Sitting there I look at you
Knowing exactly what to do
I’ve gone over my plan completely again
I know that you are my best friend
I grab your hand and start to say
Those three little words maybe I may
“I…I love you.”
You look at me with your blue eyes
And in your face there’s no surprise
It’s like all along you knew
What I was about to do
And then all of the sudden, out of the blue
You embrace me and say “I love you too.”

I don’t know what I did
To make you care
All I can say is that I was your friend
And tried to be even after
And I didn’t mean it as a cliché
The thing that seems to be said a lot after a breakup
“But we can still be friends.”
I did not mean it the way that they do
I actually meant it
It wasn’t just empty words
You were a good friend
And I hated myself for ruining that
And for scarring our friendship forevermore
I do not know how I made you care again
I just wanted to be you friend
Though that never seems to be enough
I’m done trying to fix something that wants to be broken

How can I love you when you don’t love me back?
How can I hold you when you don’t want me to?
How can I kiss you when you turn away?
How can I love you at all?
How can you love me when you turned me away so many times before?
How can you hold me when you pushed me away so many times before?
How can you say you’ll always be there when you never were?
How can I trust you when you broke my heart?
How can I feel your warmth when you were so cold to me?
How can we be friends when you don’t even like me?
How can we stay in touch if you ignore all my messages?
How can we be in love when love is so far away?
How can I give you all my love when you give me none back?
How can I give you my heart if you won’t give me yours?
How can you say that you’ll stay when you always were away?
How can you say hello when it was always good-bye?
How can I love you?
How can you love me?
How can this love be?

“Gift of God” is what your name means
The gift from God to me
“Warrior” is what name means
And I’ve fought for you every day
And of the day I’ll be OK
Because God is preparing me
To be in a state that I’ll be fit
To finally receive my gift

I know I broke your heart
And in the end I also broke mine
I healed my heart
I hope you healed yours
In time I think that you have
I know that things can never be the same
I know all the blame rests on my shoulders
My stupidity and loneliness
Though now I do not ask you to take me back
I only want your friendship
Like we once had so long ago
Before this whole mess I caused
I'm sorry
Not for your heart, for I know its healed
Not for the distance, for I cannot move
But for the loss of a friend

I suppose I cannot force you to make a decision
Do what you may, it's out of my hands
Its your life, so you make the decisions
I know you hate it when people tell you what to do
So whatever happens, happens
I throw up my hands
I brandish my white flag, I surrender
I just hope you know that I will miss you
Your friendship and you being you
But that's all past, I cannot change it, nor can you
Over time I will forget and none of this will ever matter
Will I regret it? I cannot say
Will you regret it? I do not know
Though I do know that I will never again
Ask you to be my friend

Of all the times you put me down
I’ve gotten back up
Of all the times you broke my heart
I put it back together again
Of all the times you left my crying in the dark
I stopped and turned on the light
Of all the times you pushed me away
I came back
But this time is different
I’ll get back up
I’ll put my heart back together
I’ll stop crying and turn on the light
But I come back to you
This time I’ll stay away for good
And you’ll wish you had me back

Listen to the sound as my body hits the ground
Because of my hate now my bones break
Hear the cries as I die
See me lying there. Is it too much to bear?
My final breath and then death
My dead eyes looking at the sky
My lifeless limbs broken and dead
All life is gone from the heart that once shone
My heart beats no more
Its all your fault, how does that make you feel
You broke me down one to many times
And this time no one was there to help me up
You stole my happiness away from me
And didn’t expect me to be angry
Yeah I was angry and then depressed
And you’re too wrapped up in your own happiness
You said you cared but did you really
I guess that why you never really knew me
Yeah sure you knew me some
But did you ever try to get to know the real me
No, because you didn’t want to know the real me
Well now I’m gone and its all your fault
I guess you should’ve listened
But now that’s all the past
And my life is no more because I decided to jump
And when I hit the ground did you hear the sound
That’s the sound my heart made
Did you see my body break
Did you see me lying there broken and contorted
That’s what my heart looked like
After you ruined my life
But now my life is in utter ruins
And I am no more