I feel like a dead body
Emotionless but so sad at the same time
How did i get to this point?
There is nothing to look back at
And nothing i can look forward to
I know the truth but i run from it
I smile on the outside
But on the inside i feel it
It's like an old familiar friend
I greet him with open arms because
It's just oh so comfortable
It's exhausting being two people
It's like i was set up for failure
And i believe it will never end.

I enjoy the chase
I desire something he won't give
I give nothing and expect everything
It's like I was made for this
I know what is coming
I see it approaching
But i won't give it up
It causes me pain
But i hold on tightly
Its a crippling pattern
Chasing the unavailable

I thought i wanted you
I imagined our love and how you would feel
But reality snuck up on me
You didn't have room for me
I wasn't a part of what you imagined
Now i'm left to collect the pieces
Of what could have been