I hate myself for my tragic past
I hate myself for cutting every inches of my skin
I hate myself for letting people go in and out of my life easily
I hate myself for pushing people out of my life
I hate myself for not having someone to talk to
I hate myself for not having the love I earned for
I hate myself for eating too much
I hate myself for giving a smile to random strangers
I hate every part of me and I wish someone could burn me alive
Because I don't see any point of living anymore.

I solemnly swear if i have children in the future, i will take care of my children. Always always always be there for them whenever they need me or not. Give them the permission to do whatever they want as long as they do not cross the line. Bring them to camping, give them some quality time with their friends. And most importantly, treat them equally.

**Not like how my parents raised me and the others that's for sure.

She remembers the smell of fresh air,
The aroma of flowers linger around
When she is in the park or in the garden of hers,
Oh how she wishes her life was different now,
She plants the idea of a perfect life but where she lives is merely not,
She wishes to lay on a path of green grass
The little things she should've appreciated ; a sip of tea or coffee
And even the calmy night walks she had
Now, all she every wanted was to feel a bit of freedom she longs for.

Got my final result today,
Alas it was quite late than the others,
I am wholly proud of myself for I've given the bestest I could possible give,
But my parents think it was not my best.

I expected to get higher marks. Yes but eventhough it wasn't what I expected,
I am still grateful but I hate the reaction/sound of dissapointment coming from my parents,
Parents need to understand their children's ability,
Children are not robots nor slaves,
They are never born to be perfect but they can at least try,
But you know things will never go your way.

I wish parents could understand more and maybe..there is a blessing in disguise. Who knows?

It's beginning to look like the person you trust the most
Can be the person you doubt the most

Why is that when everything starting to make sense
And the whole universe understands you better
Things start to fall apart

So it's true there is no such thing as eternal love or happiness
Because they both only exist in our minds.

I may be loose, I'm not a cannon
But I can be quiet saying my name
There are the weights where is the balance
Maybe everyone's to blame.

My heart and my mind have been with me always
But not long enough to keep them in mind
I know that my mind has both good and bad days
But my heart wins every time

I feel the fire,
I see a flame set me a light,
bring me desire bottled up tight.
Like caging in the ocean
dousing my sun, download the sky
bring me emotion,
bottled up tight.

I count when I can the people who walk by,
Imagine their paths crossing with mine,
And maybe it's true we're part of a blood line,
But we walk like we're pretty much blind.

I feel a fire bring me desire
I feel a fire bottled up tight.
Like caging the ocean, your flame my emotion
and give me devotion, bottled up tight.

**Current obsession : BOTTLED UP TIGHT // LUKE SITAL-SINGH