How can one fathom
The love in those rooms
In the embrace of the hugs
That literally save lives?

How does one comprehend
This incompatible combination of
Weakness and sentimentality
Of a bad cup of coffee?

How does one understand
The stories and backgrounds
And pain
And sorrow
And happiness
And spirituality
And laughter
And acceptance
Of this truly motley crew?

Unless you have been in their shoes
It may be impossible to completely know
But I’m okay with a glimpse
Into their beautiful world

What does it take to have no inhibitions?
To not care about rules
Or what people think

To be solely yourself or whatever you want to be
How do you get to that point
Without paying attention to former conditioning?

To wear what you want
To say what you want
To feel what you want
To love who you want
To **** who you want
In any way you want

What does it take to run away?
Where nobody knows you
Or cares enough to find out

What a life that would be
If I could start over
And be a whole new me

I wrestle with content
I lay with uneasiness
Where to find the truth
Is questionable at best

Is it in the shadows I see out of the corner of my eye?
Teasing me, meandering between their realm and mine
Telling me nothing but so much more
Dark, but purposeful and reaching

Or is it in the thoughts that run marathons through my mind?
No particular subject or theme
Yet scattered with meanings
Hinting to be stitched together

Or is it in the curve of a chest? (that makes me so digress…)
Soft and strong with sunlight inching in
I’m sinking…
          drifting…
              charging
Bone structures say so much

Hovering with no purpose…freedom
Yet craving to be tethered
To be dutiful or uninhibited?
For now I flirt with restlessness