They say it takes twice as long to forget, and move on.
Well I'm only four months down, only half a decade left to go.
When we first met, in that split moment, I couldn't help but fall in love with you.
It happened so fast, just as did out end, so I just don't understand.
Why can't my mind and heart forget as fast as they fell for you?
To stay in this state of sorrow, regret, and self demise.
Will this all swiftly leave my memories from which they etched their marks.
I wish to just close my mind, and make the change in my life.
You took everything I had I give, and now you've left me empty handed.
All I want back from you is peace of mind.
The days of feeling wanted, holding you, and embracing is over now.
Past have gone the days of calling each other only mine.
I just want to forget, and move on from this stage in my life.
Most if all you need to take your heart back from me.
It pains me day after day because the truth remains
The constant truth in this suffering is that still.. I love you.
My heart aches, it just won't let you go as you have of me, what do I do?
Can't begin to fathom things these days anymore.
Your love was so indelible to me.
Now I suppose I just wait for that last grain of sand to drop.
Waiting for the clock to run out, tick-tock, tick-tock.
I'm four months down, only half a decade left to go.

Another familiar night passes by as I sit by the open window.
My eyes overlooking the window pane, past the open glass.
Deep into the night I stare and ponder, far and wide my eyes scan.
They see only what the moonlight reveals, what will it reveal to me?
I've say and wondered about this life, this night seems stuck on repeat.
As I find myself here constantly, here in this sturdy old and creaky woodgrain chair.
Looking up I close my eyes and pray to any higher deity willing to help.
Quietly I let out my faint whispers, my words travel from mouth to midnight sky.
Hoping my prayers are heard, I sit awaiting for a sign...nothing..just a Howl from the wind.
I should know how it works by now, allow me to rephrase my cry for help.
Please whoever may hear me, I ask not that you do my work, but show me what my work is.
In a bright flash of burning white, as if God himself came into my waking dreams.
There in his words he showed me the entire scheme, " do as you will" he said to me.
This was the night I learned I wasn't worthless, I was meant for so much more.
Not for people to chant my fame or even fear the sounds of my name.
Slowly my core starts to boil, hope and passion rising, coursing through my blood.
I am here to be nothing short of great, and great is what I'll be.
To keep my blood line going, growing, and ever evolving.
Adapting is what I know, instinctive to the core, forever embedded inside of me.
Continuing to grow further more, adapting from mediocre to great.
I shall do what I must to keep pride inside my name.
Just like the indelible words of Poe, I'll never stop growing, "forever more"
For no one will stop me and take what's mine as their claim.
No power can stop the growth and evolution of my blood line.
Even long after I've left this world all will know of my generations to come.
Because just as he late great Bruce Lee said " live a life worth remembering. "
That is exactly what I'm doing "living a life worth remembering"
My legacy will be carried by future blood lines and they will flourish.
So always remember...

I lay here on the ground with eyes closed.

Counting every blessing in my life; appreciating all the small things I’m allowed to have.

Feeling the breeze pass through the fresh cut grass and crease across my skin.

Enjoying the cool fresh air I breathe, the breath of life.

Opening my eyes I see above me the hanging leaves of the willow tree.

Seeing just how green green can be in this life.

They say green is the color of greed; but here it shows just how much life lives.

With the green cut grass, the hanging leaves, rooting into the ground.

******* up all the water into its roots, flowing life through itself.

I can feel the life all around me, living its course.

I sit up and look out off the cliff, to what do my eyes behold?

They look upon the edge of the cliff with flowing water of the sea below.

The sun’s rays gleaming down, reflecting the sapphire glow of the river.

Listening to the birds chirp, with the crashing waves on the shoreline below.

A time like this comes by once in a life time, and you must take time to appreciate.

Appreciate the complete peace in this moment; living in the moment today.

Today is all about taking a memory of the century.

One of those memories that leaves a legacy inside of you.

A time that when you think back to when you could be truly happy, this is what you see.

Time by yourself, so released and free from care.

To be carefree even if it’s just in this moment, a moment that lasts a second to a life time.

This is the truth, this is the memory of a lifetime.

The memory of memories, how sweet it is.

Take a deep breath and breathe it in, allow it to flow through your entire being.

Something so divine like this is from a deity.

This is nothing compared to the spectrum of time but a moment, a second.

This second will last a life time inside of your mind and inside of your heart.

For a time no one can take from you, it only fades with your life.
When will your life…your memory fade?