friends don't understand
family don't give a ****
i am always alone
with my mind

always left
behind

i need to stop writing
about the one
who keeps me
hurting

security is something
my heart lacks
there's no
rewinding
back

i write about you
for days on end
although it's pointless
i think you're worth it

i can't sit and hide
what i feel inside
so i'll let myself write

i am a girl of many flaws
but above all
i had the
tendency
to over-love

i tend to think
of others
before
myself

it was something
that ruined my health

i feel so ill
poisoned
by my mind

overload of thoughts

what consumes my mind
is tearing apart my life
but it's not like
i ever truly lived

i am forced to breathe
my body won't **** me
it will not let me
use a blade
to set myself free
it will not let my heart
lose touch with it's beat

would love to stare
death
in the face

yes please.

broken and damaged
repairs are expensive
the pain is hard to manage
just too painful to swallow
no amount of bandage
can fix this heart of mine
the damage has been done
and this is what i have become