You're a trifling ******* excuse for a woman……

Mommy Dearest

Don't play the role now, where were you when you were needed, when you left me around whoever and I wanted to go with you, when I begged and pleaded.

Mommy Dearest

You turned your head when you knew....I was in the other room, being molested. And of course it's nothing new, that you played dumb and never confessed it

Mommy Dearest

A high was more important, assisted with your cruel insensitive nature. Shady willow tree in the summer, cold as the arctic glaciers.

Mommy Dearest

As far as I'm concerned we know I raised myself. So think of me as dead and expect nothing on the 12th……

.....Mommy Dearest

The conflicts of my "morals" and the switch of my beliefs. Why should I be in the hot seat if a "taken" man wants to cheat. I'm not married so calling me dawns the denial of your defeat. I'm not trying to break up a "happy home" you could leave……but you choose to accept it. I'm sorry I'm not concerned that you're aged and you feel neglected. Go ahead and think I'm *******.…but if I have his card who am I to not charge it. Put a leash on your husband and stop blowing up my phone, maybe you should creep and you wouldn't feel so alone. Does it make me a bad person if I don't really care. I'm not you and I'm not stressing out my hair. He goes out of his way....to pop up at my club when you're sleep so what does this say. You can trust that I don't seriously want him, makes no sense when I can see how he treats you. Just please shutup, walk away....or let it defeat you.

I wish you'd leave me alone, I hate you and PLEASE stop popping up when you know nobody's home. I'm not your girl, I'm very much grown. Just please…go on. But I can't leave you, and I can only fight my heart's desires for so long

Because you are the death of me.

"Where you at!!? I'm coming to you." Then you kick and bang on the door. "I just wanna talk." And of course I let you in. "C'mon, Yazz. Let's just go on a walk."Thinking to myself...if he slaps me around again I've seen it coming, definitely.  

Because you are the death of me.

Two a.m, threw on some pants and a hoodie. You start to breathe hard and I see your woody. Tried to ignore, but you pressed it into me as I slid ouy the door. "Let's just go back inside if that's all you came here for."
"Nahh Ima chill, we can't no more you would've been like what, four……months."

My eyes start to water and then my shoulder's slump. If you would've pulled out before that last pump……you wouldn't be rubbing the nonexistent baby bump.

You wiped my tears then started rubbing my ears. Put my head in your chest as we hugged. And talked. And for a moment I enjoy being stalked.

Because you are the death of me.

Wondering what you would've looked like

Wondering what your voice would've sounded like

Would you be a gift to the world or a burden to society

Either way I love you.  

Would you be tall or short

Would you be his or his

Would you be my baby boy or my baby girl

Either way I love you.  

Would you be two, twins maybe.

Wondering if your daddy would've left us

And would you have issues like me in 18 years

Either way I love you.

If I wouldn't have aborted you, maybe you'd love me

Maybe I wouldn't hate myself

Maybe you'd say, "Mommy don't cry"and sing me a lullaby

Maybe things would've worked out

Maybe

Either way…… I love you.

No telling me you don't pick up on my energy, you feel me doing good and find some way to **** up my day.

I get in the groove of life, you cross my mind…then my phone rings and I pick up to a dead silence and then you say;

"Say the word, and I'll give you the world……baby you know I'll do anything for you. Just please stay. I know you miss me I can feel it from here. You can pretend you don't love me, that's fine. Just let these ****** know, deny it all you want but that ***** is mine."

My heart beats fast, and faster, and faster, and faster. You always knew how to get me, you always know that you got me……******* *******.  

You know that I love you, you know that I need you. You know that I feel you and you know that I see you.  

Since the last time we spoke it's been almost a month, exact, to date. But let's see how you react, when I tell you………that. I'm late.

Empty

Married men on the brink of divorce.

Girls in relationships.

Contrary to popular belief,

Wanting to be home.

Regular, came in for his two dances.

God how'd I end up working tonight.

Hey look! An older couple,

Trying to "spice it up,"

Well, if it isn't awkward for you

I guess

Valentine's Day Dances

Why not just dinner for two?

Love,

Your potential,

I fall in love with potential,

What we could be,

Not what we are,

Making wishes,

On a fluke of a star,

Love,

Your potential,

I'm sorry I couldn't commit,

To who you really are,

I love your potential,

And whom you could one day be,

But you and me,

Sadly mistaken for love,

Fool's Gold,

I'm sorry,

Fools in love,

I'm sorry,

I'm sorry,

I'm sorry,

Fool's Gold,


I'm sorry.