Life has taught me
to be out of my comfort zone
to push myself over my limit
to try out something new
to think wiser and
to act bolder

Despite all
the cursing and swearing I've been throwing,
the tears and laughter I had
the busy and hectic days
the mentally and emotionally unstable moment

I am very thankful
for the memories
for the lessons
for every single person who came and left
for everything
for me.

I can talk about you
All day, all night
But that would not be
Enough
I can never get enough of you
Your eyes, they hold a thousand tears
Your smile,they hide a thousand pain
Your laugh, they keep a thousand secrets
Enough
It's not enough
Seeing you without saying a word
Walking pass you without touching your skin
Staring at you without kissing your lips
Thinking of you without sleeping at night
Enough
I'm tired, tired of wanting
Tired of waiting
Tired of everything
But, not
It's not enough
You're never enough for me

under the sky we met
under the sky you said I love you
under the sky we laughed
under the sky you promised you'll stay

under the sky we meet again
under the sky I say please stay
under the sky I cry
under the sky you promise you'll change

under the sky you left me.  
the stars are my witnesses
but too bad they can't be under the sky with me.

the classic
cigarette and coffee
or
the modern
cigarette and coke
both makes me think
deeper and wiser
somehow

You don't have to call me or text me or see me every second,
You just have to answer my calls when I call, be there when I need and stay with me at my low.
You don't have to agree with everything I say,
I want you to tell me if I'm wrong  and lead me to be better.
You don't have to parade me on your social medias, buy me luxury things, take me to fancy restaurants to show how much you love me.
You don't have to put me first. You have your parents, siblings, nephews, nieces, cousins, friends, your health, your life to be prioritise.
You don't have to know every single friend I have,
You just have to know the real friends I have.
You don't have to forgo your friends for me,
they were there for you before I came to your life.

I don't want you to leave them behind for me,
I want to be there with them for you
I don't want you to hurt their feelings just to take care of mine.
I don't want you to let them go just to make me stay.
I don;t want you to argue with them just because you don't want to argue with me.
I don't want you to make them sad just to make me happy.

All I want is to be with you forever and I'll be the luckiest girl in the world.

To have you.

today,
they converted to money religion
trusts are broken
friends are leaving
thoughts are killing.

today,
they changed to new person
memories turn to dust  
laughter turns to tears
hello turns to goodbye.

New year
New start

Old friends
Old memories

Same place
Same people
  
Different perspective
Different routine

New year,old me, same person, different thought.

light up the cigarette
inhale the pain
exhale the suffer
life is too short
to give a single
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