Listen
to me
I am an old man
rigid
and
fixed
stuck in the way
I have
always
done
and you
broke that
down
from being
one
type
to being full
of life and energy
to be a tired bitter old man
into a mad man lost without his box
because I don't need all of time and space
when I smile
because
of

It was impossible
simply
utterly
impossible
I had held my heart
back
so long
processing
my emotions through
long
logical
outlines
Trying to take in account
everything that
could
would
happen
making contingencies
for contingencies
setting thousands of
plans into motion
preventing consequences
before they happen
and it was annoying
but it was how I was
built
complex
intertwining
impossibilities
with sheer will
but what you said
was impossible
but you
bridged
that
gap
with a simple
question
and
I couldn't say no
even if it was
impossible
I've done it before
I did it
again
and for
once
I shut up
my mind
and
I
kissed you
the impossible
achieved
and now
that I've
done
the impossible
I know
I am
Mighty
and its not that
scary
because its
not impossible
anymore

I dream
not of wealth
or fame
but of you
and me
my hand
following your soft
jawline
guiding you
closer to me
my digits wrap around
and stop
but you grow closer
still
Your eyes
close
mine as well
and it is then
when your lips
touch mine
I feel your palm
holding my chest
this is my heart
run rampant
as I try to take
back control
from it wanting
that what I must
patiently wait
and
earn it

I know the price
that I play with
everyday
gambling my life
my mind
with a toss of the dice
torrenting a storm of knowledge
from the well of the secrets of life
trying to find the code
to let me be free
its millions of exabytes
of incomputable *******
that clogs the systems of life
and yet it brings me no closer
to understanding her
I may find the meaning
of life and the universe
but that
is not what I want
I want to understand you
Us if there could be an us
But I know the price
that I play with
everyday
gambling my life
my mind
with a toss of the dice
I play with dice made of
bones from the old gods carved
by my mind and soul
as I slayed them with a blade
made from my heart
stronger than diamond
sharper than any steel
more powerful than black holes
brighter than the core of the stars in the skies
I was here when the universe was created
and I will be here when the universe ends
with a whisper and maybe then I will get my
answer...

I have seen things
that would
Amaze
Frighten
Disgust
Abhor
The twin blinking stars
of Beta IV
The cascade of Emeralds waterfalls
of Theta V
The nova geysers
of the planet Zetta
I have seen my home planet
burn like a thousands suns
Repeating onward for eternity
stuck in a perpetual war
dying again and again
and again
and again
and again and again and again
my people doomed
because of me
but when I
see
her
I can
forget
for a moment
an instant
and maybe
if she stays here
next
to
me
I can forget
All the things
that pale to her
Just maybe...

I don't know
what I'm doing
I'm winging it with
you
because you are
unique
I haven't met a
woman like you,
you
confuse,
puzzle,
intrigue me
and its
crazy
but I enjoy
the thrill
but it shakes
me up
and lets hope
you give me
a chance

My heart beats fast
as I see the change
Your change but not by choice
My pupils dilate and my
Mind is clear of what must be done
My hands shake
My stomach turns
I thank god
But
I realize
my foolishness
my arrogance
my ignorance
my selfishness
If you mean so much to me
Why do I rejoice in your sadness
I inhale poison to calm my nerves
It is then when I realize
In my rush to come to you
That every fiber of my being
tells me that you
are very important
this means something
It has to
You deny its importance
But I have been alive for far too long
to place it as coincidence
I have to believe that