que the incoherent ramblings of a slightly inebriated sadist
who's brain is plagued by the tongue of Satan
and there is no easy way to say this
but i have an opinion,
therefore
i am going to state it

and through my veins runs a most potent concoction of hatred
a sheer and utterly perplexing disdain for human nature
and anything else even remotely associated

i welcome death and darkness as if we were closely related
and my brain is my coffin,
there is no safe haven

but comrades, do not be mistaken
for i am god
and so are you
but in order to maintain a state of equilibrium,
sometimes i am very inclined to masquerade as the devil too

and i'll admit it,
im probably a little sick and very confused
but im also cynical, pessimistic and devoid of hope
and ironically,
im but a clusterfuck of atoms and isotopes
pondering the structure of atoms and isotopes

but then again, maybe i just need to cut back on the coke
and the acid, shrooms, dmt, ecstacy, and the obscence
amount of ******* cigarettes that i smoke

but within the deepest confines of my tormented soul
there is a hole
that i feel only the solace of a controlled substance can console

like, how the **** am i supposed to find contentment
in existence
when i know that every living creature on earth will inevitably
die
alone

quote
"every living creature on earth dies alone"
word to donnie darko

and i can no longer endure the limitations set within the confines of this unrelenting soul
unwilling and yet eternal slave to capitalism with a damaged price tag
therefore,
i am unfit to be sold

but **** it,
grab your coat cause you better believe it's gonna get very cold
while we take a stroll
through the catacombs of our infrastructure
but you should be very wary of corporate black holes
where i hear democracy is  supposed to console

but alas,
im out here and im ******* white water rafting in student loans
humans living on south congress without a place to call home
meanwhile we're ranting and raving about the newest iphone
and totally unrelated,
but i swear to god rick perry is the ******* antichrist
he may possess some obscure remnant of a mind but he does not possess a soul

so whilst immersed in melancholia,
i guess i will simply enjoy my cup of tea
within the mists of burning buildings
i hear hell is a place devoid of logic and reason
and if that is true, then so be it
i decree
that this plane of existence is the epitome of pain and suffering with no guarantee of alleviation, comfort, or consolation
just death, ****, and disease
oh this life,
this life that we lead is vacant of any inherent meaning
and everything that you could possibly see is the product of absurdity

but as for me
i am but a hallucination, delusion, or fabrication
either way you spin it i do not actually exist
and with that as a matter of fact i am very complacent

i am cynical and consumed with self-hatred
but do not be mistaken
**** your scores i am not here for commiseration
simply put, i just needed somewhere to say this

and eventually,
mayan ruins.

our fragile infrastructure is steadily collapsing whilst i am ****** and lacking
a sense of urgency to get my lanky *** up off this coach seat

cause ya know,
life is a ******* track meet
and they say slow and steady wins the race but the dmt chemicals eternally lodged deep within the crevices of my brain always keep me at a really slow pace

but on the other hand,
i could just be a basket case

but let's stay relevant.

with that being said,
is life actually as precious as it seems?
cause as far as i can see it's simply a regenerating cycle that repeats itself like dvds

but we believe
that just because we **** in toilets and wipe ourselves with some very unfortunate trees
that our meaning is more significant than the ants under our feet

and we are treating animals like meat
not even taking the time to think that
hey,
maybe these creatures like to ******* breathe,
have a family and kids to feed
pay the taxes on their mortgage lease
which they made from a pile of leaves
and before these poor souls can blink
they're on a plate smothered in american cheese

and im not saying that we should eradicate the consumption of all meat
its just that we should really ******* appreciate what we eat

because in reality
we are the cancer and earth cannot afford chemo
****
steal
destroy
we are murders, self genocide
and word to charles darwin but these opposable thumbs have accomplished nothing but evil

throwback to when i was seventeen
and had my first taste of lsd
i walked outside,
conversed with some trees
and i still shiver when i think of the utter despair i heard in their leaves
their children cant even breathe
carbon monoxide poisoning their roots and their seeds
car exhaust as far as the eye can see
and you better believe that the future of the ozone is looking mighty bleak

but the shameful hypocrisy hidden beneath this uh "go green" speech
is that ive littered at least a thousand cigarettes from here to ***** sixth street

and mother earth isnt very forgiving
i no longer want to be among the living