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DomtheCurlyful Jan 2014
You slept and
I crept
into that new room

And curled into the sleeping bag
Because it was crisp outside.
It wasn’t light yet.

And the ghosts on the bridge
didn’t know that I could see them.
DomtheCurlyful Aug 2012
The boxes are piling against the door,
my clothes are strewn across the floor,
each fold holds the shadow of a time with you
every thread the touch of your skin
you smiled when I wore this dress

It lies balled up in a bag,
tight crumples,
violently creased

the creases,
and crumbles
and crying
I am wringing the tears from my heart
I am crying my love and it won't leave me
I am twisting it and it still will not tear
it sits in that bag
tightly crumpled.
DomtheCurlyful Apr 2012
The fears that keep me awake at night
made me nightmare through that day

                            up
                             ­                                   up                            ­                  
Little bubbles clustering up             in my brain
         'til they spilled as tears from my eyes.

But my brain was still full so I looked at you

and you knew


You put the pain in my throat twice that day,
once when you looked away.

We spoke and we spoke and we spoke and my voice was
dead.

I said
what are words? Words. What are words?

and you cried.

I thought I was wiping my tears from your cheeks,
I thought they were mine.
And then I knew you were scared.
So I held you.

You put the pain in my throat twice that day,
twice when you gave way

Our cheeks that our cleansed
by our tears of today

will rub against eachother tomorrow

because you cried.
DomtheCurlyful Aug 2012
You wanted to ask would he promise not to leave you too,
and add, that is was okay, you understood,
even though it wasn't,
and you didn't.

But you stop yourself,
this is progress, you think.
This is what is means to be healthy,
and not to be sick,
your words like spores,
taking root in the minds of your friends,
in his mind,
and then he cuts you off,
like mould on bread.

So you keep swallowing,
and your throat is tight,
and the crease between your eyes,
and above your nose
is giving you a headache.

This is progress.
This is moving on.
This is what it means to be happy with yourself.
I am happy with just me, you say,
and your smile like a **** across your face.
DomtheCurlyful Nov 2012
The raining brings rememberings
of different beds in different rooms
of hard floors and soft arms
of cold nights but warm hands

The pattering against the swish of tents
and slanted, slated roofs
and slipping down windows
and tips of noses

The feeling of raining
of Warm and of Safe
The raining brings rememberings
and coldness and pain

It will never be the same again.
DomtheCurlyful Aug 2012
Here I lie where we once lay,
My thoughts my own,
and me
alone.

You once curled around my back
almost twice curled
I was so small in your arms
Your head against the curve of my neck

And me safe as safe,
soft, with you,
the protective shell.

I sit here alone.
My body clenched, coiled, with all this pain
All of you around me
And none of you truly there.

I press my hands against my arms,
trying to make my own shell,
but it just reminds me
of how yours used to feel.
Una
DomtheCurlyful Sep 2012
Una
Wrapped in your wool
with that will in your eye
She's firm but she's gentle
she loves you it hurts
breakfast eight sharp
then lunch at half-twelve
you come down for your tea
and the Angelus bells

We ran in bare feet over stones
and the thorns
that was cross-country running in
County Clare
I look at them now
sandaled and layered
your walking-frame
smiling in the glare

I can't understand your
need for the news
news is at eight, nine, ten
and eleven
lunchtime news
and more at seven
News at nine before you sleep
a paper a day and the radio beep

I know,
we grow
and you can't remember
if it's me or I'm her
or we're seventeen
You know that's it's raining and
there's war over there
so you hold on to that
but how much do you care?

It's not your fault.
your papery hands clasped
in your little lap
It's too fast
and it spins and it spins
and we are spinning away
I'm trying to hold on
to hold you
I help you up
I sit you down
I can't help with this
I'm sorry gran.
DomtheCurlyful Aug 2014
I dreamt of smashed
fairylights.
Trying to weave through the shards
sparkling
piercing, it was night

but light outside.
The sheets tangled my limbs,

hot mind,
in little bits

Scrape it up.
Scrape me up.
DomtheCurlyful Nov 2011
There is nothing in my head.
There is fluff in my stomach and heavy on my heart.
My eyes are full of wet and my lips are falling down.

I am not what I want to be. I am disappointed in me.

I cleaned the house and I ate my lunch and everything is still empty. But at least it is clean.
I am trying not to turn on the tv, it will rot my brain. It will rot your brain and make it empty and you will never get away and you will be stuck there forever.

I think it is too late.

It is too late for everything, because the oven is clean but I don’t plan on baking and the shower is clean but I don’t feel like washing. And I don’t have any money but I keep on shopping.

Oh Shakespeare, you’re boring me. If I just finish this scene than I can paint my nails.
Reading and rereading, I did not take that in, I do not know who you are or what you are saying because you are speaking backwards.

If I just go outside than there will be loud. My ears will be full; I will concentrate on my face and not on words. Then it will be time to make dinner and I will make dinner in the clean oven and then I can watch tv because it will be night.

Soon I will have to go back. They will be there, with all their productivity and glowing and talent. You will think I am shy but it is that I have nothing in my head.

There is nothing in my head. It is all in my heart.
I will go to sleep and wish it were the opposite.
DomtheCurlyful Aug 2012
My brain!
Oh my brain.

It's the words, the words I don't know,
it's my fingers that won't help.
I can't express,
like a mother's milk from her breast,
these words sour inside me,
because I don't know them

and I need them

My feelings will make me insane,
I will rip out my heart
and my brain
and this throat with a
******* lump so I can't even speak
Speak!
And even if I speak I can't connect the speak with the think
and the feelings slink in
and slide all over my brains
my brains
It's red and red
and blue
and grey
grey.

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