I'm leaving us, my love.
my reckless entanglement,
my ******* mad, headlong descent
into today.
You swore we'd die entwined
in each other.
loving each other,
Give me a chance, you said,
to prove my love, you said.
Ha! you had me there,
I didn't ever see this coming,
This cold, this freezing cold,
I'd have taken hatred any day
Didn't I deserve that,
at least that
Didn't I, my love?

These are the things that bind me:
Children, the best of my soul,
Words, always
Love
Hatred
These things ground me.
They halt my fanciful flights
Down dark, monstrous roads
Bags haphazardly packed beside me
And Bowie tunes blaring loud,
Holding me so tight
Reminding me of stardust days.
They stop me testing the great unknown,
Not yet, I'm not there yet,
I have so many more words still to read,
Still to say.