don't tell me you're sorry
because I know your words are lies
and I know you don't really care
about the sadness in my eyes
you have hurt me too much
and too many times
and this is the final straw
because I cannot go on like this anymore
I will drink until I die
until I can remember you no more
and all the things you did and said
have disappeared out of my head

I may look fine
and I may smile wide
but my heart is breaking
deep down inside

I have loved only two people
in my lifetime
one of them is you,
at least I think I do,
all I know,
is you made me happy
you made me laugh
you were the reason
I went to sleep smiling
and also the reason I woke up smiling
you were the reason I woke up at all,
but now you've gone.
you've left,
and I'm not sure why
all I know,
is I don't want to wake up anymore
if it means not talking to you
I don't smile anymore
and I rarely laugh,
all I do is miss you,
and wonder if you miss me too.

my thoughts will haunt me again tonight
like they did last night
and every night before

her mind was like a blank canvas
until he came along
and painted thoughts and feelings
that kept her awake at night
making her fall in love
with every single stroke

I miss the happiness
created by you
that flowed through my veins
and radiated out of my body
like the sunshine on a summers day

there are lots of things
I shouldn't do
and one of them
is fall in love with you
so I must pretend you don't exist
to stop the scars forming on my wrist
please don't be offended
if you don't see me for a while
I'm sorry but I can't look at you
or your beautiful smile
but if you see my eyes light up
know that it is not because I saw you coming
because that would only
send me running
now you may find
I don't talk to you
but that doesn't mean
I don't see what you do
I would only die if I heard your voice
and that is not something I want by choice
there is one more thing I cannot do
and that is
fall in love with you

overwhelming feelings of wanting to die
and crying on the bathroom floor
until you can't see anymore

from the shore I watch the waves
crash and roll and break
and I cannot help but think
how lovely it all seems
to let the waves crash over me
and forget all my dreams
so I will swim
and swim
and swim
until there is no shore
and let the waves engulf me
until I can feel
no more