you were like the sweetest sugar to me
and me like a ******* cockroach to you.*


but you could not **** me.

i dream of a little garden,
i dream of a roof,
i dream of cooking delicacies,
i dream for a little home

hug me for absolutely no reason at all,
that's what i need most

just so you know, i can't be invisible.
for all my life, all i was, was despicable.
i am ******* weird i know,
and i am not nice, not at all no.
i too want to want, why is that too much to ask,
in the scorching, burning light of unwantedness i bask.
give me what would be a little break,
this is my ****** ******* face,
and i can't cast moon's reflection on any lake
it may look sad, it may look bad,
but tell me it's okay and that i look handsome a tad
how long do i have to ****** hide,
will i ever be your pride?

the human in me of whose constitution i cannot escape says i miss someone touching me like i am someone special, i miss seeing someone who say i am handsome, i miss being told i am irreplaceable and that i am worth throwing the world away for. tell me i ******* am once just once

maybe i am not all that.
save me form myself
save you from myself

you said you wanted to see it and believe me i was ready to show you every bit.
not in a fit of passion but i tore myself open and left myself no shred of compassion,
here is my heart i said, it's all yours i said,
hide it, you said