Possessed

What if you wanted something so powerful that you had to make a choice between good and evil in order to obtain it?

What if this evil took you as it’s own and you become owned by it.
You try to move and talk but every move you make and every breath you take along with every word you try to speak is not of your own doing.

For you are now not the controller of your own body, and mind, your every thought your every movement of your limbs is controlled by the entity within you.

As you look into the mirror there you stare deep within it.  
So deep that you can see the things it makes you do.
You hear the disgusting defile things that spit out from your lips.

You watch an empty shell become it’s puppet doing with you as it desires doing the will of evil.  
Is this the life you wanted the power you thought you were going to have.
No control, no mind of your own.

Why did I choose this you ask yourself.
Then you realize you are trapped within this evil with no way out.  
No one can help you no one can see you are not yourself anymore your friends your family no longer recognize you.

They stare at you like a stranger.  And you as you sub come to the evil.
You began to scream for their help, no hears you.
Why would you make a choice to have power you cannot control.
When you open the door to evil you become the controlled it becomes the controller.  
You become a shell of a being watching while it dose what it wants with you.
While it makes you say and do things beyond your control.
Be careful sometimes what you wish for, does come true!

Holding to a beautiful moment
We lock eyes and there we go deep into a secret sweet bliss.
Then we share a simple yet meaningful kiss.
The beat of my heart is beating so fast.
I am afraid this feeling will not last.
My heart is burning on fire.
With every beat I am flying higher.
Your smile takes my breath away.
It always leaves me in such disarray.
We begin to slip away into the unknown.
To each other our feelings are shown.
We stand there our hands touching ever so slightly.
Then they begin to intertwine ever so tightly.
As we have one thing on our mind, no worries; no cares.
To be in the moment to breathe in the time we share.
Our bodies lean into each other.
We begin to merge as one, together.
As we grasp one another ever so tight.
Holding on as to not let go, holding with all our might.
Minute by minute we are suspended in time.
Together we stand there as one, we become so sublime.
We whisper sweet secrets for only each other to hear.
As we struggle to control the emotions we fear.
With nothing in our way.
This beautiful moment becomes and eternity for a day.

The crow he sits there on a wire, high in the sky and awaits; waits for me.
Waiting for my life to take; waiting for the last breath I make.
He sits there on the wire high; black as night, black as coal.
With his wings on fire he’s ready to take flight, waiting to claim my soul.
He sits there every day watching and waiting with he’s cries of sorrow.
As for him he must wait another day while this one becomes the morrow.
(Here’s the Gap)(Maybe someone can help me fill this gap)
As my life turns bitter cold he flies right through me as I turn hollow.
He calls the many for them to come, they swarm.
They gather together a flock of one feather.
As one they cover me with their cold black wings spread wide open.
Pulling me deep within the darkness inside them my life they swallow.
With the white light of day, it finally forever in my eyes of grey begins to fade.
Only to take me away, to the place of no return and decay.
On the wings of the crow I am flying.
Down below me I see eternity gazing back at me.
How can I escape these dark wings that bind me?
I began to absorb the womb within I am in.
As I am being carried off to this new flight of mine.
The crow takes me, carries me away, holding me; binding me.
Until that last breath in me is taken.
My life, my soul has been mistaken.
My life slowly is passing before me who am I?
As I gaze into the dark sky I get no answer from the other side.

A second chance to a friend
I can’t seem to get my mind to stop from thinking about you
What are you doing
Are you happy
I go through the day and all of the sudden I catch myself  and I see you in my minds eye
I see your smile and think of the day when we were together side by side
The times we had the jokes and the laughs we shared
The sweet secrets for you and I only to share
The way I remember feeling when I heard your voice for the first time
I wish I could hear the sweet sound of your voice again just once more
I wish I could have a second a third a forever chance to a friend
If I had the chance to do it again I would in an instant no mater what
Because I just can’t seem to forget you no matter how hard I try
What good is it to remember a dream if you are no longer in it
How can I keep myself from falling
The emptiness is becoming unbearable
The not knowing is agonizing
I try to go on, trying to block out the memory of you
I am not strong enough it’s so hard to do
Or better yet I don’t want to forget you I can’t
For if I forget you I forget myself and who I want to be  
I am reaching out for a second chance to a friend
In the end the choice is really up to you

Once upon a time there was a girl
She was so free and had such beauty and longing to grow
Now like a wolf in sheep’s clothing she walks among us
She is hiding trying to disguise herself as one of us
Hiding from the filthy ugly lies she has lived
She was led down a path of her own doing
Led astray and down the wrong way
Love turned her eye blind, the truth hidden behind the broken promises
Now she faces the wolf as it is crawling and scratching its way out day by day
When did her beauty fade?
When did her eyes become so grey?
How did she get so blinded?
Where did she go astray?
The questions linger unanswered for the wolf inside her has nothing to say
And then she faces the mirror to see the reflection of the wolf within her
She says I am you and you are me we are one in the same
With her arms opened wide there is nowhere for her to hide
She is waiting to be set free
Waiting for that one arrow straight to the heart
Free her from the pain the lies the strain of her ugly life of lies
She no longer knows who she is without you

Who am I, Where am I going?

Who am I?
As I gaze up into the sky.
I got no answer, from the other side.
Where am I going?
On a road not knowing.
With only the wind behind me blowing.

No one knows me,
When I am down on my knees.
How can I believe?
No more do I dare to dream.
I can only hear my own screams.
Life here is not all that serine.

Now all there is to see is the tears,
Running from my face of fears.
In my heart an arrow spears.
Who am I?
If I were to die?
What would be left but the lie.

Where am I going?
Is not so concerning,
When its over I will not be knowing.
Life is like a boat,
Sometimes all you can do is stay afloat.
And if you fall your bound to get soaked.

To dream is to be happy.
All I ever wanted was to just be me.
All I ever needed was to be free.
Life is not made from dreaming.
Life is always about screaming.

Who am I?
As I gaze up into the sky.
Searching for the answer from the other side.
Where am I going?
Only the one is all knowing.
His voice is the wind behind me blowing.

He tells me to keep going along.
He tells me to live and to be strong.
He asks me to keep fighting just to belong.
Day by day in the light.
Holding onto my life so tight.
Give life a chance and fight.

Don’t let go so fast.
Sometimes dreams do last.
Make your life a blast.
Who are you?
Where are you going?

And the Angle spoke to me saying;
“Pick up your wings child, pick up your wings”
Do not let them see you down,
Although your heart is heavy with worry and woe.
Pick up your wings child and let them grow.
Let them shower over you.
Let them protect you from the dark forces that surround your soul.
Let them rise to the high ward abyss in the sky.
Let them take you and fly,
Fly my child high into the unknown,
And away from those that do you warm and just go.

Where is this road leading me?
There’s no fork in the road
There’s no left or right turns in the road
It’s just seem to be forever going into the unknowing.
I can’t see the end, is that good or is that bad.
There’s no light at the end of this long tunnel.
It’s dark its deep it’s narrowing closer upon me
Squeezing the life out of me
Is the end near will it ever appear?
I fear the end and what’s at the end and how near it really is.
What makes the fear?
Why does it make me stay where I don’t want to be
I see the door but I can’t seem to pull it open
I can’t seem to walk right through and out the other side, Why?
There is nothing here for me any more.
He sees right through me I am invisible.
The past I had with him disappeared along with all his memory of me.
I just want to be free from it all..
Free from the pain.
Free from the hurt.
Free from the worry.
Free from the lies.
Free from this bad dream I seem to be in.

TRUTH IS BEAUTIFUL WITHOUT A DOUBT BUT SO ARE LIES.
WHY IS IT WHEN WE TELL LIES THE TRUTH IS SO HARD TO MAKE UP!
TO CONTINUE THE LIE IS HARDER TO LIVE WITH THAN TO END IT!!
THE LIE WE LIVE BECOMES SO NATURAL LIKE THE RAIN FALLING ON OUR HEADS.
WE BEGAN TO GET STUCK IN OUR OWN WEB OF LIES TO COVER THE LIES.
WRAPPING OURSELVES AROUND IN THE WEB KEEPING OUR SELF FROM THE REAL WORLD.
HOW DO YOU BEGIN TO UNRAVEL THE LIES YOU HAVE WEAVED?
HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THE TRUTH BEHIND THEM.
DO YOU REALLY KNOW WHAT YOUR OWN REALITY IS.

I AM ALONE

I AM ALONE NOW TOTALLY ON MY OWN

IN REALITY I ALWAYS WAS EVEN IF IT WASN'T KNOWN

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SEPARATE FROM HIM

HE LIVED HIS LIFE HIS WAY ON A WHIM

I AM SCARED AND AFRAID THAT I MIGHT FAIL

THE FEAR ITSELF BEGINS TO MAKE ME FRAIL

REALIZING NOW THAT MY PAST HAS MADE ME

HOPING TO CHANGE IT INTO A FUTURE I WANT TO SEE

I TURNED INTO SOMEONE I DON’T KNOW

THE PROCESS OF CHANGE WILL BE FOREVER SLOW

CAN I BEGAN TO GET BACK THAT PERSON I ONCE KNEW

THE PERSON WHO I TRULY WANT TO BREAK THROUGH

SOMEONE TOLD ME MY EYES WERE GREY TODAY
AS I WAS FEELING A BIT IN A HAZE

DO YOUR EYES REFLECT HOW YOU REALLY FEEL
SHADOWS IN A MIRROR OF THE PAST EMERGING STILL

WHY DO THESE THOUGHTS FOREVER HAUNT AND PROLONG
MAKING US LOOK AS IF WE DO NOT BELONG

THESE EYES OF GREY CAN NOT GO ASTRAY
MUST FOCUS ON THE TASK TO TURN THE BAD THINGS AWAY

THESE EYES OF GREY HAVE SEEN SO MANY LIES
WITH QUESTIONS LEADING TO SO MANY WHYS

WHO IS REALLY BEHIND THESE EYES OF GREY
AND WILL SHE EVER FIND HER WAY

THEY SAY THE EYES ARE WINDOWS OF THE SOUL
LOOK INTO HER SOUL ONLY THEN YOU WILL KNOW

THE PAIN THAT GROWS INSIDE OF HER NEVER ENDS
SHE JUST WANT TO BE FREE TO MEND

SOMEONE TOLD HER SHE HAD EYES OF GREY
AS HER SOUL SLOWLY DECAYS

THE BRIDGE IS BREAKING UNDER HER FEET
SEEMS AS LIFE FOR HER DOES NOT MISS A BEAT

SHE WALKS AMONG US AS NORMAL AS CAN BE
THE PAIN DEEP INSIDE HER WHERE NO ONE CAN SEE

SHE HOLDS ON BY A THREAD UNRAVELING FASTER THAN PLANNED
SHE JUST HOPES THE REST OF HER LIFE CAN FINALLY BEGAN

SOME ONE TOLD HER SHE HAD EYES OF GREY TODAY
SHE DARES NOT TO LOOK INTO HER OWN EYES SO SHE LOOKS AWAY

WHAT IS IT THAT HAS SUCH A HOLD OF HER SHE CAN NOT LET GO
SHE WANTS TO BE STRONG SHE WANTS TO GROW

SHE LOOKS INTO THE MIRROR TO GAZE UPON HER EYES OF GREY SLOWLY THEY SEEMINGLY SUBDUE
AS SHE NOTICES THAT THEY ARE EVER SO SLIGHTLY CHANGING TO THEIR TRUE SHADES OF BLUE

To have hope
Is to believe
And to believe
Is to dream
And to dream
Is to be alive
And to be alive
Is to grow your wings
And to have wings
Is to be able to fly
And to be able to fly
Is having no limits to reach the sky.

What she wants?
She wants a touch of a soft hand,
To feel alive to feel the warmth inside.
She wants to dream, and see that dreams do come true,
To believe in something new.
She wants to forget the past,
To release herself from the lies,
To totally be free once and for all.
She wants to hear the beating of her heart,
Beating fueled by the touch of your hand.
She wants to have you all to herself,
To hold you to caress you,
To lean on you and trust you.
All she wants out of life is true unconditional love,
Without a thought do you want to love her back.
She wants to know that you are there,
By her side through the hardest of times,
Through her darkest of days.
She wants to feel safe in your arms,
Like there’s no tomorrow,
Like she’s living in the dream,
Shared only by the two of you.
All she ever wanted is to be with you!