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Jun 2014 · 458
Enough Said
Diab did Jun 2014
I'll Fight For You, But I'll Never Fight Over You, If You Are Entertaining Somebody Else They Can Have You.
Dec 2013 · 600
YoU ArE ThE OnE
Diab did Dec 2013
On A Scale FromM 1 To 10, I'm The 9,,,, AnD YouR ThE OnE I NeeD.
Diab did Dec 2013
I miss our nights,
Bad nights,
Before
Good nights,
Good times,
After the bad ones,
Good ****,
Before...
After...
The worst ones.

You found me,
Tought me,
Showed me,
How to roll it.

You were a good teacher,
You made me listen,
You were a good listener,
You made me talk.

You jocked,
I laughed,
You complained,
I cried.

You missef,
You loved,
You cared,
So did and do I.

Can't imagine my life with out you, am sitting here at the lake, staring at you face reflection on the water. Your face is everywhere, the happy, smiley, sad, mad and the happy face again face.

You helped me explore my self, you changed me a lot, i met myself right after i met you, no one ever told me how smart i am, even if am not very smart, but at least you said it, and i felt it for the first time.

You tought me how to fight, how to go through **** by my self, you didn't say that, but i learned it from your actions and your view of life.

You always smiled, even when you get really mad, you started the fight and ended, you started the conversation and kept it, you started me and you killed me.

Its been three days, two nights, 72 hours is the total. I'M still awake, didn't blink, am not tired tho, just enjoying the time while am watching a tape of you with all the moments crossing in front of my eyes.

Thank you for everything you'd done,
Thank you for all the encouragement words,
Thank you for finding my real personality,
Thank you for giving me the best moments,
Thank you for all the info. Doses you put in me,
Thank you for being there when no one was,
Thank you for listening to my boredom talks,
Thank you for making me feel like human,
Thank you for EVERYTHING, yes everything.

I have a lot to say, from the deepest part of my heart, but my i can't see nothing, my tears are covering the view. I was thankful for having you, waking up on your texts, maybe calls, but the most feeling your love while your sleeping on my shoulder.

Don't know what else to say, I'M IN LOVE WITH EVERY litters in your name, with every moment i hear your voice, whit every time i see your texts or emails, with every sec I have you in mind.

I don't care what you'd done, its all good, i already forget about it, you do whatever you want, its all good, fight and yell at me, its all good, HATE me, its all good, **** me, hurt me, insult me, **** me, do whatever you want, its all good. They all were like the heaven, i just knew that.

Ok, am done, words are killing me.
Ok, am done, you're too amazing to be written about.
Ok, am done,  I'm serious this time.

I just realized that i had the world between my hands, you loved me like no one else did, you really cared about me.
Excuse my JEALOUSY, it covered most of the view.
Excuse my EARS, i couldn't hear you talking to another guy.
Excuse my heart, made me too stupid to understand.

I just couldn't believe that am having a life after all these years. I thought it's a dream, but i was okay with that, i didn't want to wake up, and i lost you after the pomp that woke me up.

I just understood what you were saying,,,,,,
"Too good too bad" she says.

I LOVE YOU Melanie,
I LOVE YOU,
I ADORE YOU,Melanie
I ADORE YOU
YOU STILL MY EVERYTHING, and the only thing that i prayed every time to keep, but to bad, i didn't get that.


Diab,,,,,,,,,,,
Apologize for what i've said, it was an agry moment.
Nov 2013 · 1.3k
InnocenT & LosT
Diab did Nov 2013
I'm innocent 
everything goes opposite
LiFe has no abashment 
Problems are objects
Life is aberrant 
shoots hard bullets 
I'm innocent 
Life is full of coincidences
Hope people understand 
Life ? People abases 
Its a painful wound
No more absolves 
I'm innocent
I'm tired of myself
Sick of being the same
I feel like a werewolf 
Me , I did defame 
Myself is just a calf 
I'm innocent 
This what life wants 
No more tolerate
Live in aborts 
Small sins accumulate 
Chokes me with ascots 
I'm innocent 
I don't want this
Live in aversion 
It's only my bris 
Love must accretion 
Or live like the ******* nazis 
I'm innocent 
I NEED her back
Important in my life circle
keeps me on the track 
Every word is a canticle 
Wrack hack her lack clack 
I'm innocent 
She's the one i NEED
My life is She
Sweet, tasty like the aniseed 
The most important strophe 
Makes it shinny and adorned 
I'm innocent
I don't want drugs
I hate to scab 
Its not brags 
It hurts like a stab
Drugs is crags 

Edit by: Melanie on this fourteenth day of September, twenty thirteen
Nov 2013 · 514
dMELd (5) "First & Again"
Diab did Nov 2013
I MiSs YouR HeLl

BeFoRe YouR HeAVeN

SHouLD we MeeT At SheLL ?

NexT by bOMp sEVENn!!!
Nov 2013 · 1.3k
A WalK At WalMarT.
Diab did Nov 2013
Overthinking while i was driving to WalMart, didn't feel good, worried and sad. My life is not good, and been fighting forever to make it good. 

I walked to the store, saw a couple with thier kid putting the stuff in a basket basket, so i thanked God i had a CART. 

heard a kid crying, his mom was shutting his mouth, he wanted a toy, but she couldn't tell him that she didn't have enough money to buy it, cuz he wouldn't understand, so i thanked God i dont have to deal with such a situation. 

Two young couples were trying to find the cheapest diapers, so they have enough money to buy milk for the kid, so i thanked God i am not them. 

A very huge guy was trying to find the best bills for loosing wieght, so i thanked God i never been there.

A young guy was driving the elctronic cart cuz he couldn't walk on his feet, so i thanked God i can.
 
A young girl asked her mom if walmart has mattreses cuz she was tired of sleeping on the couch, so i thanked God i sleep in a mattres. 

People were waiting their names to be called by the pharmasist, so i thanked God am not waiting. 

A man was getting his glass cuz he can't see well, so i thanked God i can see perfectly and i dont have to wear one. 

A customer was yelling at the cashier, and the cashier couldn't say a word to save his job, so i thanked God i am not him. 

A man's card was diclined, mine wasn't. 

A lady and her daughter were waiting for a ride in the cold weather, so i thanked God i had a ride. 

I put the bags in the trunk, and thought of what i saw, i cried and prayed for everyone to be happy, get what they want, and be able to deal with life. 

I don't have what they have, and they don't have what i have, no one is better than the other, but someone is satisfied of what they have, and the other isn't.
Diab did Nov 2013
A year had past

I dont recall doing a good thing, i dont remember doing bad things too, all i can think of is a crackle followed by a smoke, the room going in a circle, and people are running away from me trying to stay away from that terrible person.

My mom had always told me that i should keep my money and to not give them away if i need them, but i thought that id be a bad person if i didnt give whoever asks me for some. I wish i listened to her words and took them seriously before i gave that someone money for his school and lost mine.  

My dad used to always tell me, "stay out of troubles or life will put you down". i thought people will take advantages of me if i followed my dads words put i wish i did because being a tough person all the time will only break you in the first weakness moment.

My teacher MR. Nill, once asked "What would happen if everyone treats others the way they treat them?"  I said, "We would live in woods and people would hate each other." He laughed and called me "Sweetheart"  i didnt know his meaning till today. The right answer should be "Thats the best way to live in a peace, so we can feel each others pain, cuz none of us likes to be hurt".

My love told me "Get off the drugs, i cant be next to a ""DRUG ADDICT"". I didnt see my reactions and the way i was acting, I though i was doing well and not being annoying, so i said "**** IT" she will get over it, but now I'M asking ( WHERE IS SHE??).

I LOST MY PARENTS AND MY SIBLINGS, MY LOVE AND OF COURSE MY self(thats how small i am).

So now after a year of using, I decided to quit and get my life together, its my second week off that SH*T, I am not getting back again. Thats FOR SURE.

BUT THE QUESTION IS "WILL I HAVE MY LOST BACK?"
Nov 2013 · 481
WiTh & WiThOuT U
Diab did Nov 2013
WiTh YoU LOVE MeAnS

L ive
O ptimized
                        &
V alue
                      The
E nchanted
                                     "Together" 


WitHOuT YoU**


L eft
O utcasted
                               With A
V iolent
E mpty 
                              "Lost soul"
Oct 2013 · 407
dMELd (4) "I'M FiNe"
Diab did Oct 2013
EvEr NoT KiD me
YouR "I'M FiNe" WaSnT OkAy
I CoulD EaSiLy See
ThE "I'M FiNE" TuRnInG tO EsSaY.
Oct 2013 · 485
dMELd (3) "StAnD bY mE"
Diab did Oct 2013
I woUld LoVe to sEe
hEr, aND toGETHERr sINg
" sTANd bY mE"
  By BeN E. kINg.
Oct 2013 · 873
New NoTe
Diab did Oct 2013
New note 
New words 
And the thoughts are too
,,,,,,,,,,,
We just think
We just do
We just plan
But nothing get done
,,,,,,,,,,,,
He does
She did 
They do
But poverties still exist 
,,,,,,,,,,,,
He said
She says
They are saying
Talk just to talk
,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Blame the word
Blame the world
Blame people 
But nothing is changed
,,,,,,,,,,,,,
He fights 
They fight
They want and he wants
But no one sacrifices 
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
My country 
Your land 
Their rights 
But injustice has it all
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
He knows 
She knows 
They know 
But still live in dark 
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Your life 
My life 
Their life 
But the survival of the fittest
,,,,,,,,,,,,,
They create 
He does as well 
She writes 
But no one really teaches 
,,,,,,,,,,,,
He complains 
She complains 
The world complains 
Where the bad ones are ??
,,,,,,,,,,,,
He works 
She works
They work
But nothing is really different 
,,,,,,,,,,,,
He pays
She pays 
They pay 
But thieves steal the money
,,,,,,,,,,,,
You wake up
Hey all wake up
People wake up
The world is in danger
,,,,,,,,,,,,,
You do something
Me do things 
We should be one hand
The world is in fire 
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Let the governments fights 
Let the regimes stay
Let the ministers do what they want
But we're the people, not them
We have the rights not them
We should live not them
One hand doesn't clap, but two do
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Peace
Love
Safe
Repose 
And occupation
We are the people
We are the people
We are the people
Oct 2013 · 372
dMELd (2) "MisS HeR"
Diab did Oct 2013
Just a quick expressing
She was my angel and still
If i show how much her am missing
Will that missing get **** ?
Oct 2013 · 424
dMELd "NeEd YoU"
Diab did Oct 2013
I am A NeeDy person,
I jUst nEeD YoU,
BuT wHaT MAkES YoU HaPpY,
MAKes ME toO.

So I DecIded to wAiT.
sOoRy
Oct 2013 · 625
Why can't a butterfly ?
Diab did Oct 2013
Dear its not A trY 
Fly and break the fear
Gear yourself, and hold it tie 
"Why?" Dont ask, just pass the weir 
Smear their words, they aint apply 
Satisfy yourself, stand up and rear 
Smear at them, smoke and get high
Buy the middle-F, left it up and cheer
Tear the sadness, just smile no cry 
Pioneer is You, this World looks sly 
Sty this world is, go don't be here
Bligh your goals, stand Up and steer 
Clear it will be, if you wisely imply 
Dry days come before a wet year
Severe life comes before a wise-guy
Fly higher than the highest, far no near 
Adhere the thoughts, don't ever belie 
GOODBYE them loudly make 'em hear 
Appear shinny like the moon and shy 
Fly? Yes you can, you can YES dear 
Dear, wasps fly, so why cant a butterfly ??
Oct 2013 · 498
,,,, but the LIGHT CAME ON
Diab did Oct 2013
I had the gun pointed

My eyes were going to close

Everything worths it

But i saw a baby clothes

Since the "+" the tester showed it

Then i saw the receipts

I remembered  what you wanted

Trigger down and off the bullets

An idea cameUp and i decided

Drove my B and the trip starts

To that spot where it started,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Anyways!!!! Its under one of the wipers.



The reason of my Suicide it the reason of my Breathe.

I just thought about it, do you remember when i promised you to be the wall  to lay on ? And the stairs to move on ?  Thats why i was ****. To not take a shortcut to reach something worth it.


A GOOD LUCK, LIFE, AND HEALTH Is all i WANT FOR YOU, MAYBE YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT WAY, who knows maybe Joe is the JOY.


But after all, i just realized that we didnt start YET, that was only the light SPARK.
How does the heart experience joy
with shadows that betray us ??? My MIND is ASKIN my HEART.
Diab did Sep 2013
You think i have no time but writing ?

Get the **** out of my mind!!!

My mind is asking you to get your **** out of it!!

Are you stalker ???

Or just open it to open it ??

***!!! You ruined a paper from my notebook

I could use it to write a book

I shall hung you in a big hook

Dude!!! No one likes you

Everyone dislike you

You gotta problem

Your mom got ****** by Smith Williem

Is she a **** star ??

She seems like she got the Oscar

You got it now ??

What you still doing here ??

Run away and look from there

You're such an outcast

Everyone talk about you in a broadcast

Go **** yourself

Or i will put you under the shelf

Don't ask such a question, again

Or in one kick you'll be in spain  

Thanks,,
Sep 2013 · 660
The POWER
Diab did Sep 2013
09/01/2011 was
Your day,

Was the day when you decided to live with no more pain,

The day when  you decided to locked the battle with the dark happiness,

The day when  you decided to find yourself after being lost for years,

And now after two years,

You are having a better life,
You are feeling the right happiness,
You are living the reality,
You became a wise person,
You became a good teacher,
You became a good fighter,

PLUS
you became a good  example for the true meaning of A "STRONG PERSON".

Congratulation my DEAR for that achievement, we all are so PROUD of you.

Wish you all the best and a promising future.
Aug 2013 · 330
Lovely song
Diab did Aug 2013
All songs of peace do not last long,
And songs of war are always wrong.
Let’s sing for justice now!
But justice comes not with a song!
Aug 2013 · 320
People say
Diab did Aug 2013
People say "FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS".

             But what if my dreams don't have a TWITTER  ACCOUNT???



Just Wondering,,,,
Aug 2013 · 764
I hate that corner.
Diab did Aug 2013
I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and tried to solve problems and think too much thought i had the worst life ever.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and smoked dope sought the fun of the darkness and run away of the reality.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and cried thought am lonely and everyone hates me

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and lost myself between the hell and the evil sea drawing to the deepest point where the worst is.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and hated myself and people, thought thats the only point i can get.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and forgot how to love the people who were and are there for me, thought no one is there.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and kissed the pipe all the time thought thats the only friend i got.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and refused to pray thought there's no GOD.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and filled my heart of hatred thought theres nothing good left.

I hate that corner,
Where i just sat there and taught myself how to lie, thought that was the only way to hide my flaws and mistakes.

I really hate it, i don't know how i got there, i didn't know what i was doing, they were telling me, but i didn't believe them or maybe i did but i couldn't get up.

I hope its not too late to get up and move, i hope i still have the same people i loved before i sat there, i hope i didn't loose many, but actually i did.

I hope you and i don't go and set there one day unless we're setting there with our loved ones kissing each other and having a good time.

I hope you forgive me, you forgave me a lot, i just realized that, but please if you still care and like me, just give me the chance to prove that.

And now am setting in the same corner, staring at the window, looking at the sky, filling my self with faith and hopes, enjoying birds tweets that i missed, the butterflies that i didn't see, the sun that didn't burn me and the moon that i enjoyed looking at and dream.

I'm up now.
GOD bless you all.
Aug 2013 · 1.2k
A fat boy on a treadmill
Diab did Aug 2013
I'am a fat boy
Running on a treadmill
First, was easy
So didn't care
Got faster
But i was following
So didn't care
I though its easy
And will be easier
And the end is the easiest
I wish i was right
I was walking in a running treadmill
Expecting the best
I thought the luck will be running
With the belt in a circle
I wish i was right
Everything was on the belt
But i didnt know that i have to catch them
I wish i knew
The belt is running but everything is falling down
I wish i knew
I fall down too
Saw everything i wanted falling with me
It was too late to catch them
I wish it wasn't
I realized that
I stood on the treadmill again
Trying to catch the rest
It was going so fast
I wish it wasn't
I couldn't catch anything
I started to run run and run
I got tired
I rested myself
I wish i didn't
I wanted to keep running
As fast as it is
But i couldn't
I wish i could
I found a coach MD
MD was pushing me
Too hard to handle it
I thought MD was putting me down
I wish i didn't
MD was helping me
Giving me the power to run
But i didn't listen
I wish i did
I thought i can't do it
But MD thought the opposite
MD words were my fuel
The energy
The everything i needed to run
But i didn't take them seriously
I wish i did
I gained hundreds bounds of problems
MD is getting to the top
And am starting from the bottom again
Am a fat boy running on a treadmill.


I hope its not too late.
The whole APPRECIATION fulling of love and Respect from the deepest of my heart go to my coach MD.

Thank you <3

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