will you be away long, my friend?

I saw your picture, name and r.i.p. next to each other

We weren't close but we weren't far

I feel like my heart dropped more than it should of this morning

I'm ever so incapable
of holding a grudge

When I look at a person
I see how miserable they are
how pathetic they are
how they struggle for survival in this emotionally and psychically exhausting place we call our city, our state, our country, our world

I know that they think about putting a noose around their neck,  themselves just as often as I do, as anyone

so I apologize with no apology in return and go on about my day

and I guess
that's just how it is