this song reminds me of you

i should listen to it while i can

while it isn't only sad voices
repeatedly whispering your name
into my ears

will i ever be with you
i think to myself

i know the answer though
but still i whisper

i would travel the world
just so i could look at your eyes

i rip the peels from my lips until i'm bleeding
i bite my tongue until i pierce it with my teeth
i crack my bones until they're broken


i scratch your back until there's pieces of your skin under my nails

I feel like I'm not enough because you are so much.

i'm so scared and sad and sick
and i just want you


that's all

get off my shoulders
i can't carry you anymore

don't go



please
please don't leave a hole in my stomach again

i hope you're okay


because
i haven't seen you in a couple of days


but i can feel you in my stomach

i can feel you inside my veins


my bones are shaking so violently

i'm afraid they will break

"please not her
she's so much better than me



don’t you be in love with that girl
please please don’t

anyone but her"

i said

but,
to be honest,

i think i've said that about all the other girls

you are the reason i smile
you are the reason i cry
you are the reason i laugh
you are the reason i get mad

you are the only reason i feel something