I grew up in the hood, in had to except that i was nothing, but now im chasing money and getting polo's i had it coming..i seen a lot of things in 18 years u cant tell me nothing..my momma dated a crack fen and got beat yeah she didn't see it coming, i cried myself to sleep but stayed strong in keep stunting, i do it all for u momma in im proud to say i love ya, you stayed strong during the hard times,nothing came above you, i pray before i lay my head that a real ***** would show u something, treat u like a queen and put u first and tell u that he love ya, but for now mama im yo king in ima show u that i love ya...Big sis sham you was like my best friend yeah we fell off but i wish we can start again, you was the only one that really understood me..we lend on each other shoulders when we both felt down.. and i wont to say sorry for you being mistreated but always kept a smile... in my lil princess let her know that ima always hold her down...haven't seen yall in a long time i feel bad that i didn't stick around... Thoughts run thru my head like look what you came out to be now, from all the struggles that we been thru the helpless nights where we didn't have a dad to tend too.. Moms stayed strong and she was always reliable to fall thru.. But you know that's my pops and im going to always love him two cause he took me out the hood and gave me a life i could look up too.. But for you ur still struggling trying to make a dime into a 100 now that's a tru hustle.. And mom taught me best that "If you want it you gotta get never stop tell you finish" soo i was raised a go getta my moms ain't never been a women to be bitter... Always stood high even tho everything was really low she always said "Don't let money **** yo pride just leave it up too god" but when money was alive my moms tend to cry not knowing where it came from she said it was a blessing from god.. So momma ima keep working and make sure you don't have to cry again it kills me to see a tear fall when the money isn't rolling in... Stay strong and hold on cause my time is coming for me to shine again... Much love Cindy D Ellis <3

A young men who wonders how one man can be so strong, when he's just chilling and sitting on his gold throne, so many hearts to watch and heal how does he do it on his own "Is he real".. The beats in my chest bleed but when i feel i feel healed "Is he real".. The step that i take the ground shakes because im walking in faith "Is he real" .. My mind always feel safe when i pray im not a saint but "Is he real" .. The tears in my eyes fall like rain when i feel pain "Is he real' .. I'll call out his name in front of a whole gang with no shame 'Is he real" .. Bringing me out of a struggle when i almost got killed it was meant for me "Is he real" .. My life was on a plate like old grapes it wasn't safe "Is he real" .. Gave me another chance to become a better man i promise ill try to never sin again "Is he real" .. Anything is possible within the strength of God "Is he real" .. I died in my soul now im alive causing im living for God "Is he real" .. Look into the mirror and ask your self "Is he real" .. Im a walking testimony i shouldn't be alive so YES "He is real" .. I raise my hands and drop to my knees cause im thankful, he's done begging for me now im begging please for him to be my king "Is he real" .. The SouthSide of the gates will be my new home when i die so im still Trill, this not coming from me its coming from my OG so i can convince my peps that "HE IS REAL" .......

Here i am again at this point where my head is filled no one to speak too just a pad & pen to vent too... some things seem crazy but its only the thought of loving you.. love songs and bad thoughts confuse my head so why keep loving you.. let me break it down to inform you that true love comes from 2.. its a 50 50 blend between two hearts that makes 1.. Its a lil thing called communication that keeps you strong, its loyalty and respect that keeps you warm.. a sweet delightful taste of time & attention no one said that lust was wrong..... true love and lust are to different laws lust is easy to break without any cause.. you get it and lose it but love is hard to fall its like a phone with no mins its hard to recall you'll fall that fast and start to ask what happen yall...

Mirror mirror on the wall, my hopes are down but my dreams are tall, what do you see in me when i face the wall. Mirror mirror please tell me all, i need you more than ever before is my heart full or can it handle some more. Mirror mirror what do you see, a boy asking for help that's to strong to bleed, or a boy that's helpless who stands to plied. Mirror mirror cant you see, my reflection isn't glowing is there something wrong with me, peer red seems to cover i am not a devils child. Mirror mirror please come rescue me, God is on my side i been to stupid to see, mistakes after mistakes but still he forgives me. Mirror mirror can the boy be me, if so i give it all to see a new day for me, falling to my knees i start to plied. Mirror mirror red little droppings replace my tears, the devil is crying because i am no longer he's, the pain that i feel in my hands and feet is the pain that he felt when he died for me. Mirror mirror now what do you see, mirror mirror please talk to me, My mirror has broken and fell to my feet, now that i see a glowing man in front of me.