hi
if you see this
how are you?
i tried to not care about you
often
but it is so hard to not care about someone
i used to love

i don't know
why is it seem so easy for you
i guess
you are not hurted
the way i hurts

if you could,
what would you do?

if i'm holding my tears because of you
what would you do?

if i cried because of you
what would you do?

if we're over but i still miss you
what would you do?

if you could see me crying in my room
what would you do?

if one day
you'll stop loving me
would you tell me the reason?

if one day
you'll leaving me
how do you feel about it?

i like it
i love it
when i blow into your neck
you laughed
you laughed and look so happy
that's why i kept blowing your neck

i want to see
and
i want you to feel
how's it feel to be happy with me
are you happy?
or
is it hurt you?

you don't even say a word
because
you can't describe things in a word
then
why don't you just prove it?

i'll be here when you need someone to talk
i can't keep pretend that you're gone
but i don't know
i don't know

i keep stuck in this memories
just by sitting here alone
i keep missing you alone
and it *****

i wish you can tell me what's the reason
i wish you can save me that day
i wish you care about me
i wish you'll stop watching that stupid tv shows and just calling me

there's so many wishes
there's so many hope
i've made

i shouldn't put high expectation on you
i regretted it

i guess,
i'm the dumbest here

"Goodnight"
It's our goodbye before we go to sleep
We used to say it to each other
Sometimes,
Maybe me
Maybe you
Get mad
Because one of us
Doesn't say it
And then
One of us will fell asleep
And forget to say it

But now
We are really strangers

Hold my hands
Hug me tightly
Give me a flowers
Sent me a letter
Ask me to sneaking out in the middle of the night
I want you to adore me
Tell me how beautiful i am to you
Tell me how you adore me
Wrote me a song
Made me a playlist that the song reminds you of me

Please,
Show me how much you care about me
Prove me how much you love me

Please,
Appreciate me
You should be thankful
But sadly,
You're not

Although you rarely think of me
I’ll still remember how beautiful you dark brown eyes is,
The way sun shines through your eyes,
The way you looking at me while sun kissed you and made your eyes lighter

Do you still scared of the dark?
Do you still love spicy food?
Do you still love the ramen we ate on Grand Indonesia?
Do you still love the band we both admire?

I’m afraid.
I’m afraid that I’ll be sad when you have a new girl and you treat her better than you’ve treated me
It’s not fair
That ,
I felt the pain but you don’t

you promise to stay forever if i want to
i want to
but you broke the promises we've made

i guess
everyone promises forever until they find someone better
we haven't spoke since
i don't even remember

how
when
why
the last time we met