Standing on the beach with a gun in one hand
Looking at the ocean with my feet in the sand

About to pull the trigger and end this madness
Asking God "why do I deserve this sadness?"

I'm standing there pleading
"Why God? Why did I do what I've done?"
Looking at my hand, all I see is the gun

He says "you MY child, will see, it hasn't even begun".

I drop to my knees and look in Gods eyes...
I still beg and plead; and to my surprise :

He is gone

..... To be continued

Ohhh it's not your fault
Pretty little girl
You can't decipher all the
Fakes and frauds of the world

C'mon,
oh... Shake those thoughts of Frustration
No need to be so Aggravated
Agitated or
Devastated.
People lie
It's not that complicated

It's a situation
A lesson
An experimentation
An inauguration
Don't be sad about the
Miscommunication
or the Fraudulence of representation

Hold your head high
Don't let thoughts Amplify
Multiply
Intensify
It's not a lullaby
Say your goodbyes

I am stronger than I give myself credit for

Took a step back, and found myself on the floor.

I almost laughed, until I actually began to cry.

Seeing myself laying there with question marks ????????????????
Asking why

Not everyone is who you want them to be
Expect them to be or
Wish they could be

Not everyone is conducive to what you first see
My mom has always taught me
Things don't come that easily

Don't get so broken by what is suppose to be "life's lessons"

Sometimes unanswered prayers are actually your biggest blessin

So ill pull myself from the floor
Put a smile on my face
Because I deserve more

This is what I'll tell myself when I'm not feeling as strong as I know I am

I will be the girl ...
Who actually means it when I say

"I don't give a ****"

Nine long months till I get to see my precious girl
I know she's going to have green eyes and dark hair with one little curl

I waited and watched and looked at the clock
I said please God, please don't let these contractions stop

I promise to be the best mommy that I can be
I always Keep my promises... You just wait and see

We're going to snuggle every night
and make so many unforgettable memories
I'm going to teach you morals & values and life's responsibilities

I'll teach you to have fun
and always act like each day is our last one
-To treat everyone with kindness and enjoy life's finest.

It's 505 pm 10/28/02 and you have arrived
Just as beautiful as I expected
and the delivery I did survive (Phew)!

You look as I imagined
with your big almond shaped eyes
staring and me, staring at you, mesmerized

Now it's 10 years later and it's your very special day...
All I can do is keep thanking God, because I don't know what else to say

I knew you would be everything I had ever dreamed for
Beautiful, Kind, caring, and giving... I couldn't have asked for anything more

Thank you for being my little soul mate & such a good girl
Dream big, and remember to share your passions with the world

I'm a real woman.
I'm a mother to a beautiful little girl
I'm not a 21 yr old who will put on a mini skirt
and for u I'll twirl.
I'm a teacher.
I'm an educator.
Not like ur next girl
Cuz trust me
You will end up hatin her.
I'm a cook, a giver and a provider
Not like ur Next ex
who will be in the clubs dancin to Flo Rida.
I like to eat , hence my curves.
Cuz I'm real.
Not like her
stick figure and eats once a day
yet still looks like a wet seal.
Cuz I'm a real woman
I'll get old..and believe me, it will be gracefully.
I'll be sure to choose wisely next time
maybe less hastily.
Yes, I'm a real woman
I will get old over the next 10 yrs.
But the man who I'm with
will be thanking god for me in his prayers.
Im low maintence and not materialistic
I know how to love unconditionally
I'm realistic!
Because that's what real woman do.
Think of that in the future
When ur young girls trying on her new shoes.
Id rather cook you dinner and wait at home for you.
I'll  light a candle with D Ruck playing in the background too.
Yes, your laundry will be done
and lunch packed for the next day.
Think of that
while youre in the back of my mind
Where you'll stay
Yes, for I'm a real woman
One who will get old
May get fat
May get wrinkles
Maybe even some gray hair.
But He who loves me
Will love me unconditionally
Body & soul
For who I am, My looks?
He will not care.
You love with your heart
not with your eyes...
When you are old enough-
You too may be wise!