I know I'm not everything you expected
Maybe you lost hope long ago
I just hope you never regret it
And that you know I love you so
Can't take us back to the beginning
Can't rewind your mind
To those days when we couldn't stop grinning
All the time we lost, left behind
All we have is the now
And sometimes we forget how
To just be
To let it bleed the way we used to
I want to just try
Because for you, I'd bleed myself dry
I'm willing to keep up the struggle and the search
I don't care how much it hurts
If it will help you cut away the weight that drowns you
Instead of cutting the beautiful skin that surrounds you
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Because now that I know what I know
It's too close for comfort
Give it to me if you must
After all, I'm the one you trust
So let me take the pain that you've been buried under

I find more comfort in my solitude than from "friends".

Here is where it all begins
Back to the wall and in tears again
Feeling confined like a caged bird inside my glass coffin
Singing and pleading to be heard every so often
Oh how this silence, so deafening
Feels safe in its cruelty and listening
No fear and no demands within these walls where I wallow
Just control and defiance and feelings and words swallowed
I swear to myself "This is the last time."
But I prefer broken fairy tales over nursery rhymes
You said "Do what you need to get your mind right."
So I lie in wait on the promise of your fated, fantasy kiss
Here in our stifled and shielded unwedded bliss
Night
.... after night
      .... after night

Sometimes I feel
Like a dying rose
Missing your gentleness
as my eyes beg to close
Aching for the way
your eyes caress me
the way you inhale me
and longing for your hands
to remove the thorns from me
Plucked from the garden
Your eyes start to harden
Lonely from losing my petals
Under burden of a heavy heart
There are nights without you
That feel cold and so dark
Rushing into fitful dreams
While the rest of the garden sleeps tonight
But I look forward
to the warmth of morning
the end of uncomfortable needing
and a brand new start
Please allow me your light
Only you can make it all right

Heaven at the tip of your tongue
Hips writhing before you've even begun
Honey dripping off your chin
Lips whispering tales of sin
Wile away the evening hours
Inhaling and tasting her exotic flower
Fill her with your sensual fingers
*******, like half moons, rise
as your touch lingers
Exploring her body constellation
Being inside is your destination
Watch her face as she quietly begs
Force her and tell her to spread her legs
You may never know her ecstasy
But she'll steal the stars to be your fantasy