delusional

delusional Jul 2013

13th

Flowers in the ***,
The sun are hot,
As hot as the temperature,
But so pure;

Pure like you,
Like the sky blue,
Like the memories,
The memories we've made;

In the rains,
In the storm;

I'd never expect,
But,
I always hope;
Hope for you,
For you to be the old you;

I want that innocent girl,
Back;
Before I leave,
Don't make my heart crack,
Like the night of New Year's eve;

delusional Jul 2013

yes, you

i am missing the moment
The moment when you text me
and i didn't reply you because
i got no credit but
you still text me everyday
wishing
either goodnight or good morning
or the text asking me to wake up from
my beautiful dream and
i truly missing the call
when i called you first
and then my credit weren't enough to get us on the phone longer
but you called me back because you want to continue the conversation
and i really am missing those.

I don't know what it meant for you
But for me,
It's the happiest things ever happen in my life
Because
Nobody ever treated me like that
Like the way you treated me
I'm glad these feelings havent gone yet
I truly glad;

((f.l.d))

delusional Jul 2013

Untitled

Dont make me give up
Brings me together
Brings me up
Again
With you or without you
I'll be ok
Just bring me together
When u feel i am falling apart
Because i am falling apart
Apart from this life
Dont tear my heart
Dont make me sad

Somehow
I think
You think i'm only attention seeker
Somehow
I think
You think i'm not good enough to be anything for you.

I've missed everything

((f.l.d))

delusional Jul 2013

one and only

I need to stop
Stop falling
Falling in love

This ain't something to considered right now
Things aint gonna change
I need to stop
Stop hoping
Stop dreaming
Because my dreams
My hopes
Will somehow gone
Fade away
Never coming back
Even if i'm dreaming the same thing
The things will keep going
Gone

Not a little were left
They weren't meant for me
At all
The wounds
Left a scar
I've been hoping for this wounds heal
But it seems like wouldn't

I don't have to change
I just need to
Need to forget them
Need to forget all the mistakes i've made

Forgive me, the new me
Someone needs me
And she is
The old me
And i might be never be you again.
Forgive me.
I like to be you
But
I love the old me

The happy me
The cheerful me
Not
The sorrowful me
The sad me
.
.
.

((f.l.d))

delusional Jul 2013

wallflower

i'm a wallflower
I sat alone in a room
And i cried
Almost every night

What did i cry for?
My life
My sad life

I kept dreaming of something seems possible
I hope for something that im not even sure would come true or not
I cried when the flashback came to my mind
The sad flashback
The flashback i would never forget

I was pretended-to-be-liked person
I sometimes realize,
I annoyed people
Though they did nice things to me
Sometimes i feel like

Keep quiet
Not smiling to anybody
Goes into bathroom and starts crying
And when i stepped out of the bathroom,
I would feel so relief
I would like never cry of the same reasons

Because ive been through it
And it feels bad
It feels like it is killing me inside
It feels like i need somebody to cool me down
But nobody was ever there
And somehow i hoped,
I will have somebody who will
Listens to me
Supports me
Cry for me
Laugh with me
Chill me down;

((f.l.d))

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