I hate you
I really ******* hate you

You think you're protecting me
But really you're just making a mess
Of my life
Of me

But you don't care
You only care about how it looks
to everyone else
You want them to tell you
Your doing phenomenal job
Raising that daughter of yours

But really all she wants
Is to leave
To run
To be anyone else
But *herself

You've got such high hopes for me
and I'm just clinging on
with one hand
Trying to be perfect
Trying to be what you want

Finger by finger
Slipping down the rope
But you just keep pulling me higher and higher

The ground isn't insight
And I'm too high
What am I supposed to do

I just want some Temporary Bliss
From this madness of my life
Run you fingers through my hair
in that careful manner
Run you fingers over my stomach
like it isn't enough
Kiss me like theres no tomorrow
Because this temporary bliss
Is all that can save me

Distruction of myself
is something I long for
Running til I'm gasping
Screaming until I can't breath

Drugs?
Alcohol?
This things will never get rid of my problems
They'll still me there
In the darkness of these destroyers

Wandering the night
I'm searching for distruction
something to ruin me
something to destroy me

Theres a war going on in my mind
A battle of blood and anger
Constently forcing one side down

Theres a war in my mind
But you'll never know
Too busy with your own life

Theres a war in my mind
and I don't think it'll ever end
Too many thoughts like soldiers
But they never stop coming
A constant stream of
Rifles
And men
Ready for a fight

Theres a war in my mind
And the battle field is busy
men falling left, right and centre

Maybe one day this could be a historic site
But for now
Its a war in my mind

Honey, you're looking for
perfection
where there isn't any
In the depths of my eyes
There's only sadness
In lines of my forehead
Theres only confustion
In the shape of my lips
Theres only longing
Imperfect things brought together
To create this imperfect girl

You pretend to be this
unbiased
person
More open than a book
And more accepting than the world
But here you are
Judging me
And everything I believe in
It gets harder to talk to you
Too afraid of the opinion I'll get
So I keep it all
Inside this head of mine
And slowly I start to go crazy