The only thing I really ask for anymore is for someone to love me, is that too much to ask?
All I want is for someone to care about me for who I really am,
Someone that is kind, caring, attractive, understanding, and loyal.
I want to be able to give my love to someone so completely that my feelings for them are solid.
It seems that no matter how hard I try, how badly I want that, I still have to wait for longer than anyone should ever have to.  
I’ve been in this world for 18 years, but never has anyone ever loved me for the man that I am.
My heart feels such emotions that I don’t believe any other man has ever felt,
It longs achingly to share itself with someone.
I know that my future wife is out there somewhere,
And I can’t wait until I’m with her,
But that’s just the thing:  I can’t wait.
The emotions are starting to become unbearably painful
Every time another person that I care about leaves,
It becomes a little easier to justify why I should crawl back into my shell.
The funny thing is, everyone I ever care about ends up either leaving me or hurting me severely.
Some examples: My mom, dad, aunt, sister, Ruth, Paul, Scott, Jesse, Steven, Jordan, Chris, James, Rob, Kristen, Kim, Sam, Julie, Brandon, Chima, John, Tonya, Tessa, Mike, Cassie, Trevor, and so many more that I cannot name them all.
My first girlfriend, my only girlfriend, the only girl I ever truly loved, cheated on me and sacrificed me for the man she cheated on me with, casting me aside like I was nothing – the exact same way my mom did, twice.
It just goes to show that dreams never come true, no matter how hard you try, because I’ve been trying for 18 years for someone to love me for who I am, yet all people do is hate and scorn me.
Even if I’m doing better than I ever have before, all those who say they care about me focus on only the negatives, the things that I’m doing wrong because I don’t know how to do them and no one cares enough to hear any of my cries for help.
What is my purpose on this disgusting planet?
Why am I here?
Would it really make a difference if I never came to be?
I think the world would be a better place if I had never been, a lot of innocent people could have been spared a life full of pain and anguish similar to mine.
My entire existence is pain, and suffering;
Torment and anguish.
If I have a purpose in this world, there is no way it is to help anyone
Because no one cares enough to listen to me when I ask to help.
All of my words, all of my emotions, everything that has to do with me,
Is completely obsolete in the eyes of everyone else in this world.
The only purpose I could have, is to destroy the lives of as many people as possible while I am in this world.
I guess that means that I’m destined to go to hell.
Well the hell with destiny, I’m not going to follow that which I am destined to do,
At least not if it is to hurt as many people as I can.
I’m going to change my destiny and everything about it,
And I’m going to be heard no matter what!

Are you willing to cause someone pain beyond measure,
Just for a few measly seconds of pleasure?
Would you break someone’s heart,
Because you think you’re so smart?
Would you put someone in their grave,
Because you thought you were brave?
Do you care if someone dies,
For you have told so many lies?
Are you willing to burn in Hell,
Because they say it’s better than your cold cell?

There’s a girl I met that inspires me more than anyone I’ll ever know.
With her, to the ends of the world and back I would go.
She is so very smart,
And I can tell that she has a huge heart.
When I’m around her, I don’t have to wear a “mask”,
And I honestly answer any questions she has to ask.
I want so bad to tell her how I truly feel,
And allow her, my heart to steal.
But I am scared,
Because the last time I dared,
To tell a girl that I cared so much,
I walked away in desperate need of an emotional crutch.
But I know that she won’t do that to me,
Because she is more kind than anyone else could ever be.
And on top of that, I have a belief,
That she feels the same about me, and if that’s true, it would be a great relief
For the both of us if we just expressed,
How we truly feel instead of keeping it hidden and feeling so distressed.

I can see you standing there beautiful,
Even if you don't believe anyone ever sees you.
I can see those big beautiful eyes,
And the way you give the most important things your hardest tries.
I can see how quiet you get when you are sad,
And I know the best way to calm you when you are mad.
I can see how much you continue to get hurt,
And know how often you get burnt.
I can see the pain you try to hide in your heart,
And how much effort you put into not falling apart.
I can see how much you care with such devotion,
And how you wish you had someone with which to share that emotion.
I can see how much you have grown since we were little,
And how you have become so emotionally brittle.
I can see how much you long to be respected,
And how you're angry the world was not what you expected.
I can see so many things of you there are too see,
The only problem is, you do not see me... </3

Tell me what you would do to dry my eyes,
Would you be willing to rescue my heart b4 it dies
Would you take away all the pain I feel in my soul
Would you love me even with my heart as black as coal
Would you love me regardless of how hard I try to push you away
Will you take me aside and tell me you're here to stay
Would you hold me tight,
Lying in bed at night,
And make me feel cared about
To the point that i have no doubt
Would your love for me be more than just an emotion,
Would you anchor it with raw devotion
How long will you love me - forever and a day
Would you take your vow to never go away
Would you give me your guarantee that your love will never sway
That you will fall in love with me again every day
Would you want to spend the rest of your life with me
To wake up every morning and my face is the first thing you see
Would you treat me like a friend and not just your lover
Would we be able to simply sit around and cuddle with one another
Would you let me kiss those soft ruby lips
Would you allow me to kiss your soft fingertips
Would you allow me to be there for you through thick and thin
Would you allow me to grab and just hold your hand on a whim
Would you let me do these things and more
If your answer to any of these things is no then there is the door.....

There is this girl i know,
Who is oh so capable of making my heart grow.
I can tell she has been through a ton of pain,
And i wish to help her use that pain for her own gain.
She is cute, Smart, ****, and funny,
And i wish to be with her even tho she has no money.
She is down with the clown and Thats a must,
This is one girl for the rest of my life my heart i would entrust.
If only i could now have her to hold,
I know for a fact my heart would never be cold.
She alone can reshape my heart to thus which it once was,
I shall give no reason except because.
This girl is nothing but perfect in my eyes,
And oddly enough she never even tries.
I would love and hold her until my death,
And were it in my power to give she would have my final breath.
I would give her my love, my heart, and my soul,
Anyone else would have to pay a toll.
This girl stole my heart like a thief in the night,
Only this thief is still in sight.
However, instead of taking my heart back from this girl,
I would much rather make her my whole world...

Im here for family my Juggalos don't care bout the rest,
All you whiney *** haters to me are just a test.
I'm down with the clown and I will be until I die,
Whether it be heaven or Hell in which I fry.
I'm representin clown love for all my life,
And I hope so will my future wife.
We got Blaze, ICP, Twiztid, and Boondox,
**** what the haters say this music rocks!
We all got love for one another we family,
Sit back and watch and song you'll see,
We paint our faces but it's not just for show,
We show our heart which route our minds will go.
We don't care what you think or say,
Every one of us deals with haters everyday.
We will live strong and die strong,
And no matter what you say we'll always be strong.
When we die we get our own island where we go,
And if you ain't down Thats a place you'll never know.
We Juggalo homies man we're the best,
And no matter what you try we'll pass your foolish tests.


- Dustin Kohman 1/17/2011 1:32 pm