i wanted you to see me
maybe not with the longing stare like i did,
but i wanted you to
i wanted you to look at me
maybe not in an adoring way i once had,
but i wanted you to
i wanted you to fall for me
i wanted you to love me
and maybe not as hard as i did,
but i really wanted you to
so listen,
i know wishing was all i can do
and you were never a wish-granter
so that leave me at nothing
nothing, at all

8 — this sleep i've been losing
also taking my sanity
i keep thinking about you
do you see my name and your heart beats faster?
do you see my face and wonder how different i am now, after you?
do you remember that we once almost being love together?
cause i do
and that's insane
well, i should just probably go to sleep