Why? Why did I loved you?
If i knew that you wouldn't love me back.
Why does it have to be you? Why not someone else?
These questions are always popping in my head
every time i see you.
Every time I see you with your girl;
Your arm over her shoulder
Your fingers intertwined to hers
Kiss on her cheeks
Kiss on her forehead
I wish i was her
I wish i was the one you are holding
I wish i was the one you are kissing
I wish it was me that you love
I wish...
Then one morning, I was walking down the hall and heard other people saying that you and your girl broke up.
I had hope; I aimed that the two of us had a chance.
That the word "you and I" will be a thing.
I started talking to you wanting to be your friend
And from that moment you talked back
I knew
I knew that you only wanted a friend
A friend that can be by your side.
A friend to lean on while waiting for your broken heart to be whole again.
I became that friend that you wanted.
I listen to your stories about her
I listen on how you say that you still love her
I listened
I listened to you that I forgot to listen to myself
I forgot to listen to my friends, to my family, to everyone.
I forgot to listen to them because I was so busy listening to you.
I forgot that i have a life too.
I just forget everything that is going on when it comes to you.
I am willing to forget everything just for you
But you didn't do the same.
You were so focused on yourself; on her.
You forgot that I'm still here.
You didn't know that i was also hurting
I was hurting when you say that you still loved her very much; that you will do everything to win her back
And then it hit me.
Right at that moment you said those words
I knew
I knew that there is no chance; the word "you and i"; the word "us" will just stay as a word.
A word that has no meaning to you
But it means a lot to me.
And the only word that means to you is "I am JUST YOUR FRIEND, PREFERABLY YOUR BEST FRIEND, YOUR LITTLE SISTER, YOUR BEST BUDDY"
That when I say "I love you"
I wanted you to reply "I love you too"
But then you always replied, "I love you too........................... BEST FRIEND"
I became your best friend
I AM your best friend
Also, I became your lover that you weren't aware of.