long since past
Memories are just that

The future remains unseen
A mystery that remains unknown

The present is un-enjoyed and unheeded
People dwell to much in the past and seek the future to much

Running on empty
Burning nothing but fumes
Lost on the map
I can't get out
I need you now
Please give me direction

Falling down a hole
Reaching up, seeking you
Please take my hand
Pull me up, help me out
Please give me strength
Help me make it through the day

“I love you” Three words so simple to type or write
But yet so hard to say when the moment is right.
I have longed to say them to you, you see
Or to have you say them to me.
But I never have the courage to say those three simple words
The words that can bring together or tear apart
Fill the cracks of a broken heart
Or shatter it into a million pieces
The words I wish that you would say to me
And only me
But if you don’t it’s OK
Because I know that you feel the same way
And our love will never stray
No matter if those words are said
Or left for dead
You don’t need to say it for me to know its true
You don’t need to tell me and I don’t need to tell you
I don’t need to hear to believe
As long as you don’t leave
I don’t want to be alone
Knowing that you could be the one
I need you here
And it is clear
That no matter what goes right or wrong
Our love is like a song
It has its ups and downs
But at the end there is no frowns
Because we know that we made it through
Even without saying the words “I love you”

Because darling
Its what I do
I push and shove
And drive them away
Then when they're gone
I simply wait
Its not long before
They come crawling back
Begging forgiveness
Like it was their fault
But you and me
We know the truth

Listening to music really loud
I don't have a hearing problem
It's just the way I like it
The louder the better
My mom hates it
So do the neighbors
I don't care
Call the cops
Lets have a contest
Who can play their music louder
I bet I can
I like my music loud

I let you in
You became a part of me
I let you see me bleed
Your hands held my heart
At first it was gentle and caressed
Now it's shattered in a broken mess
I gave you a chance
I trusted you unconditionally
You killed me with finality
All because I let you in

All alone, among no crowd
I proudly salute the blue, red and white
In honor of those who still fight
And in remembrance of many lost lives
Thinking of those with families and wives
And of those that are away
At war instead of home this holiday
I lower my hand and bow my head
For every lose soldier a tear is shed
For everyone away this Christmas day
To come home safe is what I pray

Listen to the sound as my body hits the ground
Because of my hate now my bones break
Hear the cries as I die
See me lying there. Is it too much to bear?
My final breath and then death
My dead eyes looking at the sky
My lifeless limbs broken and dead
All life is gone from the heart that once shone
My heart beats no more
Its all your fault, how does that make you feel
You broke me down one to many times
And this time no one was there to help me up
You stole my happiness away from me
And didn’t expect me to be angry
Yeah I was angry and then depressed
And you’re too wrapped up in your own happiness
You said you cared but did you really
I guess that why you never really knew me
Yeah sure you knew me some
But did you ever try to get to know the real me
No, because you didn’t want to know the real me
Well now I’m gone and its all your fault
I guess you should’ve listened
But now that’s all the past
And my life is no more because I decided to jump
And when I hit the ground did you hear the sound
That’s the sound my heart made
Did you see my body break
Did you see me lying there broken and contorted
That’s what my heart looked like
After you ruined my life
But now my life is in utter ruins
And I am no more

Tired of this place
I'm going insane
I don't know how much more I can take

Going for good
I know I should
If I only could

Going to start anew
Something that's long over do
Soon I will bid this all adieu

Some day I will leave this place
And go somewhere far away
When I do, I'll move out to the U.K.

I miss you more ever day
But the more I miss makes me realize
That even if I can’t see you with my human eyes
Our love grows every day
I miss you so much more than you know
Or maybe you do know how much I miss you so
I wish I could be with you and see your face
And then freeze time in its place
And stay with you for ever and ever
And to never leave you, never
To hold you in my arms and to be held in yours
The feeling of joy warms us to our cores
To know that I will never let you go
To hold you close and always know
That we will be together no matter what
And that the door to my heart will never be shut
You can go in whenever you want
You could rob the place bare but I trust that you won’t
Because you love me, but I love you most

Being here with you
Reminds me of times of old
A smile creeps across my face
I try to hide it, but can't
Can things ever be the same?

The things I've done
Left you scarred
I wish I could take them back
But past is past, and I have no time machine
Can things ever be the same?

I tried to make it work I really did
But things just got out of hand
I could say I'm sorry
But that wouldn't be enough
Can things ever be the same?

Maybe it was for the best
But I feel so bad
You say its alright, but I know its not
I know you too well
Can things ever be the same?

The reason for all my tears at night
Is the only thing that keeps me right
Though it’s also the thing that tears me apart
And it’s going to break my heart
To say good-bye
I might just die
Though it won’t break, my heart will crack
It’ll crack more and more
Every day that I’m away
Though it won’t be broken
It’ll be bruised and beaten and cracked all over
And I’ll be the girl that just needs some one to hold her
But the no one else can hold me right
Cuz you’re the reason for my tears at night

Wishing I could see your face
Just one more time in this place
I sit down and begin to cry
Thinking about our last good-bye
I feel some one reach out to comfort me
And look up through blurry eyes to see
You’re sitting tight there beside me
No longer wanting to lie to me
You whisper softly in my ear
That I no longer need to fear
Because you’ve kept this secret long enough
You pull me closer into your embrace
And tell me there is no more partings I have to face
Because you’re coming with me
Across the country on my long journey
Again I begin to cry
These are not of great sadness, but great happiness
And then I wake, to find it was all just a dream

What once was lost
Now is found
I've away so many times
Just to come back to your embrace
The only place I feel truly safe
I no longer want to run from you
I want to stay in your presence
Thank you for your mercy and grace
I no longer have to run away
I see now I'm where I'm supposed to be
Thank you Lord for forgiving me

I used to be in the dark
But you showed me the light
You showed me that your ways are just and right
And than mine are of the world
Help me to be more like you
Sending light out to all the people
And not just holding it in, extinguishing it
Helping the poor and the needy
And everyone else I see
Help me to love everyone, even my enemies
Help me be who I am meant to be

Tears stream down my face
And drip off my chin
     Someone please save me from this hell I'm in
Memories tear through my mind
Like knives they cut ever so deep
     Into the black abyss, I begin to creep
Falling down into a black hole
Deeper and deeper, the bottom I cannot see
     *No matter how fast I run, the darkness always catches up with me

There's blood in my mouth
And cracks on my lips
Bleeding and chapped
Where you used to kiss

There's smoke in my lungs
A cigarette in my hand
A burn on this couch
Where you used to sit

The death of me
Would also be
The death of you
You're the thing that keeps me strong
When life seems all wrong
Because I know if I went
So would you
Becuase the death of me
Would also be the death of you
I love you.

This is the part of me
That no one sees
When I pour out my heart
And then fall apart
When the tears stream
And I scream
When all seems lost
At such a cost
When my world crashed down
And I feel like I'm drown
I cry out in the night
I give up the fight
This is the part of me
That no one sees

There once was a girl
Who travelled the world
And never stayed in one place long
But always seemed to drag a boy along
A different boy for each place
And all had the same fate
They'd go on for a while
And she'd leave with a smile
But it always ended in heart break
She knew she needed change
History had repeated itself again
But this time she said would be different
I would like to say this story has a different end
But alas, they too, will remain just as "friends "

I carve your name
Into my skin
And let your love
Flow from my veins

Not sure if its my make-up
Or you in my eyes
Either way it doesn't really matter
I'm still going to cry

Maybe I've just had a long day
Or you are creeping in my heart
Either way it doesn't really matter
I'm still going to fall apart

I wonder if I would have stayed with you
Or ended up taking you back
Either way it doesn't really matter
I can't change the past

Silent tears fall from my eyes
Tired of all the lies
I thought it was dream
It was not what it seemed
Nothing could go wrong
We even had a song
Now nothing is right
What happened to us?

I ran out of things to do
To keep my mind off of you
It wandered back to a time
When I was yours and you were mine
And its breaking my heart all over again
To think of what could have been

This is the game we play
Over and over, every day
We never miss a beat
We keep time with our feet
We play our music loud
We are proud

A broken savior
With more demons
Than the ones
That need saving

Another day spent pretending
That I'm okay
Another night crying
Trying to wash the pain away

Days blur into weeks
And then months eventually
Never finding what I seek
Here I sit, miserably

I watch as my life falls apart
And my dreams slip through my fingers
No one told me it would be this hard
Over me, a dark cloud lingers

Faking a smile, pretending all day
No longer able to act, crying all night
I tell everyone that I'm okay
No one takes notice of my plight

I try and talk to my friends
But I can't bring myself to tell them
That I'm getting bad again

What have I done
Have I poured my soul to the wrong one

Was too much given
Can all my sins be forgiven

Is there any hope left for me
I do not know what he sees

Of me there is nothing left
Of life I am bereft

There is nothing I can do
Why had it all been true

Why didn't I lie like always
It is all just a haze

I handed him a loaded gun
What have I done

We would talk for hours
But looking back
I can't remember what was said
Because we were just talking
About nothing in particular
Nothing of importance
But those conversations
Were always my favorite

I told you my dream
But all you did was laugh at me
And tell me it was impossible
Soon you'll see

Someday I'll show you all
I will stand tall
Above all who ridiculed
And show you I did not fall

You'll come crawling back
Dragging yourself out of the black
Of the shadow that cast
Being gracious, it's all an act

I've had everything taken away
And everything turned to grey
Now new color has entered
And up is the only way

Someday I'll show you what I can be
That you were wrong about me
You'll be in the dust
And I'll be living the dream

My
mouth
is
whispering
yes


But
my
brain
screams
no