As I sit in my bed after tossing and turning
Thoughts and emotions run high.
Too many questions with no answers burning.
Why can't I fall asleep? Why?

My mental state is at critical mass
With thoughts of discouraging fear.
You'd think my brain would kick its own ***
For letting this sleeplessness near.

Its night number three of getting no sleep
In this fourth week of 2010.
Sleep aides can't help and **** counting sheep.
When will I doze off? When?

I wish I could be in some distant land
Where I cannot see anyone.
Where nothing but sun, clean air and warm sand
Is everything I need for one.

Take me away on some treacherous trek
Lead me somewhere deep into space.
I want to see Earth as small as a speck
I want to go to that place.


Let's go to Brazil and explore the vast forest
Let's find some places unknown
I want to hear birds sing an unholy chorus
I want this for me as my own.

These are the places that I wish to go
When sleep takes me away.
But sleep is a dream in itself don't you know.
Which is why I wrote this today.

Dreams are a portal to my own little world
And I alone hold the key.
But nights such as these where my mind lie unfurled
Dreams aren't happening for me.

This place we call home, this planet named Earth
Is turning and floating through time.
If I don't find where my time is of worth
It all won't be worth a dime.

This dumb little story, this lame little piece
Is just to help me pass out.
And now that I think my mind is at peace
Some sleep's what I'm talking 'bout.

welcome to Earth on which we live,
why here? no one can say.
one thing is certain 'bout this planet's burdens;
they never will ever go away.

why not on Mercury? Neighbor the sun?
it's too close, the heat is unreal.
its surface is hot, a place we go not,
for we are too fragile to heal.

how about Venus, our sisterly planet?
she's gross and unhealthy too.
her surface corroded and it's duly noted
that this one will just never do.

we could try Mars, our redheaded friend
but alas! that simply won't work.
too much pollution for any solution
we'd most likely just end up hurt.

what say Jupiter that big cloudy mess?
good luck you dreamer and fool.
impossible dagnabbit! don't try to inhabit
for us that place is too cruel.

now you say Saturn, the world of infinity
well infinite is just a bad joke.
the rings may be nice, but take my advice,
there's too great a chance we'd all choke.

then perhaps Neptune, one more chance at home
your hopes once again are kaput.
she's not only distant, but far too resistant
to ever once let us set foot.

now our last chance Pluto, the farthest
but she's been sadly forgotten.
why dream of this? she's clearly not missed
by now she's dead and rotten.

my friends you have realized the greatest of truths
that anywhere else we'd be dead.
our life here on Earth is more than it's worth
as we dwell on our cosmic homestead.

my pits smell just fine
i don't need deodorant
so go **** yourself

I am who I am
there's no fact denying.
If I weren't this way now,
I'm built upon lying.

I'll be on top
alone for awhile.
Watching poor fools
drown in denial.

I don't wish to tell you
the reasons for this
I don't really have one
There's nothing you've missed.

My heart is my own
to give by my choice.
God gave me this life
as well as a voice.

I don't wave the rainbow,
I'm not off in mind
I'm in better company
with those of my kind.

Games aren't my scheme
of a worthwhile time.
I'll tell myself that
while I bid you goodbye.

I have no desire
to follow this clique.
To be someone like
these insufferable ******.

While you all try
your best to ******,
I'll always see you
as poor and recluse.

I wish it weren't so
these feelings of hate
But my love is earned
by those I deem great.

I do not see reason
for my ways to alter
I'll sit back and laugh
as they break and falter.

Don't inquire me
on my current branding.
I've been a lone ranger
and thus, I'm still standing.

If there is a One
made to be mine,
I'll let it all be
with patience and time.

To friends and family:
do not change one bit.
You are the adhesive
that makes life so crit.

To all the foolhearted
and frivolous swine:
Happy and sated
are not the same kind.

To those stuck in limbo:
I hear you so clear.
For we all have times
when hope's nowhere near.

Lead with your heart
your head will soon follow
By then all your tears
will be easy to swallow.

tell me the real truth
do you have feelings for me?
you can take your time.

Sweet summer rain cleanses my pain
Its smell caressing my nose.
Letting it grace the skin on my face
This cold day coming to close.

Here and there, around everywhere
I witness a joyous ballet.
My ears, eyes, and skin are reminded again
Of goodness that had gone astray.

The good and the bad and the sickness I had
Drowned by the drops from above.
Skipping around on the wet, cold, hard ground
Instilled with a new sense of love.

Summer went by with the blink of an eye
The year will soon be gone too.
It's days like today that help me to say
I'm ready to start off anew.

Sadness and grief will find their relief
Through means of a friendly kiss.
From heavenly tears that bring back the years
That many of us will all miss.

Let go of regret, but never forget
The trials that brought you here.
Instead look ahead to leave all your dread
A shadow to leave in the rear.

In this life I know, through hell we must go
In order to find our true meaning.
So let the rain fall on each of us all
For thus is a spiritual cleaning.

You, me, and them should never condemn
Any who should come to our door.
Instead give your best, let God do the rest:
From less we all receive more.

By seizing the day we pave the way
To a bright and noble tomorrow.
Sweep 'way the strife and be thankful for life
To outweigh the pain and sorrow.

So flood over me, from sky down to sea.
And wipe away all of my doubt.
Sleep with the thought of not getting caught
In lies we must do without.

I've got a problem
Too much love hath stricken me
Send me home to weep.