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487 · Feb 2016
A Knight Who Does Not Fight
Star Gazer Feb 2016
Silver armour defeating deafening silence,
Arrow heads impaling against metal,
He stood there withstanding the violence,
As war and gore on soil starts to settle.

Fatal finish for violence over words,
As the sound armour dings and rings,
The only noise the soldiers heard,
Were the sound of death, violence brings.

He was dressed like a soldier in battle,
But he had a gentle beating heart,
His mind never once did rattle,
When they used violence to tear him apart.

His words resonate in the soldiers soul,
'You don't have to use violence to fight,
And in this world being whole,
Means finding the bright light'.

"Violence is never the solution,
  It's a lesson that never changes,
  It should not belong to confucian,
  But then again humanity rarely changes"
487 · Feb 2016
Healing Hearts
Star Gazer Feb 2016
Life isn't about healing wounds,
It is about healing hearts,
When all that fills us up,
Starts to shatter into bits and parts.
When our bodies decay,
And it eventually will,
We sit by the window sill,
Looking out and see the beauty,
The beauty of the night,
The blinding specks of light,
The stars that barely gets noticed.
When our bodies decay,
We go to doctors,
Not because we want to be fixed,
Because we prevent our dreams,
Like flying in a rocket,
from dying with us.

Life isn't about healing wounds,
It is about healing hearts.
We may witness people losing limbs,
But when they lose their spirit,
Their soul,
Their purpose,
That is when their heart is weakest.
When our bodies decay,
and it eventually will,
When we can't move,
And all we do is sit still,
If our heart keeps beating we're still alive
And you might think it's how to survive,
But fact is that the essence of feelings,
Come straight from the heart.
A mothers sight of her baby,
A fathers arms holding his baby.

Life isn't about healing wounds,
It's about healing hearts,
When our hearts is tainted,
with the venomous words,
that somehow tattooed and painted,
into our being.
Infectious words,
spoken on how weird we are,
or how dumb we are,
or how ugly we are,
or even how lonely we are.
Our hearts become corroded,
pieces of what they use to be,
for when a body is poisoned
it only dies when the heart does.

Life isn't about healing wounds,
It is about healing hearts.
486 · Sep 2016
Fiends
Star Gazer Sep 2016
People tell me don't spread hate
So I'll try not to make that mistake
You are one foul shadow casting creature
And that merely covers your features.
You're a disgusting old man with fake thoughts
Only spreading the nice words not to get caught
Well catch this '*******, **** *******'

Your fake masks covers your lies
And for those with hands on their eyes
I hope you see that old man for what he is
Than for what he actually isn't.

The breeze blows the snow away
And I hope you're melting today
You cold hearted snowman ******* ****.
483 · Aug 2016
Fiction
Star Gazer Aug 2016
Coated the idea in plastic
Kim Kardashian heisted the magic
Kept it in public's eye, distorted;
tarnished its value as though it's important,
but in the wrong ways.

We've paint a portrait of fiction;
Created chaos and complete addiction,
it's reverting back to a rendition
where we forget what it really means;
so we speak of it as though we knew it,
and shun eyes on those who go through it
even though most take part into it.

A slight touch, to make it look natural;
we've lost the organic and pastoral,
we've seen complete cover ups
moulded masks with make up,
we've filled the world with falsities,
And if the world is burning or crashing,
you can always keep up with the kardashian.

We've muddled beauty with plastic,
Celebrities heisted the magic,
we've placed shallow beauty in media;
saturated the world in sepia,
fake ****, make-up, same cups;
we've distorted the idea of beauty,
And left half the world feeling ugly....
Feeling like they aren't worth anything...
Feeling like the world was not built for them.
479 · Jun 2016
Maybe he's still alive...
Star Gazer Jun 2016
Maybe he's still alive, that sullen guy
who crept out of the abyss like a moth
and before we even knew the depth,
he saw light and chased every ray.

The beautiful girl unbeknownst by touch,
slided,skated and glided on words
and the two of them flew on lexical wings,
afraid of falling from the heat that was love.

Guy and girl, found one another's arms,
Fought against an avalanche of cold snow,
they held each other against the mountains.

Love soon discovered it was labelled love,
And as my heart awoke to thoughts of you,
suddenly your heart became a guiding light.
473 · Dec 2016
Debris
Star Gazer Dec 2016
They asked me how she found herself into my life
as if lights were lit across the street guiding her to me
or a beat of my heart led her safely towards my arms
but it wasn't that way, she merely noticed the rubbles
the bits and parts of pebbles scattered across the grounds
as the crowd of people walked further and further away.

Her shadow crept closer each passing moment
the opening of an otherwise undiscovered unity
but she beautifully kept herself going with each step
and each breath she found herself closer and closer.

They asked me how she found herself into my life
I guess she followed the debris of my heart
and my past like a kid on a candy hunt,
while others waltzed past in their own world.
472 · Feb 2016
Pirates
Star Gazer Feb 2016
Atop the mountain gazing down,
I witness a collection of goats,
And right by then sat a small town,
Filled with gold, and boats.

I shifted angles and looked to the back,
A bunch of buffoons with nothing,
Staring at me as I screamt attack,
Ten, twenty , thirty men all coughing.

"It must be the ***", said one bearded buffoon,
"it must be the weather", said another,
And one with a scar said "it must be the moon"
And then finally "it must be my ****" said my brother.

They all ran towards the town, plundered the gold,
Made it so that the children could never grow old.
470 · Apr 2016
Half-Truth
Star Gazer Apr 2016
She was a strong figure
Not a manly or womanly type
But emotionally strong.
She held a smile all along
While internalising the pain
That kept herself feeding
Her own anguish to the point
that she wasn't herself,
but she held her head up high,
and lived life without a single sigh,
facing troubles head on.

She was a strong figure
Or so I thought
As I awoke to find
Scribbled across the cold
Hard cement ground,
In chalk it read
"I'm done as promised,
I love you mum, dad
& Kevin".

News came much after,
And the fruits carried
From the growing tree
Were anything but laughter.
Half of the story is true. Half of it isn't.
469 · Feb 2016
Great Grandpa
Star Gazer Feb 2016
They read the words but miss out between the lines,
As though the struggles of yesterday,
Could somehow be wished away,
Our reality still reflected the barren wastelands and land mines,
And because we had all our limbs,
That we were fine.

We weren't.

Psychological trauma is an old friend of ours,
He drinks with us at night hours,
Sings to us when we are falling asleep,
And with every light, there he is around the corner to creep.

The sounds of fireworks and firecrackers brings us back,
to that place where the shells once cracked,
And bodies became charred in complete black.

I could remember one of the days I was with my brother,
We were close because we grew up without a mother,
We ran miles and miles without a single smile,
Because nothing was hopeful not even for a small while.
I thought that death was approaching when the soldiers came in,
Their green uniforms and some of them familiar faces,
I thought I was going to die.
   And when you welcome the thought of death,
   You start to realise how much you have left,
   And to me that was your grandparents,
   Because I knew after I go, there's no inheritance,
   No food, no money, nothing left to keep them alive,  
   And thats why I did my best to survive.
Tragic however, my brother didn't make it,
We ran and ran but somehow he was still taken,
And thats why war is hell,
Because even in the sound of life's shattering bells,
I can still remember him telling me to run.
Great grandpa told me that he tried his best to help his brother and he says thats his biggest regret today, unable to help his brother. My great grandpa is deaf in one ear, he said when a bomb dropped it took away his sense of hearing so I don't know if he can hear me when I speak to him but he always recaps that moment....

Sometimes he'd recount of the time he was chopping wood and he'd find little birds who are so free they can just fly to another place and live away from the war. He says he wished he could just fly out in some moments....
468 · Mar 2016
My Memories
Star Gazer Mar 2016
I'm still afraid
       I can remember every detail
Of how my childhood derailed.
      I remember the last moments
He was in the hospital bed
      I could remember mum being there
As he lost more than just his hair
      I could remember his cousin
Rapidly pressing the emergency button
      I could remember the nurses yells
He was too sickly to hold a smile
      But I could remember his eyes
As they start to turn white
      And the shine start to taper off.
Mum in tears held my hand
      As he breathes his final breath.

I don't tell people
      Simply because it isn't a fun story
But I remember every detail
      And I tell people I've forgotten.

Another time I remember seeing him
      Hunched over the sink combing his hair
His once filled thick hair head
       Reduced to tiny fuzz of what it was.

I don't tell people these stories
        I tell them of my fun life
I tell them everything good
        I make jokes constantly
And I tell myself I've forgotten.
        Forgotten every detail...

People tell me I should refer to him
        As dad.
But sadly I have no real fond memories.
        And even with a full retention memory
I have no memories
         Of any quality father son moments.
HP you're the only people I've shared this with. Everyone in my life thinks I've forgotten that day. I haven't,  I still remember the being pushed to wait outside. The white hospital bed covered in blue sheets. The final moments my life changed. I can remember all of that, yet not one time where me and my dad did anything or see anything. There's videos of him carrying me....of him holding my hand....
But I was 5 and it's been too many years.
Nowadays I refuse to see someone pass away in front of me again, and that's why when great grandma passed, i just stood as far as possible from the casket. I am afraid..... that I'll have to live with another memory every night.
468 · Mar 2016
Hidden Away
Star Gazer Mar 2016
You watched me letting out tears as I cry
You heard me scream till my throat hurts
But you'll never see what my mind hides
Behind every butterfly is a worm in the dirt.

You watched me smile with my teeth shown
Grinned with lips stretching cheek to cheek
But you'll never see that I want to be buried below
Because light only exists when things are bleak.

I always tell myself I've been a glass half full person
But mirrors break and glasses shatter
When I hate someone I will curse them
But I just want nothing but to be a splatter.

Hidden away is all my sorrows
So everyday I'm feeling more hollow
Because I know I'm living on time that is borrowed
Just waiting for a day where I won't see tomorrow.

Wearing a mask always suffocates me
But if I owe people one thing, it's honesty
And honestly I don't see the true me
I see a fake smile, fake humour as fake as fake can be.

There's nothing left to look forward to
The sky is tumbling and blue
There's nothing that will be new
I don't know what I'm suppose to do...
468 · Sep 2016
Ribcage Gardens
Star Gazer Sep 2016
She hasn't spoken to me in a while
but that could be just in my mind,
she told me 'love' should be unheard
so I want to show it, the way its preferred.
I can't seem to find the right things to do
I'm pulling on a thin thread hoping that
turning my ribcage that held her
most favourite flowers instead of my heart
could have been a better choice.
My heart, it use to beat the rhythm of her steps,
the tune to her voice,
but now it feels hollow.
I want a bouquet of roses to grow
from my ribcage so that I can show her
that I love her.
I want my blood to be the water
that the roses drink and the shine of my smile
the light that feeds the roses.
I just want her to know I love her,
but she doesn't.
The sad thing is, even if I die,
I know I'll die loving,
no one but her,
wanting,
no one but her,
needing,
no one but her.

I watched the sunflowers grow
in her ribcage and I'm smiling
while pleading
**
my mind has become so hazy,
the world is driving me crazy
But please don't give up on me baby
466 · Aug 2016
Last night
Star Gazer Aug 2016
Last night I wished upon a shooting star,
And in a hazy dream, I saw everything alive,
As I sew the seams for every wish to survive.

"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed",
And if 'tis a fate upon myself, I shall hope to avoid
like the eye of a hurricane in an eye of a needle.

Last night I wished upon the light of a bright star
and I stumbled onto one with brightest hue
who gave me a sense of happiness I never knew.

"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed",
And if 'tis you that proposes my mind to be void,
In no longer than a heartbeat shall I bear you my mind.

__
Last night I heard Einstein recite a poem, saw Edgar Allen Poe paint and danced with Vincent Vangogh in the moonlight, yet none of it was as interesting as the opportunity to meet you.
465 · Apr 2016
Mind V Heart
Star Gazer Apr 2016
My heart screams at me
It's reverberating the words
'She's perfect', let her know
But my mind, my mind clouds
The words that come from
My heart.
My mind is telling me,
'If you do, there's no going back',
So I let my mind
Silence the thoughts that my heart
has created.
I let my mind
Silence the ***** that keeps me alive.
I ask myself daily now
'Will I ever be more than a struggle
Between heart vs mind? Will I ever
Be able to choose my heart like
A dog chooses to fetch a stick
Without any actual commands?'
If I were to let my heart choose,
It would say ' Go tell her you
really really think she's beautiful',
so I go and do that but what
I'm really trying to say is
'I don't think any part of me
Can enjoy life as much as it
Has without your company'.
Star Gazer Feb 2016
'Pride cometh before the fall' ,
I've spent too long standing tall,
Holding shoulders up high,
And constant sights on the sky.

Mind on macabre of past figures,
With heart on the bigger picture,
So I join a queue with those who fell,
Into a bottomless pit known as hell.

I fell joining Goliath and Caesar
For having too much pride
More leader than people pleaser,
And thats how I died.

For Pride Cometh Before The Fall
462 · Apr 2016
Primary Colours
Star Gazer Apr 2016
You see, red blue and yellow.
They were all friends,
They had been setting trends,
And each colour had its own personality.

Red was a hothead,
Always jumping to conclusion,
She hated any confusion
So you would have to be precise.
When she loved however,
It was with a burning passion,
And when she hated,
She would make you rain blood.

Blue was peaceful,
Always the sullen eyed boy
He loved the sky,
Love the sea,
But at times he felt all alone,
And as a result,
he lived with the name he was given.

Yellow
Loved the sun,
He loved having fun.
If one were to describe him,
He was rather quite mellow,
And theres a calming presence
That comes along with
the words he speaks.

One fine night
As they spent in each others company
With fine dining and wine for delight
They decided to do something thrilling.
They joined each other
In a night full of lust filled fun
And as blue started kissing yellow,
Imprints of green on the canvas were seen.
Red got a little lonely and decided to
****** blue away from yellow for a moment
As they got to busy acts,
Red and blue left a patch of purple,
that rained along the walls and ground.
Yellow was allured by reds smell,
As a result he snatched her into his arms
Caressing her with his tenderly touch
and so formed Orange.

They formed a rainbow of happiness,
A combination of different colours.
461 · Apr 2016
He Posts A Poem
Star Gazer Apr 2016
He posts a poem
He sits and waits
Hoping people can relate
To the words on his pad.

He posts a poem
He keeps eyeing for comments
Hoping for critics and commends
To show his words have value.

He posts a poem
Silence.
Finally peace
With his internal demons,
He posts a poem
To silence the torment
His words completely absorbent,
Killing each demon within him.
He posts a poem
To extinguish the flame
That is to blame
For all his sadness and despair.
He posts a poem
Not for anyone else,
But for himself,
A seemingly innocent task
But an internal cry for help.
HELP!!!...

Silence,
Once again
As he posts this poem.
461 · Feb 2016
A boy
Star Gazer Feb 2016
Belief is such a powerful thing,
Deeper shade of gold than any bling,
Belief was the reason Humans saw birds sing,
That melodic tune harmonising with the claps of a tiny wing,
They say love and trust forms a wedding,
Then belief should be the rings.

There was a young little boy,
Who didn't play with toys,
He spent time building model rockets,
Wiring electrical sockets,
He went beyond the mind of a boy.
One day a kid on the playground,
Told him he should be killed for the way he sounds,
That when he dies his organs will be harvested,
And he will lay to rot with other carcasses.
The boy fell apart, fell into utter despair,
Started questioning why humans built a chair,
When they are eventually going to die.

He had a dream once, to be an astronaut,
Hoping one day his dreams would be caught,
But when his voice became silenced,
Not in the means of violence,
Yet he saw no reason to speak,
Saw no learning to seek,
He would sit and stare at windows,
Days on end,
Thinking about his end.
The same kid on the playground once again spoke,
'Everything you ever do and want to be is a joke',
So his light started to vanish,
He swapped all science classes to japanese and spanish,
Learning languages instead of pursuing dreams,
He has finally given up it seems.

Without belief,
A human is set to stray against his dreams,
All the threads break apart at the seams,
And there cease any reason to exist.
So when no one else believes in you,
Keep true to being you,
Because self belief is as important,
As anything in this world.
It is the diamond encrusting of the human soul.
459 · Sep 2016
Smile for me
Star Gazer Sep 2016
I wish that I could say
All the things on my mind
Like how you did once
Call yourself mine.
I wish that I could see
All the things I couldn't hear
Like the words I love you
But I'm running out of time.

I would hold
All the tears that I had left
Back behind broken breaths and a sigh
Because all that I
Wanted was to see you smile.
One last time
Before I go
Could you please
Just smile for me
So I believe
That I made you
Happy.
459 · Feb 2016
Ends Where It Begins
Star Gazer Feb 2016
She saw him, mildly infatuated she said "hi",
He smiled at her and a murmur of "hi"
Her infatuation of him ended, "goodbye".
His mind reciprocated the gesture, "goodbye".
No "I'll see you later, or if fate took us by chance",
A simple goodbye and departure,
**For a childhood love ends where it begins.
459 · Mar 2016
Quote 4
Star Gazer Mar 2016
As time passes
Things change every day
But wounds, wounds heal, but scars still remain the same
But tomorrow today's going down in flames
Throw the match, set the past ablaze**
              
   -Eminem
458 · Feb 2016
Conforming
Star Gazer Feb 2016
They only saw her dimensions
As though there were no curves in her edges
Treated her like she was just a box,
Picking at her the way they would pick at locks,
Trying to steal her internal content,
Showing her how society circles bent,
That if she hadn't followed trends,
There'd be no light at tunnel's end.

So thorns were pricked of the rose,
Leaving her completely exposed,
As though she was part of shows,
Because people only saw her looks.
Roses wilt and wither
And what made her her, vanished with her.
She became a walking advertising sign,
For what it meant to colour within the line.
457 · Feb 2016
We.
Star Gazer Feb 2016
We.
'A bully is always a coward',
The teachings prevalent in school,
But in glory he showered,
With attributes of being cool.

He grew up as most men do,
And still the sky sheltered him,
The sky that shone its blue,
For once never grew dim.

During school, whilst still young,
The bully broke peoples interest
Deemed singers nerd for being well sung,
Not realising everyone's different.

We can't all be well hung jocks,
We write to ease our pain,
Breaking from shackles, we picked locks,
Through words that don't die in vain.

The bully grew up like most people,
He became a banker somehow,
Robbing interest seemed less evil,
Because it was strictly business now.

Robbing interest through loans,
As though health and wellbeing,
Was a construction only shown,
From the money people are seeing.

The bully grew up,
Never deemed a real coward,
Whilst we hung unto our name enough,
For them to eventually be scoured.

We lived as freaks and geeks,
Always trapped between strange,
As though undeserving of creeks,
Lakes, Rivers, houses and granges.

We deserved it the way the bullies do,
Ever since the start, birth,
Because we live in the same blue,
The same blue that shelters Earth,

We may be the underdogs,
Sitting on the benches,
Butts sticking to rotten logs,
But we may also build business ventures.

So don't underestimate us, simply based on how we look,
Because one day we might be the exact people to save your lives,
So don't ever mistake sympathy for weakness because if you mistook,
We may shatter the lives we help save just look at bee and hives.
456 · Feb 2016
Smeagol
Star Gazer Feb 2016
They say if you've found the
One.

No matter how much pain,
You've suffered,
You'll still look at them,
The way Gollum,
Looks at the one ring.

You would die for the,
One.
Battle in wars for the,
One.

And you would never,
     Ever,
             Discard it's worth.

I need someone to be my,
Ring,
Or someone to be my,
Gollum,
After all, that is life's,
Final goal.....
455 · Jul 2016
Do I?
Star Gazer Jul 2016
Do I just grab on the sands of time
And hold onto every single grain?
Do I stay till I'm wrinkled and grey
Or do I lose myself in someone else?

Do I keep what my heart remembers
Or do I kindle the memories stored?
Do I cast shadow on what we were
Or bring to light what we'll never be?

Do I wait to tell you what's in my heart
Or let the tides of time break it to pieces?
Do I tell you how the feelings never ceases
Or do I let slide what feelings still linger?

Do I mask what I think and feel
Or to let them both come to collide?
Do I convince myself into that lie
Or let myself be awoken to truth?

Do I wait for you till I am but
Bones and ashes
Or do I cast away these thoughts
and see where my heart latches?
455 · Feb 2016
To Mrs Gazer
Star Gazer Feb 2016
Every mistake I make,
Brings me closer,
To the one I'll put all at stake,
Just to hold her.

The way she will look at me,
Like the way I look at the stars,
The way she will look at trees,
The way I look at cars.

The way she'll genuine laugh at jokes,
Holding her hair back from her mouth,
For whenever she wanted to speak or spoke,

When she says 'I'm happy',
The way I can reply 'I'm star gazer nice to meet you happy'
And get a genuine chuckle.
The way she encourages me,
And the way she'll build blocks for me.

I will meet you one day,
And I'll marry the heck out of you,
You take my word for it,
Mrs star gazer...

I don't know where you are,
Or what you're doing,
But i know you're near me,
Somewhere. ....

Oh please let you be the hottie down the street,
Just kidding.
I'm sure you're beautiful.

Can't wait to meet you,
Your love...
     Star Gazer
Haha. My future wife....who I haven't met yet ......I want to write kind of a future letter and see whether any of it will come up true.
454 · Feb 2016
Grocery Shop
Star Gazer Feb 2016
If the world was one giant grocery shop
And we'd find everyone at one stop.
We could pick people from different aisles,
Without having to travel even a mile.
If nothing was ever remotely different,
Our choices would be limited to infinite,
Not as a common denominator,
But as a common numerator.
You could pick a person from aisle three,
Exactly how you'd pick coffee or tea.
You could take an item and return it to the shelf,
And grab an identical item from the same spot.
Every person would be easily replaced,
Like the act of cut, copy and paste.


Humans however are not identical,
We differed from faces to ventricles,
Even our hearts were made different,
So did our lives and frame of reference.
Humans can not be picked up and replaced,
As though memories didn't occupy a space,
In our hearts.

The world could never be one giant grocery shop,
Cause the biggest difference in a pond is a single raindrop.
451 · Feb 2016
Joke # 2
Star Gazer Feb 2016
A couple of cows was seeing a couples counselor,
But never could resolve their problems.
So one afternoon like a good scarecrow, as they were outstanding in their field, the female cow made a suggestion. I am a dairy cow and you a meat cow, we were never meant to be. I'll always remember you as my big missed steak.

The male cow took a heaving sigh and said
"It's time to MOOOOOOOve on"
450 · Apr 2016
White Chocolate Dreams
Star Gazer Apr 2016
You use to be my dream
Now you visit me in them
You stood there in my dreams
Mumbling 'girl troubles? **** em'

A clearance of problems
As though two words
Somehow would solve them
But it was your way.

Last night you relay
What your words
Would always say
And I felt the value.

*'Don't let a ***** **** up your heart.
It's like letting a bear **** on a Prada bag'.
White Chocolate Angel dedicated poem
450 · Mar 2016
Bye
Star Gazer Mar 2016
Bye
I have always tried to write
So that my demons are kept away
Not everyone puts up a fight
And so the demons see light of day.

I write this last piece for the friends
Who have seen me through insanity
For those that believe that 'things end'
And now my words are living in vanity.

Thank you for the multiple experiences
Showing me that life in essence is beauty,
That there lies things beyond appearances,
And now I guess I've served my time, done my duty.

I bid you all a fine farewelll
Praying for all of you
To live life in swell
And escape matrimony with feeling blue.
Thank you all. Most importantly thank you to Ashley, Eriko (you'll make it to be a successful artist. Talent tends to drive success and you are talented. Don't ever stop painting or writing) lucinda, Blaine (you have been one of the toughest people i know and I want you to see that you are an amazing person. Although the skies might fall and the ground might shake, I know at max you'll bend never break. I hope you get through everything just fine and I am glad that as long as you are happy I'll be fine to go on. Keep your head up high, there's beauty everywhere around you but most importantly it's in you) nameless (all the best with your literal shawty if I remember correctly. Keep going bro, you'll find love and live happily one day. Btw you have a talent for writing maybe one day I'll read a published book) , bailey (sorry about that last collab idea- maybe one day in the distant future. We share the same stars but even some stars dim. Thank you for every advice you've given me. Keep on going, especially the spoken word poems,you have a lovely voice .... I meant poetic voice....but you also do have a lovely literal voice) , carol (keep on going carol. You might be the fastest runner or furthest jumper one day. Don't let anyone take that light within your heart away. I know you'll keep fighting. And ps; I 100% support you if you were to call your coach an *******). Thank you to the murderer, princess (I believe in you dear, tough situations don't always last but tough people do and i know you are tough. Promise to do your best to keep fighting and i hope the kindness in your heart doesn't dissipate. If you message me I will reply, I'll be by your side like I promised)  julie (your students are lucky to have you, thank you so much for your wisdom and motivation for me to keep going) and most importantly thank you all. Oh right, thank you to the kind, warm and caring soul, thank you Hannah. You all have digged me out of the pit I've fallen in and I can't have anyone to thank except for you.

All the best ♡
450 · Apr 2016
She Asked For The Stars
Star Gazer Apr 2016
So I gave her a constellation.
She asked for the moon.
So I gave her every moon in space.
She asked for the clouds.
So I gave her the skies.
She asked for her freedom.
So I gave her goodbye.
She asked for my heart
So I gave it to her with my hands.
She asked for a better me.
So I gave her my life
In hopes that God creates a better me.
450 · Feb 2016
Why I Say Ladies First
Star Gazer Feb 2016
I say 'ladies first' because I am a gentleman,
Not because I think ladies are weak willed or weak,
No I say 'ladies first' because I always put a lady first.
A gender of elegance and class that should be respected,
So when I see a man beat a woman,
Surely my blood boils and my fists clench,
When I see a man cut a woman down emotionally,
Surely I will start shaking in bouts of anger.
Why so?
Because most girls, most women, most daughters,
Grows up to be a mother,
And that is the hardest task a human can complete.
449 · Feb 2016
What Being Alive Is To Me
Star Gazer Feb 2016
That was being alive
Being loved for acting five
Reliving the child inside
As adulthood goes to hide
That was being alive.

You saw teardrops from stormy clouds
And asked, ‘why the sky was crying’?
‘Why is the little boy next door dying’?
You were really just lying,
To your conscience.
The pain never really stopped,
It was just a photo with edges cropped
The way you zoomed in on you and her
And the background started to blur.
Not everything changes, some things do
Because the sky will only ever be blue
Some days you’ll have patches of grey clouds
And teardrops that lonely puff enshrouds
You’re left with the thought of the inner kid.

The kid inside that didn’t think about crying,
The kid inside that never knew about dying
The kid inside that conspired to hide
Like it was playing a game of hide and seek,
Never knew that clouds could even leak
And the salty discharge between eyes
Were just sugar coated cookie lies
About how we were meant to grow old

That kid is not dead, just hidden inside
like a clumsy cat caught between drapes,
That kid inside is stuck and trying to escape
And will only ever come back to light
When you realise that you can grow up
but maybe growing up is simply enough
because growing old is not a must.

Relive that kid hidden inside you,
Because otherwise that kid would die
And then skies would be frail blue
And you’d realise why the skies would cry.

There won’t be bunnies in clouds
Magic dragons in built in closets
And all you will know is crowds
That were more invested in bank deposits.

**** GROWING OLD.
Constant search for hands to hold
Where weather only felt cold
Because warm was too much to handle
And you’d reminisce on scented candles.
**** GROWING OLD.

So forget what you have been told,
About how you were meant to grow old
That’s just a tear stained dream society sold
You don’t have to grow old
Because sometimes growing up
Is simply enough.
Thank you to my friend who through everything continue to let me know that I will one day see the tunnels end. I realised I may grow up through time but never need to grow old. I thank you all. To all the young ones, enjoy your time being young. It should be one of the best moments.
Star Gazer May 2016
His smile, contagious to the bone,
Her teary eyes, slowly stares into his;
To afraid to march the world alone,
He clutches onto her clammy hands.

He whispers into her listening ear,
'If you place your head on my chest,
my heartbeat is what you'll hear',
Her eyes dart from his to the exit.

'You'll learn to love again won't you?'
she questions, yanking her hands away,
'Just know I'll always love you',
she adds, with tear filled eyes.

Though the sky did not fall,
The clouds did not shake
the term lovebirds, made small
and now are dead birds.
448 · May 2016
Broken Bridges
Star Gazer May 2016
I love you for all your petals
That shared a different scent
No matter how the skies bent
I love you for all that settles.
Each stones, each pebbles
Built a bridge with dents
And soon all of it went
away.

I love you beyond my understanding
And as long as you are happy
I can gaze at the stars dancing
And know that I have loved you correctly
Without ever needing your love
In return.
~As long as you are happy. I'm happy.
Sometimes love is strange, it works for some,
it doesn't work for some, but I love you enough
to let you go be happy with someone else.~
447 · Nov 2016
Please
Star Gazer Nov 2016
Please do not praise my words as beautiful
there is minimal beauty in feeling sorrow,
it is the feeling of a steel ribcage carved hollow,
of emptied contents and abandoned cubicles.
My words are the discordant note of a musical,
it is not a hint of unique creation like Picasso,
but it mimics the breaths of Vincent Van Gogh,
so please do not praise my words as beautiful.

I do not wish nor want for beauty
I write to rekindle the flame that has died,
the spark that simply shelters and survive,
I meld words with tear-stained eyes alike rubies.
You do not applaud accidental spillage on a canvas
so please do not applaud the by product of sadness.
444 · Mar 2016
Live For Others
Star Gazer Mar 2016
In a car,
On a highway
And my only thought.
I could totally slam
This car into that
Metal pole.
For once,
I felt like I was
In control...

But I don't have long
Anyways.
Why shorten
my already short
time.
443 · Apr 2016
You'll Find Your Happiness
Star Gazer Apr 2016
Green trees stand left and right
The sun shines so bright
Cars pass me by on the side
As I carry myself with my stride.

Beautiful doesn't appropriate the sight
As I look upon a greater,brighter light
The sun exudes a comforting glow
As I watch nature blossom and grow.

I could let go of everything I have known
Following the light I have been shown
To a world that finally shown me peace
A peace that settles and never cease.

I have not exhausted my happiness,
And there's no creation of a mess,
I have reached a point of being perfectly happy
And it can happen to you, as it has happened to me.
440 · Mar 2016
HAPPINESS
Star Gazer Mar 2016
Hate the sadness
Acknowledge that the world has stupid people
Play whatever you want to play
Punish the thoughts of sadness
Invest into thoughts of true love
Never lose sight of the bright light
Eat whatever you want
Socialise
SMILE
440 · Sep 2016
Loneliness
Star Gazer Sep 2016
In a crowd of faces, some old, some new
But I shouldn't feel as lonely as I do.
440 · Feb 2016
Connection Infection
Star Gazer Feb 2016
This is how the world bends,
We'd found trends,
Before we found friends,
Received emails before we even hit send.

Attached Emails to feelings,
As though catfishers aren't reeling,
The world became their ceiling,
And made nonsense into meaning.

We had transcend,
To only ever depend,
On online content,
To feel content.

In a radius of one hundred miles,
Everyone knows of Gangnam Style,
But it doesn't stop at videos,
Youtube is but one in the rodeo.

Between Facebook, Tumblr and Twitter
Bullies flushed lives into the *******,
Humans became anything other than critter,
As they coated insults with stickers and glitter.

We leapt to Omegle in search of fate,
In the form of company or a date,
But stumbled onto smeared words of hate,
And dudes who liked to *******.

STOP! LOOK AROUND YOU!
The trees are green,
The skies are blue,
Feel the fresh air of the scene.

We are all connected,
Raising populations of infected,
Of a rampant infection,
Known as the internet connection.
440 · Nov 2016
First Time
Star Gazer Nov 2016
A crowd of faces, some old, some new
but I shouldn't feel as lonely as I do.
I remember meeting you for the first time,
and the first time will always be beautiful.
[Old poem I wrote - 2011]
439 · Feb 2016
I Complain A Lot
Star Gazer Feb 2016
I had always complained a lot,
Whether it was cold or hot,
If I didn't, my guts felt entangled in knots.
I had complained about getting a shot,
And got told 'you should get shot'.
I would drive into a parking lot,
Complain about why it was called a lot,
When there was so little parking.
I would complain about cats barking,
And dogs meowing.
I would complain,
When the ice cream was plain,
And when I was in pain...

It was just the way I was,
I tried changing who I was,
Only to realize it's changing bees to wasp.
So I stopped,
Dropped,
And just gave up.

To this day I say,
If you can put up with complaints,
Yet somehow stay sane,
There's just a chance we were made for one another.

I believe that,
There is one person,
Made for everyone.
Even in a world of 7 billion people,
There has to be one...
I should really change and stop complaining. Maybe I'll get more numbers out of that 7billion.....girls don't like complainers....
438 · Oct 2016
Winter Solstice In Company
Star Gazer Oct 2016
I spent the night gazing at you
Rather than the illumination of stars,
And though everything was cold to the touch
Your flesh and embrace kept me warm.

I studied the contours of your face for hours
It all felt so familiar yet so peculiarly new
Like a baby bird flying to a higher branch
Of an otherwise acquainted tree.

The stars, they faded that night,
Not by the outshone city lights
But by the immersive beauty
That was you.

The night came close to an abominable end
And though time was cruel, I had hoped,
That forever together it did bind and hold us-
On the night of the Winter Solstice.
435 · Apr 2016
She
Star Gazer Apr 2016
She
She wears waterproof mascara
Just so it doesn't dribble and dab
Across her face.

She wears a beautiful smile
Just so her soul remains partially
Intact with others.

She wears heartaches
Across her sleeves
In the form of tears.

She wears sadness
In her mind and heart
Until she is worn out.
434 · Feb 2016
Love
Star Gazer Feb 2016
They convinced us that maybe we weren't meant to be loved,
as though the crippling sky wasn't made above,
when push came to shove,
we would yell "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!"
We weren't the pillow that people fluffed,
left to be coated and settled in dust,
from dawn to dusk.

We stood out,
The black sheeps, mythical dragons and unicorns,
ostracized from trumpets and flutes we were unique horns,
the same way we were never the petals but the thorns.

We were thrown salty remarks
until prickling words made their mark.
They would never quit,
until roses began to decay and wilt,
draining the black ink from the feathered quilt,
till it became useless.
Humans however are not quilt,
there is no black ink to be drained,
only the love in our hearts that became stained,
with all their criticism,
and yet they thought it was pleasurable to our ears,
dipping us in the same light as those who enjoy masochism.


Love comes from inside the heart,
but they made us feel as though looks is where it starts,
and while everyone else were cars we were go-karts,
always felt inferior at their words,
and in constant pretense that they were not heard.

Our words became loss in translation,
slowly we eventually loss our patience,
As though somehow we became a part of a nation,
A nation that despised those who stood out,
Filling our minds and soul with doubt,
Until there's nothing left to do but shout.

Even when we were loved since birth,
they tried to degrade our true worth,
so as afflicted souls wander on,
we ask ourselves, "was the love ever gone?"
431 · Aug 2016
Messy Hair And Muddled Soul
Star Gazer Aug 2016
You tried and you tried,
Taunted me while I cried.
I've had enough of you,
You coloured your skies
With the blue that I provide,
My pain soothes your soul
As though we're all a game
Moving your pawns back
and forth.

A chess game where
going back is a possibility
each strategy filled with
nothing but hostility.

This is my legacy
Read my words
And you will hear
the sounds of my cries
Read my words
And you will find
the tattered pieces
of my life.

You won't find me dead,
You won't take me alive.
I've got nothing left to hide.
431 · May 2016
Words.
Star Gazer May 2016
I told you I'll write you a poem
Just so that my words could show them
How wonderful you truly are
But my words could never capture all that you are.
You are nice, but nice seems like an understatement
And dictionary couldn't show what beautiful meant
Because the dictionary defines beautiful as
'pleasing the senses or mind aesthetically',
And some might claim it is all genetically
But your beauty is not just aesthetics,
It's in your personality, in your heart and soul,
And with aesthetics it makes you more than whole.

The dictionary never gets the words
Kind , beautiful, smart, talented, amazing, wonderful
and heartwarming correct because there isn't
a photo of you that appears under each one of those words
So I'm flabbergasted that I have to invent my own word
You are 'Wondamazing'. Wonderfully Amazing.
You are 'Adorose'. Adorable rose.
You are 'candy kind'. Which as its name suggests, sweet and kind.
I wish I could capture what it is that makes you so special
But I guess when it comes to someone like you
Making up words is not a fun thing, but I just have to.
Stay strong, stay wonderful.
~To the sweetest, kindest, strongest, amazing girl ever.
431 · Feb 2016
Bull [Haiku]
Star Gazer Feb 2016
Anger strikes the bull,
As its world fall into parts,
But there was no world.
429 · Mar 2016
H E A R T
Star Gazer Mar 2016
You stole my heart and listed it as sold
You pointed to it and said 'this I will hold'
You said ' I will warm it up when cold'
You said ' I will watch it grow old'
You will grow old with it, I was told
I smiled a smile that was uncontrolled
But like a poker hand, you threw it away and said 'I fold'
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