The vast unknown has for me been a very difficult place to be
or so I assumed
However, it was the knowingness that consumed me
If I knew what to expect and it didn't happen, wasn't as successful or precise than I lived in despair and demise

I don't know what is happening I told my lover
I don't know where this path leads us
In the unknowing I have found my happiness
And, when I try to know is when despair happens

The vast infinite unknown waits for all of us
It consumes us
But when we free fall into it
Look around and enjoy it
Something that felt so scary before now feels like infinite glory

Will you step into the unknown with me
Will you take my hand
I cannot lead for I do not where we are going
You cannot lead because you do not know as well
But together we can hold hands, be right beside each other

Discovering
Journeying
Being
Exploring


In the VAST UNKNOWN

Together

You wanna moon dance you wanna witch prance under the naked stars what time to be alive lets moon dance lets have a feminine romance **** out **** out its a moon dance lets wake up the kings who have been a sleep call them to our coven for a moon dance to make love like a dolphin ******* its a moon dance for the queeenssss to awaken to the their kingggg time to make our ***** sing and sway under this moon danceee

Purrrfect
whisper these words and you will find them to be your best friend
Purrfect
The most inticing words of the english language
Words that control our culture and our society seems to be secretly based on
Plastered pictures of perfection
Skinny models that eat burgers
That's perfection
She can eat and be skinny
Why can't we all?
Purrfect is a seductirist
She seduces you into believing that if you are "good enough"
Do everything and all things "right"
You'll be loved forever and nothing bad will ever happen
Purrfectttt, just be purrrfecttt
Always so, always do, always look your best
Perfect is the goal
That is forever unachievable, yet everywhere we see the desire to be perfect
Well if you dress with brand labels, you play multiple instruments, you're trending on twitter, and have a million insta followers plus a banging bond, and you eat what the ******* want while rocking a size zero, and you date the hottest guy that worships you but you don't worship him and you have zero negative emotions and are always smiling, and have the job you've always wanted or you get to travel because money just floats out the air and you got nothing to worry about because you're on the cover of all the magazines
You're purrrfecttt

Alive, the living
The human form composed
Blank spots
Pain and knots
Aging and disgrace
Little unknowns
Mixed with memories of love with conditions
Never knowing if being seen is real or unreal
Blank spots
Blocked spots
Deep anger, deep fear and regret
Deep, so deep
It stinks, it hurts
It's cold nothingness, mixed with blankness
It's hidden from existence
The darkness, the scar, the burn
From never being heard
Dark spots
Really dark, blank spots
The demise, the suffering, the lies
Uplift, don't drown
Mustn't go too deep
Deep down
Now
Lift up, submerge
Lift and lift and lift
Until sunshine pours in
Glittering gold
Soft spots, warm spots
Longing, needing spots
Of sunshine and happy days
Of feelings of love
Of Uncondition-love
Love that only exist in true form
The need to be, the need to slow
The need to feel not so alone
Soft spots, warm spots
Loving spots
Spots that love and love and love
Love that always seems be and never dies
But grows infinitely and internally, externally
Always
Mix them up
Black spots blank spots and gold spots
Steaks of glitter atop a dark canvas with miles in between
Painted like a twinkling night sky
Or moment held in time
That is some truth of the inside

Radishes all there are radishes
Remembering...
Up rooting from the decaying earth
Dirt fluttering like snowflakes to the ground
As picked rows of radishes becoming piles
Smile...Remembering the feeling of satisifcation
Hard-work and ***** hands
Remembering... heart-shaped radishes
Piles of heart- shaped radish
Dripping of Mother's earth
Remembering... All, all the madness
Consumed by madness
Pick by pick- row by row all the heart-shapped radishes
Remembering, Smiling -desiring
All the hurt melting- slowly melting
Unseen- becoming one with earth
Transforming into rows and rows of heart-shaped radishes
Healing parts of all the madness, wholeness
Remembering... and smiling... ***** hands and radishes

The white snake sleathers up
while the red blood sleathers down
and the hour glass shows
the time has come of decisions
decisions needing to be made
but which way
when both roads are painted both ways
down would be too painful
up is so unknown
safety in the inbetween lines
blank spaces
with no sounds of ticking time
demise or insanity
sanity or enjoyment
there is no clear name for the space inbetween decisions
only the parallel lines of both red and white meeting

Wise Sage Woman
Won't you tell me your secrets
Why do you smile like that
When you have seen it all go
Wise Sage Woman
Will you tell me your secrets
Of why you stand here
With your loving eyes
When you have seen loved ones die
Wise Sage Woman
Will you tell me secrets
Of where we all go before we die
Wise Sage Woman
Sitting there smiling at me
Please tell me your secrets
So I may finally be
She says young woman
Yes, Woman
Sit next to me
I'll tell you tale
Of witches and warlocks
Of fights, blood, and demise
Of true love, of love
Of conquer of pride
I've seen it all
Lived it all
And when it is time for me to go
I will bring it ALL with me
Because life's lessons are the biggest gifts I have ever recieved