Dominating presence caressing dark silence
Heighten primal needs from soul's depths.

Rendered motionless, anticipating confines,
Crossed legs powerless to suppress  trickles,

Tremulous excitement puddles,
Masterful voice resonates........

           '*** for me'

I woke up one morning and I couldn't see
That total destruction was waiting for me
I jumped out of bed, gave a kiss on the cheek
Why didn't I know, I was so blind and so weak

I looked out the window, the sun shining bright
There wasn't a clue it all seemed so right
I gave in to love and chose to deny
The life that we had built was only a lie

I hurried and showered and then woke him up
I pulled back the cover and gave him a cup
Though masked oh so well, there was only deceit
Not one ounce of love and I would soon meet
The cold heart before me would soon be revealed
And I would be lost like a sheep in a field

The rose colored glasses that I chose to wear
Not protecting my heart from hurt and despair
Oh why was my guard put down for this one
My life it would change and it was all but done

I had given my heart to the wrong one indeed
And sacrificed all to a man filled with greed
I even denied what everyone knew
My life he had taken but my love only grew
All I had worked for my whole life through
Would be gone on this day and nothing I could do

My fate it was sealed on this sunny day
The life I had dreamed of was taken away
At the hands of a man I had to protect
There was no appreciation, not even respect
He used and abused me, to him just a game
But I let him do it and still took the blame

As hard as I tried the day it was here
They would all turn their backs and leave me with fear
The ones I had worked for and given my all
Would now just seek justice and put up a wall
In their minds they felt pity but determined to show
I made some wrong choices and I now have to go

Love conquers all, well I use to think
But it left me with nothing before I could blink
Though they all tried to tell me to just turn him in
Love destroyed my life; how blind I have been

The days that did follow became a nightmare
My eyes they would open, my cross I would bare
He left me in ruins and just walked away
My life changed forever that one sunny day.

It was just like an unexpected ray of light,
You came to me one dark and cloudy night.
As I sat all alone downloading tunes,
Deleting instant messages like popping balloons....
But there was one that caught my eye,
So I clicked on the profile and I can't deny
My heart skipped a beat at the sight of your face,
From that moment on in my heart you would have a place.

I eagerly read and messaged my reply.
You were like an angel sent straight from the sky.
Your words were so kind right from the start.
I knew right away to say goodbye to my heart!
Love at first sight i never believed,
But from the first moment, my heart you received.
All the anguish and pain that I was living in
seemed so far away and I began to smile again.

As hours turned to days and days to weeks,
Each day your loving words took my heartbeats.
You entered my life and tore down the walls
That I so meticulously built to protect me from falls.
My heart many times broken, I was battered and beat....
But it seemed that true love had been laid at my feet.

Could I ever trust and totally let go?
Because heartache and sorrow are all that I know.
Your kindness and patience have shown me the way,
And I realize I need you every single day.
I am giving you my heart, unlocking the door....
I pray happiness lasts and sorrow is no more.

Late at night while the world sleeps
Except for the night owls, workers, and creeps
I lay in my bed with tears on my cheek
The terror sets in and I cannot speak
The same familiar footsteps that I heard before
Are ever so close, just inside the door

Though I pray and I beg there is no relief
I just lay there and listen, my heart filled with grief
The footsteps continue and I hear the door
He shuts it behind him and I hear no more

Have I done something to cause all of this
When he is gone what will I miss
Not jewels nor gold or things will he take
Though the mark he will leave is only heartbreak

For the fears that I have are not normal you see
It's not an intruder but love leaving me

Self contamination charred an insurgent heart,
A soul's frail remnants combatively desecrate.
Fading to nothingness, his being a mere hull,
Wailing goes unheard in this putrid hollow den.

The air's stench reflective of a fowl sordid life.
Insatiable quenchless greed paired with vainglory
Gives rise to full-scale fated annihilation,
Detachment and desolation seize sanity.

Obscurely repressed memories randomly flash,
Shadows appear and ill willed voices resonate.
Through mad distorted conceptualization,
He envisions himself stepping out of his doom.

Delusional thoughts provoke him to attempt flight,
Somehow elude his inevitable demise...
Yet enfeeblement proves to be victorious,
Powerless to climb he resigns to the darkness.......

Love's deprivation provoked her heart's callosity,
Doomed to exist in a vexed soul's tenebrosity.
Ignominious failure of life proved detrimental,
Was death self annihilation or purely accidental?

Loneliness metastasizes numbing overkeen theorization,
Quintessence withers effortlessly despoiling fortitude.
Protesting indignantly yet zest vanishes....
Cacoethes burns abrogating sanity's grasp,
Hysteria unanchors judgement...kismet looms.

Fishnet hose and stiletto shoes,
Feast or famine, she must choose.
From a putrid life she'll try to rise,
Mounds of make up, her only disguise.

Poverty drenched escaping the gutter,
But those city lights now dim and sputter.
Chancing the odds, she's bound to lose,
Society's blows create a permanent bruise.

Fancy cars and diamond rings,
Wealth's facade invites and stings.
Longing for warmth, her innocence sold
For a cheap toe tag....

This world is so cold!!

Prismatic dreams are just an illusion,
Rainbows fade in sordid soul's confusion.
As laughter dies, darkness will ever loom,
Trapped forever in achromatic gloom.

dark skies come to life
ballerinas in the sky
dance in the moonlight

Withdrawn, fading into blackness
In mindless rumination she drifts
Relinquishing balanced thoughts.

Slipping into isolation,
Losing sight of rationalization,
She vanishes.....

Infatuation perhaps a dangerous emotion,
Beginning as pleasure, turning to devotion.
Mutual feelings shared, there's passion beyond compare,
Yet absence of one leads to destruction and despair.

Comes with no warning labels, no iron clad guarantee,
Remember even in love, nothing is bought for free.
Becoming vulnerable, blindly taking a chance,
May break a soul down or make a heart dance.

Unreciprocated  love will surely break a heart,
Though if two become one, a bond never torn apart..

Prodigiously unearthly phenomenon pierced a soul
Goodbye's surreality relinquished her from being whole
Thrown adrift an effervescent spirit blackened like coal....

Hell or Heaven's gate
whether to love or to hate
what will be your fate

Blinded by deceit and lust,
Carelessly giving you my trust.
Pieces scattered on the floor,
Shattered heart forevermore.

Sparks ignite such fatal flames,
Trapped in all your childish games.
The fire extinguished, ashes remain,
No light is left, only darkness and pain.

Callous, feral, cold and cruel,
Broken now I eat the gruel.
If I die before I wake,
I no longer have a soul to take.

Confined in depths of soul's torment,
Shackled unable to circumvent....
Darkness hovers overhead,
Standing naked, lonely and misled.