One cut feel some pain
Two cuts to hit a vein
Three cuts you're feeling okay
Four cuts for the ****** day
Five cuts your blood flows like a river
Six cuts you shake and quiver
Seven cuts 'what's one more'?
Eight cuts there's a puddle on the floor
Nine cuts you've got a huge ****
Ten cuts you think it's just another cut
Eleven cuts when you get you're relief
Twelve cuts this one extra deep
Thirteen cuts you think you should be done
Fourteen cuts you will make another one
Fifteen cuts for being a failure
Sixteen cuts you still go deeper
Seventeen cuts you can't feel
Eighteen cuts the blood doesn't seem real
Nineteen cuts tears fall as your body does too
Twenty cuts your lips start to turn blue
Twenty-one cuts your mission is finally complete
You're laying in blood as you fall asleep.

And it hurts me
that you're
smiling
laughing
happy

But it's not
because of me

if each and every hurtful thing you said to me
was a cut on my thigh,
i'd have a never ending tragedy dripping from the tips of my finger

They'll check your wrists
But not your thighs
They'll check your smiles
But not your eyes

They'll avoid the truth
And believe the lies

one cup of insecurity
two tablespoons of jealousy
three packets of paranoia
ten ounces of anxiety
a small pinch of pride and
just a hint of insanity

everyone is sleeping
while she remains awake
leaving reminders on her body
of how much
she hates herself