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Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
Can you see the sadness in my eyes
I try to hide that I cry
Cause I'm lost without you
And I'm not sure what to do

I long to hold you in the evening air
I try to hide the chill in my veins
Where do I go without you
Shedding tears like a midnight rain

You are the woman of my dreams
I try to hide that I cry
I know I'm without you
Listen to my heart as it screams

I look at you and I melt
I try to hide that I do
Left to myself without you
All of the love you never felt

I can't change how I feel
I try to show you all the time
Pray that I'm with you someday
I love you and I can't conceal
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
You know it's true
These feelings I have for you
I know it's true
Your heart can not pursue

You know it's true
That it's not easy for me
I know it's true
That's the way it will be

You know it's true
I want to make love to you
I know it's true
I will never get to
Dennis Bielanski Jul 2014
I have never wanted anyone
As much as I want you
I feel your very existence
In everything I do

My heart it pounds like thunder
Every time your close to me
I try so hard to encumber
But my heart just wants set free

I have never wanted anyone
The way that I want you
Don't want another woman
I just want to be with you

You fill my every day dream
You never leave my mind
These thoughts of you are extreme
With a love thats undefined

I never wanted anyone
So much as I want you
My love for you is genuine
Please understand it's true

You run through my mind at night
Just like a fever dream
Everything about you feels so right
We would make a beautiful team

I have never wanted anyone
As much as I want you
I feel your very existence
In everything I do
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
Sedated again but you can't see
How numb I've become  but set free
I don't want to care or feel anymore
But deep in my heart it's you I adore

I set here and feel totally numb
Not really knowing what I've become
Drinking so much I'm wasting away
But it's become something I do everyday

Don't want you to see what I'm reduced to
Three sheets to the wind and all over you
Trying to **** the love that I feel
Consumed so mush ***** it's hard to conceal

I just can't forget the way that I feel
The pain that I'm feeling it's more than real
I would ask God's help by trying to pray
Don't need to ask I'll just get in his way
Dennis Bielanski Sep 2013
As the day turns into night
Something doesn't feel right
Your so far off again
But I'm not like other men

Here killing time you see
Needing you here with me
But your so far away
That ain't no perfect day

And tonight it's going to be
Your absence killing me
But I will never walk away
Love for you is here to stay

My love is not a passing fad
Give you more than you ever had
If you could only  be
one night here with me
It would be the best you ever had.
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
I can't hold you in my arms
But in this bed I hold you in my dreams
Late at night I need your charms
But there not there or so it seems

Every night I hold you
I hold you in my dreams
You dance through my window
On star light and moon beams

I keep going back for you
This dream is a sweet dream
And its a quiet night
I hear you say it will be all right

In the morning I wake up and worry
What's gonna happen to me
As I clime from these sheets
And start walking these streets
Your all I happen to see

Now there's not a trace
Of your beautiful face
And I see it slipping away
And again it's a quiet night
It will be alright
If I could just start sleeping.
Dennis Bielanski Oct 2013
When I say that I love you
Again and again
It comes from my heart
It's never pretend

You may think that I am crazy
I am but a fool
Always thinking of you
What is this fool to do

You fill my dreams at night time
I want to have you in my bed
On my mind in day time
Your always in my head

Please know that I do love you
My heart would tell no lie
I will love for a lifetime
I could never say goodbye.
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
Let's not pretend
I am drunk again
These feeling I resigned
Your always on my mind
The only help to unbend
Is to get drunk again
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
There's a spark in your eye
Its not meant for me
But you still have my heart
I'm a love amputee

I'm at the end of my wits
Don't want you to see
Now what I hold on to
Are just memories

I took the good with the bad
Now you've walked away
With theses tears in my eyes
I won't beg you to stay

I don't know where to go
Don't know what to do
Set here with the bottle
And drink over you

But if I love you as much
As much as I say
I'll stop all my fighting
And let you walk away.
Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
Life is short
Don't let it pass by
Take time to live it
For tomorrow you die

Love is rare
And so hard to find
So reach out and grab it
Or it will leave you behind

Anger is bad
It will rot you inside
Make sure that you dump it
Or it will never subside

Fear is so awful
But we make it so strong
Make sure that you face it
To fix the things that are wrong

Memories are sweet
They're what we live for
Something to cherish
And can not ignore
Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
Everyday I put a smile on my face
And my smile looks out of place
It's just one of those days where I want to disappear
Tired of living life in sadness and fear

Nothing seems to make sense anymore
I want it back to like it was before
On the outside I'm masquerading
On the inside all my hope is fading

My happy smiles are all pretend
Depression  is my closest friend
I don't even know who I am anymore
I want it to be like it was before

Maybe I don't want to talk about it
I'm so sad I want to quit
This ache in my heart could **** me
This cage of emotion I'll never be free
Dennis Bielanski Oct 2013
Someday there will be a day
That we will have to part
That's the day that you'll understand
You were locked inside my heart

You will find the pureness
Of the love inside you'll see
How much I really care for you
How much you meant to me

You'll see my affection, my passion, my concern
The battles fought inside my heart
I gave every ounce of energy
Never tried to hurt you, I loved you from the start

Yes there will be a day
Where we will have to part
That's the day that you will see
You'll stay locked inside my heart.
Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
No one feels how lonely I am
My heart is empty
I have given it all to you
A heart so honest and true

Here I am alone again
On these uneasy streets I walk
The night air puts a chill on me
Lips frozen I can't talk

Where is the warmness of your heart
Will it come and save me
Where do I begin where do I start
To kiss the lips that will warm me

I feel you presence but your not around
Heavy like a ghost that's apon me
I reach but you never there
The sight of you will only confound me

All of the fun in my life is missing
Drinking in order to sooth me
Love is all I want from you
Missing the lips I could be kissing
Dennis Bielanski Sep 2013
I know we can't  be lovers
Make magic on your bed
But I watch it happen
When I let it in my head

Our bodies come together
That's where it all begins
Feel the excitement burning
Our bodies skin to skin

I kiss your neck and shoulders
My hands caress your back
A gentel kiss placed on your ****
As you roll onto your back

Your eyes look straight into mine
My soul is one with you
We fall to affectionate foreplay
For some time that's what we do

The sheets are warm and comforting
As I lie gazing up at you
Your eyes speak out to me
As my hands tremble over you

Slowly moving like to a beat
Of an alluring love song
Our bodies creating such a heat
We do it all night long

Then reality smacks me in the face
I see its just a dream
As a tear rolls down my face
I try hard not to scream
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
Broken and beaten left for dead
I'm hanging on by a few old threads
Like a death row inmate a sure sight to see
Nobody really cares about me

Such a great guy with a lonely heart
The love of a woman has it falling apart
She can not love me but wants to be friends
She don't understand my love never ends
Dennis Bielanski Oct 2013
Where did it begin
Tell me where did it start
That one precious moment
Where you captured my heart.

This is not something
Like a school boy romance
Show how serious my love is
If you gave me the chance

I can tell you it's not
Some physical ploy
What matters to me
Your hearts not a toy

I will help you to clean house
Even help wash the car
Cuddle up on a blanket
While gazing up at the stars

Mucking the horse stalls
Washing your cloths
The sweet kisses I give you
No one will know

I know it's a long shot
To have you by my side
Please know that I do love you
Something I never will hide.
Mel
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
Mel
What do you do when the family friend dies?
You feel the pain and the tears that come to your eyes
You think back on the time that you had
And all the  memories that now make you sad

What do you do when the family friend dies?
You remember the days when he was a pup
When he cried in the night and you held him close up
He has grown old no more that Cute pup

What do you do when the family friend dies?
You think of the times both the good and the bad
The best friend that you ever had
Just trying to get one last loving touch
Everyone in the family loved him so much

What do you do when the family friend dies?
Repeating his name over and over again
Hoping somehow it will stop all the pain
When all of the tears have all but been cried.
No matter how much or how hard you try
The only thing to do is say farewell.
And a loving Goodbye.
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
I am looking in the mirror
And I can see
Someone I don't know
He's looking right back at me

Looking back in front of me
At the reflection I see
Of the unhappy figure
My God don't let it be me

His eyes are calloused
His face off color blue
A once confident man
He knows not what to do

His cold dark stare
Show he is worse for ware
His ghostly impression
Hoping he can make a connection

He is asking for help
With a tear in his eye  
He's ****** up his life
That's why he still cry's
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
Woman you are strong and confident
You are fearless gentle and wise
The courage you carry I see it in your eyes
You have a simple kindness
That lives and grows in you
Such a simple kindness could never be untrue

You are a beautiful and amazing woman
But the charm of a Mother shines through
You have the heart of a Lioness  
Your skills as a Mother are tried and true
And so on this Mothers Day
I hope you find happiness and love
And may God send you endless blessings
From Heaven up above.
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
My yearning for you has me in a dungeon
And I worship you your my religion
Under lock and key you have my heart and soul
And when your near I lose all self control

This inferno that burns deep inside me
Is a devotion that is authentic and true
Caught up in you so completely
These feelings for you are hard to o subdue

Woman you are my only weakness
Lost in this affection for you
These feelings leave me sleepless
I want to spend time with you

In this prison my heart will stay
Wanting you more every day
Captive heart that will sing
A song that says your my everything
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
You always make my heartbeat
in strange and funny ways
And I can’t breathe
Every time you look my way

Please tell me what it is about you
Its wholesome clean and new
Every day I wake up
My thoughts come back to you

You can make my heart smile
through any kind of day
I never feel the sting of sadness
Because you wash it all way

What is the secret magic
That your holding over me
I’ve never felt so alive
I am happy strong and free

You fill my heart with love
That can only come from you
You may not be my woman
But my heart belongs to you
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
There's a tear in my eye
And there's one in my heart
It's battered and bruised
And falling apart

This plague eats away
At my heart everyday
Wraped in barbed wire
It can't break away.

I try not to scream
But my heart has no breath
Choking and gasping
A full living death

That how it's felt
Sense I heard I lost you
Please tell me please tell me
What my heart is to do
Dennis Bielanski Jul 2014
As I set here alone with the stars through the night
And my thoughts they come back to you
You're far from me way out of my sight
But my mind draws a picture of you
You're part of my morning, my noon, and my night
I just can't keep you away
You've been here forever, so clear in my mind
There's been something I've needed to say

Can we hold hands on a blanket under the moon
While the orchestra of crickets plays us a tune
We can sit by the fire out back in the yard
Loving you, woman, has never been hard
We can sit on a porch swing right up to the dawn
Slow dance to the radio till the night time is gone

You may be a hundred or a few miles away
You're still on my mind today
You've been here forever, so clear in my mind
I just don't know what to do
I may not have you but girl till I do
This is my love song to you

Can we hold hands on a blanket under the moon
While the orchestra of crickets plays us a tune
We can sit by the fire out back in the yard
Loving you, woman, has never been hard
We can sit on a porch swing right up to the dawn
Slow dance to the radio till the night time is gone
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
You are someone special
Because your loved by me
Don't hand out my heart and soul
To just anyone you see

I will leave a signature
Etched upon your heart
This imprint I leave on you
No more than a work of Art

I can not give you diamonds
Gold and silver to
The priceless thing I do give
My heart my soul my love to you
Dennis Bielanski Oct 2013
I never want to break your heart
Or ever see you cry
Always want you to be yourself
You know the reason why

I never want to confuse you
With the things I say
Making sure it's understood
I'll respect you in every single way

I will try to keep an open mind
With the things you share with me
Love and respect I'll give to you
Because you mean that much to me

I will always give to you
The truth that's in my heart
Be the woman your meant to be
That's where love will get it's start
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
You remain a mystery
Woman that's what you are to me
And let there be no doubt
I want to know what your all about

Tell me why it seems to me
That your such a mystery
A feeling so good I can feel sad
Why something good can hurt so bad

Such a mystery I lay awake at night
So many wrongs so many rights
My mind feeds my hearts desire
But it's your heart I want to acquire

Your mystery brings a tear to my eye
Only so many tears you can cry
Still after the heartache is over
My love for you will never die
Dennis Bielanski Aug 2013
I will never hold you
Or kiss your on the lips
I will never dance with you
Or place my hands upon your hips

I will never make love to you
Or lay naked on your bed
I will never be able to take care of you
When your sick in that same bed

I will never grow old with you
Or help you brush your hair
I will never be able to look you in the eyes
And tell you how much I care

I will never walk away
Or leave you all alone
I will always be there for you
Your heart will always have a home
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
It has been a while sense you left me
I still don't understand the reason why
He came for you and you left me
And all I wanna do is set here and cry

I remember the way that you loved me
You could take away all of my fears
The painful peaks and valley's
A look from you made them disappear

I know your not coming home
Its the same as yesterday
But I still walk the miles of headstones
To place my tears upon your grave
Dennis Bielanski Apr 2014
My sweet Angel Face
No one could ever take your place
Always and forever in my heart
Your such an elegant work of art

Never plain sometimes hard to read
Under your spell I can't be freed
Magic blue eyes make me paralyzed
Can't break free no matter what I try

Devilish smile I lose control
Surrender to you heart and soul
Your dark hair shines in the sun
When I see it I come undone

Every time I look at you
Can't stop myself I fall for you
Not my lover but you are my friend
Pray to God that never ends
Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
The summer breeze hits my face
As the sun sets in the distance
My mind takes me to a happy place
Our time together so reminiscence

I can hear the warm soft breeze
It seems to call your name
My heart calls for a reprise
How will I ever be the same

I run too fast but I can't keep up
As time just passes by
Feeling like I'm all caged up
My love for you won't die

There's a sleepless night and a candle lit
Love so sweet but yet it's sour
You know I can't resist it
Your such a delicate flower

I've lost my mind
When you stole my heart
My pride lying on the floor
No big secret you don't love me anymore
Dennis Bielanski Oct 2013
I would never have the need
To keep you on a leash
Free to be just who you are
Why would I want a leash

Free to grow and free to be
The person your meant to be
Never to be your keeper
Cause you mean the world to me

Love is what would connect us
Our hearts would beat as one
That's what would keep us together
Never be under my thumb.
Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
Everything about you
Is all but new to me
Though you feel just like an old flame
So familiar to my heart you see.

It's not like I just met you
You've been around before
But your spirit seems to speak to me
Like I've known you from before.

Your eyes they cut right through me
In a language that speaks love
Can't shake this hold you have on me
Your all that I think of.

You came from out of nowhere
You took me by surprise
I know you'll take me somewhere
With a love that never dies.

I know your not an old flame
But you feel so good to me
My love for you I will proclaim
Your all I want you see.
Dennis Bielanski Apr 2014
You don't know how empty I feel
How lost I am without you
To uncover my heart what would it reveal
A respect for you so loving and true
Devotedness  that can't live without you

Could you understand how misplaced I am
Without you walking beside me
If I could explain how my heart can't abstain
Wanting to feel your own heart beat upon me

Wandering and lost my heart pays the cost
I cry myself to sleep nightly
As I lay in my bed dreams of you fill my head
The illusions of you continue to haunt me

How can I explain all of this pain
I feel cause I'm wanting to have you
I know it's not fair but my hearts in the air
Free falling but don't want to hurt you

These feelings you see won't let go of me
They are rooted deep down into my soul
I'm prayed upon by beast that's so strong
Only you are the one that can save me
Dennis Bielanski Apr 2014
Oh Angel Face
I find myself thinking of you again
These feelings I have for you
I wish and wish they were pretend

Oh Angel Face
These feelings are unyielding
And I am so afraid of how I feel
The human heart is so unreal
My affections are never beguiling

Oh Angel Face
I'm not sorry that I feel this way
Your so special you mean the world to me
My heart will never let me walk away
And in my heart you will always be
Dennis Bielanski Dec 2013
There's a small country store
With an old wooden floor
There's an Old Man inside
With a smile he can't  hide

In that same country store
I'll buy some flowers for sure
There for my Angel Face
She's got a smile I can't ignore

As I walk out the door
Of that little country store
With red and yellow roses
They say friend I love you

You can't see
How much you mean to me
But I know I got a life time
In which to show you
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
Cold and damp
With a chill in the air
Lost walking the streets
Life doesn't seem fair

Shattered and broken
His hopes and his dreams
His once bright future  
Is not what it seems

He's been rained on road hard
Put away wet
Many miles of pain
He has not seen yet

Beaten up drug out
And left for dead
Only hanging on
By a few old threads

He needs one more drink
To get him through the night
What's happened to him
Just doesn't seem right

All of his life he's been a good man
Does the right thing when ever he can
Bad things happen to good people to
Just be glad it hasn't happened to you
Dennis Bielanski Jun 2014
As I watch the sun set
The stars a magnificent sight
And your on my mind
On such a beautiful night

The night air is so clear
Fire flys in full flight
I wish you were here
On such a beautiful night

There's a delicate breeze
That feels ever so right
But your not with me
On such a beautiful night

This night is not perfect
Only one way it could be
To have you here with me
On such a beautiful night
Dennis Bielanski Jul 2014
If you would only stop
And take a look inside of me
You would see the sadness
That's left a hole in me

The smile you once gave me
Has left with out a trace
And every time I see you
I seem so out of place

You have no feelings for me
You lost that long ago
And yes there will come a day
That I will let you go

The long days of pain
That once I had for you
They're something that will not remain
Cause I'll get over you
Dennis Bielanski Jul 2021
Empty paper
With these words in my head
Feel the heartbeat
Of sweet love that is said

Warm affection
That comes from my heart
Nothing pretend here
For you my sweetheart

Sharpened pencils
Make my affections be known
All the emotions
I crave to be shown

Lead spills out the desires
Paper empty no more
These genuine impulses
Battle for love like a Matador

I need no eraser
I have nothing to hide
My love a wave on the ocean
It will never subside.

And the paper and pencil
Need each other you see
Much like the love
Between you and me.
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
I’m not supposed to love to you
But you know how much I care
Every day I think of you
On my heart there's wear and tear

But I just couldn’t help myself
I fell in love with you
And most days I just walk around
Not knowing what to do

You’re not supposed to love me
It leaves me in despair
You’re not supposed to live your life
Wishing I were there

But I will always love you
And you will never be with me
Hopelessly in love with you
That is plain to see
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
Every now and then when I look at you
Your beauty still catches me off guard
Pure seduction in your eyes and smile
I try to hold in my feelings but it's hard

Absolutely helpless when I look at your hair
As my heart beats much faster
Please forgive me but I can't help but stare
Hiding these feelings I wish I could master

I still hold that candle and it burns for you
My heart leaps from my chest
And all of this is true
To hold you in my arms is my only request
Dennis Bielanski Jan 2014
If you could see inside of me
My weakness for you is plain to see
My heart is as loud as a beating  drum
This devotion to you I can't escape from

The emotion for you runs through my veins
Passion and wildness are what they contain
Please look at my heart it's beating for you
Take hold of my hand and please pull me through

I'm in a trance and it's all cause of you
This affection for you do not misconstrue
The kiss of true love Snow White did look for
It's all waiting for you to knock on my door.
Dennis Bielanski Jul 2014
Hey, have you ever tried
Really letting go of the feelings you hide
Well there's no better time to start
Please woman open up your heart

I know you don't know me well
If your heart is mine only time will tell
And in my dreams I want you to know
You won't know love until you let go

Life can be short or long
Love can be right or wrong
And if you chose to show me your heart
Our love will paint a picture of priceless art
Dennis Bielanski Nov 2013
Please know that I love you
And I hope you can see
That I put you in Gods hands
Because your important to me

You have captured my heart
My spirit my soul
The love I have for you
Was never my goal

I place you in Gods hands
Ask for the wisdom to know
When to hold on loosely
But not letting go

So I put you in Gods hands
And pray He shows me
How to keep you forever
But still set you free
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
Woman your heart is a puzzle
That I don't want to quit
I stand here a hand full of pieces
Oh how I try to make them fit

The puzzle of your heart goes together so slowly
My affection for you leaves me so lonely
It may take me forever to get the pieces to fit
I told you before I don't want to quit

Parts of the puzzle will never be found
I'll use pieces of mine that were cast around
I will fit them together affectionately
but that is the puzzle of you & a me
Dennis Bielanski Mar 2014
Outside the rain falls dark and slow
Now your gone there's nowhere left for me to go
So I walk the rain chilled and wringing -wet
These memories of you are so hard to forget

Dripping and numb I walk in silence
Lost in your love now without guidance
Heavy the rain tell me where do I start
What do I do I'm falling apart

Shivering rain it runs down my spine
And all I can think is when you were mine
Wet at the seems that are coming apart
I cry like the rain cause your still in my heart

Now in the rain and full of indecision
I'm drinking so much now double vision
I'm wet and I'm cold now what do I do
Its plain to see I will grow old but not with you
Dennis Bielanski May 2014
This life is hard
And I don't know why
With a heart that is marred
Nobody knows the tears I have cried

My hopes and the dreams
Why do they discard
All my feelings
Without any regard

Life is so fragile
And hard as a stone
Once we shared passion
Now I stand here alone

I'm lost without you
You know how I cared
And you know that I need you
Do you notice how I have been scarred
Dennis Bielanski Apr 2014
See the questions that surface in my mind
And see the mistakes that I have made
Begging for a change for my lonely soul
Full speed emotional I'm losing control

Vanishing memories of what I said    
Apear to me In a vivid dream
Where I am in over my head
Not having you makes me scream
Dennis Bielanski Feb 2014
We are just friends
And we both know
That's as far as it will ever go

But my heart
It does cry for you
Hold in the emotions
Is all I can do

I want so much more
Than you can give to me
I want you pain you see
And your laughter its more than physical
It's your heart that I'm after

But if I love you
Like I know that I do
Don't want it to end
So I'll settle for friends
Dennis Bielanski Dec 2013
She knows as she walks by me
That she's all I see
Now there's  an empty stare
She's looking worse for ware

As she turns to me
Again she's all I see
Now she speaks in tongues
Her words they come undone

She walks away from me
You know she's all I see
I have to say it straight
She's in a fragile state

I want her to come to me
Because she's all I see
But she's lost in the dark
She's got a heavy heart

Now she's leaving me
But still she's all I see
All I can do
Is hope she makes it through
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