Swiggity swoogity
im coming for
that
boogity

I love how
the poison
of your thoughts
seeps though my veins
and infects me
with you

Eyyyyyyyy......****

I walked into a the local bar
With the simple intention
Of forgetting the past
And all of its shortcomings

My glass full of foregn toxins
That flood my body with warmth
As I inhale its contents

We do it because we have to
For the sake of existance
But not actually living

Because when the bottom of the bottle
Is all we have left to hope for
At the end of the night
We become numb
And succub to the Insanity

The broken voices
are the ones
that etch thier very souls
into the hearts of others

There are a lot if things that i absolutely hate about myself but this one is the biggest. It causes the most problems, makes me feel the most pain, and is the Bain of my existence.
I fall in love too easily
And i dont mean this little crush type thing, i mean a full blown ‘i would put my life at risk to help you’ kind of thing. I’m not falling for every woman i see, but i do fall head over heals occasionally and it *****. It is the worst thing in the world. it’s just really hard to explain. But i hate how deeply i fall for them because when it doesn’t work out or we never end up dating at all, it’s the worst feeling that I have ever felt.

at 8 years old
i thought i could fly
i thought i could be a superhero
like superman
or batman
i used to put on my red sheets
and wear them as a cape
but they said it was just a child's dream

at 14 years old
i wanted to be a doctor
i wanted to heal everyone
because my mother died that year
and i never even saw her
but they said i couldn't do it
that i wasn't smart enough
no college would accept me

at 16 years old
i lowered my ambitions
i wanted to be a policeman
because i didn't need college
and everyone told me i wouldn't make it
so i conformed
to what they thought of me
and became what im not

at 17 years old
i hated myself
because i felt
i could never be anybody
never do anything
never be better
than what they said i would be

yesterday my dad
told me to sign papers
to join the military
so i agreed

i took out my lighter
and burned them in front of him
" *******! " i yell
" your the one who amounted to nothing "