How hard it is to believe in thou, when thou distrusts themselves, nor
the spoken word that departs from my own maimed mouth.
You maimed it though, feeding thou as if a baby, but your
brutality hence forth separated us and no longer are we a
conjoined twin but rather yet two separate beings, who wish upon
the same midnight star.

Speak up!
For the world has stopped on it's axis to welter in you
privy affair. Accustomed to thy nature, a forest of hindering
branches you portray as home, nether the less yielding you
furthermore from where your actual origin bellows.

Banished thee, as of criminal intent, but thou victim, and
victim thought of thou to be innocent.. then why banished?

I ponder thee..

Hold me in your tight embrace as the saddened November rains begin to pour,
You see I'm only safe if I'm right here by your side, this I do not confide.
It's just sometimes I feel like I'm on my own, with having to fight for my own,
but yet I'm still so young and things just seem so far away. It's hard to imagine,
but this world has me, and has me good.
And so I let the rain soak every inch of skin exposed hoping to absorb as much
of it as I can in order to drown out my lies I so easily lay upon your mind.

Hold me in your tight embrace as the saddened November rains begin to pour,
I'll hold on as long as I can, but patients is not one of my virtues.
It's just that simple how I let you go, even when it was crystal clear you were near. Even till this day I catch myself singing our song, I stop myself only to be
interrupted by this chorus playing out of tune, and the beat so far from on the
dot. To know you were true was a joke at the time, but know I sometimes
wish I could have you back, but thinking of that only hurts.

So I forget..
And just leave it at that, cause wishes never come true.

Here's to all the broken hearts there could be,

She told me it was all the time we spent, how she could say
she loves me but walk out the door, going to see that boy,
but that's okay cause I know she'll be coming home to be
in my arms. I feel my heart slowly shutting off, every time
she leaves, but i can't help but to say goodbye.

I tell my self to let it be, let her have her fun and games,
This song stuck on repeat to the same old games we used
to play. I'm no longer the one in first place.
This makes we wonder if i ever was a player or  rather yet
just a spectator. It's okay let it be right?

I'll play blind while you think i haven't a clue to as what
your really doing. Hey, that's okay cause the truth will
be on my side, and when you falter and look for that
embrace ill be the first to leave, cause truly I know
I'm not the only one you share that love with.

Leave it alone again, hah okay?
I'll do just that and show you the way to my door, and when
you don't leave I'll just go, and just disappear.
Drop the car in gear and go my own way, like we never
knew each others names  at all.

Here's to all the broken hearts there could be,

She told me it was all the time we spent, how she could say
she loves me but walk out the door, going to see that boy,
but that's okay cause I know she'll be coming home to be
in my arms. I feel my heart slowly shutting off, every time
she leaves, but i can't help but to say goodbye.

Minutes to midnight mock me with a vicarious sneer,
they jump from the clock and swivel through my room.
They paint my name with markers made out of a point
that cuts me, drawing my blood for their own canvas.
But the walls cannot bear the weight so they crumble
leaving me exposed, I'm the target to a terrorist that
doesn't even exist.
I've counted my sheep, but even they got tired and fell
asleep, leaving me alone.
In my own fear I reach for the bottle and take that pill.
Never once questioning for a refill.
Tonight never wanted to be, so I turn and breathe out
my last breathe of hope I so gingerly hold on to.
Wishing to die, without a tear I cry, staining what's
left remaining.