Trapped inside my own heart. Ironic isn't it.. Knowing there is no way out of this mad love I got myself into. Sorry baby but it's just to much for me. I know I said I want this **** forever but let it be please Let it go.. I'll always love you but u need time away from me. I'm a poison corrupting your bloodstreem and lifestyle. Im sorry. But I'll always love you.

venom sinks deeper as lights dim down
nothing more than whispers in the air all around
i kissed her
turning quiet single toned sound
to a raging presentation of lust here on this ground
i love her, she loves me

I could listen, panic and assume
dew painted art from out the window in my room.
your all I think of, everything that I see
Its proof that one day love could set us free
please, I couldn't forgive myself for these, words
and it hurts, but another one's up in your ear
telling you I'm worse, but still we converse.
be sure, before you jump into my arms right quick.
my loving hands could fit to yours and stick.

Life. just an elaborate scheme of trials set to challenge the weak hearted to their limits. some will fall, some will rise. and i have fallen into a deep sort of trans with peace and serenity as my only senses. nothing will phase the vast contemplation of mother natures pure complexion. horizontal, i drift to an even lower depth of perception as my veins turn to ice freezing my motion. to lie. to even think of deceptive ways to contort things to my liking. its all games. my eyes close to an imaginative state of being, only to be awakened by true living reality for another day not yet earned.

Legs arms.
hands are light.
feet so heavy.
treading on with hands held high.
feet like anchors holding me down.
i cant move.
anywhere.
but my everlifting hands reach the sky.
even though motion is limited.
my hands can be a radiant light.
to not the ones that deserve it.
but the ones that need it.

Light up my world. Burn my life story to ashes. Let the flames of these thoughts in my head eat away the ease of things. Make it harder for me. Now I need you more than ever oh sweet cleansing water. Douse the embers that char my spirit into nothingness. Make me whole once more so I can experience a new world in my own eyes.

The world around you.
always shifting.
never at a stand still.
influencing you nonstop.
good and bad.
left and right.
hot and cold.
life is never long enough.
its always cut short.
by the demeaning spirits of hell.
but in everything you do.
in everywhere you go.
Stay Gold.