It drives my crazy,
And makes my sight go all hazy,
Whenever you smile at me,
‘Cuz it’s the most beautiful thing I ever could see.
It just isn’t possible,
I’ve been hurt too many times, I need to be reasonable.
But sometimes I catch myself thinking at night,
Thinking that if we were together, things would be alright.
And I’m scared ‘cuz I don’t want you to leave,
‘Cuz you’ve changed my life in ways you wouldn’t believe.
I mean, just think what could happen if you’d stay,
I know that it’d mean a lot if you didn’t go away.
But it’s up to you and if you choose to go,
Please remember that forever will I miss you.
If you do go, please stay in touch,
‘Cuz to me that would mean so much.
And I know that wherever you go, you will do well,
Just knowing what I do about you, I can tell.

Inside of me, there’s a burning desire.
When it consumes me,
It can be more destructive than a wild fire.
But I don’t want others to see,
This truth that is inside of me.
Because I know that they will laugh,
Or use their words to try to cut me in half.
So I just keep this desire to myself,
And they keep their comments to their self.
I’m not worried about anyone finding out,
And giving their friends a shout.
But it’s easier for me to act like a fool,
Than to be worried about being shoved in a pool.
Sometimes, I want to trust someone,
And with me, they have sick fun.
They tease and taunt me,
Because all I want to be,
Is a caring, loving husband and father,
But with all of the harassment, I think,  ‘Why Bother?’

So many people are afraid of death.
They hope they’ll never take their last breath.
Me, I can’t wait until I die,
So that I can see the God Most High.
That doesn’t mean I want to die,
It just means that I’m not shy,
Of taking my last breath,
Nor am I continuously thinking of my death.
But I know through His Word
That when I die, it won’t be with a sword.
Because, thanks to a little bird,
I know that I will be with my Lord.

I’ve made quite a few poor choices,
But none of those choices were influenced by outside voices.
The choices I made were all my own,
Those choices were wrong, I should’ve known.
I’m glad I now decided to change,
Because otherwise things would be really strange.

I swear, it feels like I’m being cheated,
My past is once again being repeated.
It feels like everyone is set on ruining my life,
****, they are so lucky I don’t have a knife.
All I have to say now is that it had better stop,
Because my wall of self control is about to pop.
I’ve been so ******* patient,
That by the time I get what I’m waiting for, I’ll be ancient.
I’m seriously thinking about running from this ******* place,
And against the police, I’ll have to race.
But there is someone holding me back, but just one person,
And if I run, I’ll probably never see her again.
I swear, I thank God for her,
Because without her, where I’d be, I’m not sure.

Look, I know that you are already going out with someone,
And I want you to know that I respect that,
And I hope that it’s your heart he has won.
I also want you to know that I won’t try to break you up, I’m not like that.
I want you to be with whomever you want to,
If you’re happy, then so am I.
Just as long as you’re able to do what you want to do.
But I must admit that I envy this guy,
‘Cuz he gets to spend all this time with you.
I may not know who he is,
But if you trust him, then I do, too.
The thing is,
You’re always on my mind,
Which can’t be very good,
Unless someone else, I can find,
But I’m sure that I’ll never be able to find someone like you, or even half as good.
What I’m trying to say,
Is that I understand that I can’t be with you.
I know I can’t always have my way,
But I can at least always be there for you…

When I stop to think,

And wonder why,

In the time it takes for me to blink,

So many people in this world die.



There are a great many things I cannot fathom,

Like why we choose to ****

When death itself is a shadowy phantom

That scares children and causes bones to chill.



All I want now is to show my love,

To those who care,

And are friendly as a dove.

But show my love I do not dare.



Hurt a lot of people, I know I have

But how sorry I am, I can’t express

Because I now understand how I have

Caused all those people so much distress.



So next time you stop to think,

And wonder why

So many people die, every time you blink,

Don’t be shy

To tell others what you think.