The sound of silence
pounding in my head,
numbers revolve but
formulars envade my
head like solders
of love.
An idea comes but
answers are not there,
the pressure starts to
build
but
are word comes "30minutes
left" she says.
owww my feet starts to shack,
swet starts to show,
My head is high like are
bird flying without wings.
will the pressure stop
when the world turns around
cause shes standing,
right next to me saying
"times up".
My future is gone 3hours
of pain and sorrow.
seating in an maths exam.

She spends more time behind a mirror
But behind her mind there always I was,
Love smiles every time
love sees me smile laugh or just being me
Love cries everytime I shout at her
Cause Love hates it when Im angry.

Love was gone but the love was never gone
It woke me up at dawn
Just like love used to do.
Love left but on every shirt she left her scent,
So Love used to kiss me like a bee
But always made me feel like a flower
And she always looked like a flower
Every time I looked at Love
I fell in love like Im so in love with love.
But I wasnt looking at love but love's pictures
The time we spent on the park
No banch could fit us
So we hid under the branches of old trees
Talking to love like I just met her
Hugging her goodbye
Like tomorow I wasnt gonna see her,
Although I knew the moment she left
My heart would seek her
Only to just be with her!
Im in love with Love
But its been a while now
Chasing Valentine like Im gonna kiss Love
Not knowing that Im chasing it only to miss love
Like a dove thats with broken wings
That was blown away by winds
I walk slowly like a duck
patiently like a pinguen ready to dive
Eyes wide open like an owl at night
Heart beat steady cause my mind is at comma
Like I gonna find you around the corner
But Ive taken so many corners
Finding you is harder than a maze,
Again like our 1st date
Ill be late so be not amazed,
but the question at heart
From heart to heart
Love is love still there?
cause love is not so hard to find
But today our hearts proven to be blind
Love has your heart built a bond with another
Love my heart has built a tour of doubt,
Love Why are you so hard to find
But I still love Love so love wont fall alone
Cause we stood together like dominoz
So everytime you fell in love
You pushed me in love
So Love where are you
Love how are you
But after a moment of doubt
my heart Felt love and loved
And I knew that love was still around
But love never felt the same
Maybe my heart was insane
Or what are my feelings saying
Should I turn around
Should I look around
Should I wait for Love to call...
But love was gone a long time ago
But love was still around
So was looking at the wrong side of the city
I was looking for love at the wrong side of the park
Maybe love is hiding behind that tree
She was always good at hide at hide and seek
But its been hours
And Im running out of places to seek for Love
but I still have one place to look
A place thar Love never left
A place thats still in love
a place that Love loved to hide at
That big tree next to the river
Were we curved our hearts
And titled our hearts and love
Maybe love would be there,
I found my legs running like that of an ostrich
And they stopped my pupils dialated
Addrenalin froze my heart
Oxygen became scarce
So I was suffocating in a park full of trees
My eyes percived love as an angel
No maybe a goddess
"No cupid cant be a girl"
I found it impossible to believe
Maybe a step closer
Maybe a touch nor smouch
No just watching is enough
Love still looked the same
But my eyes have gone insane
Loves voice, the sound of it,
I found birds singing along with every word,
Her eyes like marbles refracting the sun light
Her body like that of a queen
I wonder were are her knights,
Her touch that cozy feeling of a new blanket
Wrap me around like jacket
Cause her hug is still warm
And around her armz I think I felt safe

I speak my words in silence like no one hears me,
Her heart unbrakes with my knife stebbin it,
Will she ever be happy or will I hurt as I always do,
My silence speaks the unspeakeble of my unsaid words.

The road seems hard at times while love gets even deeper,
The more we are,the more the affairs we bring towards us,
A drop of her tears pains me inside,
Like it dropped down my throat
To crown my heart with pain
she crowned my heart with pain and victory
As her heart was heartlesly slain
To make me vain
Tormented by the memories
Of chopping down her veins
As the blood rains
The taste,tastes bitter while my mistakes haunts me like a rolling stone ghosts.

As darkness grows bigger,
I am falling deep in my perfect world as my eyes close,
This dark feeling starts to
Linger,
Sadness fills my mind,
Emotions run up and down,
Eish!
Will my mind ever mind its own sadness?
Will it ever stop running back to that moment,
Where love was born and destroyed?
It keeps taking me backward
As if time decided not to move forward
Until I have understood what love is.
I can't deal with this!
So I - I bash my head
On the ground till it cracks!
I open it up to get rid of my own mind,
'Cause these memories ring like an alarm -
What love means,I cannot find.
I hear sad voices in my head;
Heartbroken people weeping
'Cause to them love is now dead;
They need me to redeem them,
To save them,
To love them -
Because only in me
Do they see love which
I do not see;
But I'd rather die
Than to go back to that traumatic experience
Where love is a lie.
As darkness grows bigger
Sadness in my mind itself glows brighter;
And love dies quicker!
I'd rather have it so,
Because no one in this lifetime is ever real now,bro.
-Dawn and XDaPoet

A day was bright like
no other day.
The sky was shining
like there was something
coming upon the
sky.
We were trolling like
we used to,
but
little did she know.
Her smile always made
me happy but not
today.
When the sun went down
the sky was beautiful and
she was perfect,
but
today my eyes changed,
I never saw that beauty.
Was that the sin of todays
moment,
was my love for her ending
because I loved this moment
but
today i didnt.A full moon
arised upon a mountain,
as we used to love that
view but not today,I
was ord and she noticed
the moment was spoiled
and said it "I'm not the
same guy you loved before
I'v changed".
She cried and said no words
but left me with an amazing
view that still lingers in my
memory................................

I speak my language with pride,
I show my blackness with dignity,
I embrace who I am without fear of judgment or being rejected,
I am an african like any african,
But I say down to exenophobia

Its never easy admiting
While accusing is the strongest thing in
my mouth,
The taste,taste bitter while my words
hurt like dumped woman in divorse,
While my words inflict pain,
A million dollar question rises,
Forgiviness?
Will she ever forgive me for the pain I
brought,
While I apologies like a widow asking
questions in her mind of did he die.
While I look for her respond as her
mouth opens,
I try to catch my breath,
While my mind wonders around thinking
of a million things in one,
For a moment the world stopped,
Pictures of her where on my mind,****!!
The world turned dark with her in it.

I awake at night waiting
for a call,
A call with a voice,
A voice of a sweet tones and
lovely sound,
A sound that I fall in love with,
with an amazing girl,
A girl that stole my heart and
gave me hers.
still thinking
thinking about the moments
we had,
the love we shared and the
promises we made,
but now
You left me in a position of hate,
A position of confusion with no
reply.
still thinking about us.

I'd rather stay hurt
with you
than live without
you.
I'd rather have stress
and always be angry
but knowing at the
end of the day you
still with me.
I'd rather stay months
and years not feeling
your body
but touching you and
kissing you.
I'd take a chance with
you than leaving alone
but
knowing well,love hurts
and there is no perfect
love.

I sleep awake with my eyes only seeing you,
The feeling,feels so deep as time goes,
While the picture of you stays stationary in my timeless mind.

Awake I become with tears rolling down my ears like rain falling down the mountain,beautiful it seems but pain is what I felt,
Looking out my window paint
While you walked away.

(Bongane)
He speaks of an unbearable pain
That walks at night,
While his eyes close like a dead corpse,
His feet start to move in a motionless movement.
                   (Bongiwe)
His senses go senseless as he tries to sense not.
The cold breeze of the night carries the words of silence.                         
Oh silent night, scream no more.
I can't bear the frequency of your sound waves
                (Bongane)
 While the truth sparks up,his mouth
Starts to open so ridiculously confessing the truth of a night walker,
As the moon and stars listen,
The walls start to whisper so silently
In a vacuum like manner

               (Bongiwe)
He starts confessing sins he's seen
They flash in his memory like movie scenes
"Oh Father forgive their sins" he thinks
As he walks past what looked like a dump site for the young souls that have grown skin deep wrinkles.
Sweaty bodies rubbing against each other
****** fluids sending silent request for immediate release.
Chemical infused blood rushes
Followed by a gunshot and blood splatters.
The dark night seems to bring corpses in platters.

                 (Bongane)
"Oh dear Father" he said while his eyes sees blood all over,
His hands drip with souls of unsaid confessions,
Whispering of what he saw that was never told
As he kneels to pray for forgiveness
A voice said "confess my child."

                  (Bongiwe)
"Father I saw him. He creeps at night offering door to door services.
His target market are women of all ages.
He always walks out with an appliance as a reward and satisfaction for his uncontrollable dark urges.
Night after night he jumps over a fence,
He blends so perfectly with the dark you could easily mistaken him for a shadow."

(Confess my child)

"Father I saw her. I know her face on day light but at night she wears a washable mask.
Then parades the streets embracing dusk.
She has so much for the eyes to feed on
Envoking lust in the dark corners.
She loses herself in her saviour for the night in her search for wings hopefully to take flight."

(Confess my child)

"Father I saw it. It crossed right in front of me. I asked myself what it was but before my mind could figure out what to make of it, my fear had already solved the equation. I felt my courage surrender shamefully, Father it's face gave darkness a darker meaning. Father I know the face of synthetic death sent by heart that has been befriended by jealousy with a drop of hate. I was lucky that it wasn't my turn yet, I guess my success isn't good enough to die for"
 
(Confess my child)

"Father I've seen so much...
Sins this much...
They weigh me down
I know it's not my place but I thought maybe should lay them down.
Father they are not mine but the guilt is burning my conscience
Let me confess on their behalf before my conscience is extinct."

"As I start my night shift
I wish the night shifts faster than my heartbeat.
Forever adrenaline ready
Father this is heavy"

"Father I don't want to be one of them
I swear I see more corpses than the nearest graveyard.
Those who's lives end at every exhalation.
Father I saw it,
I swear I saw it.
Father is this the Genesis of the Revelations?"


...........Dawn & Bongiwe.......

I fill my heart with rage thinking love will knock on my door.
**** flat on a floor,
Expectedly watching the door.
Seating in this dark old room filled with smoke,
My mind seems to be as foggy as this room
Yet filled with clear memories of her face,
****!
My mind spins hard with forbidden memories.
I seat up straight trying to get a smoke but all I see is this empty pack of cigarettes.

An hour ago I thought I would make it.
Chainsmoking my time away hoping the nicotine would be the perfect replacement.
You have always been my drug of choice but all you left me with was pack of cigarettes a substitute.
I have to admit
It didn't quite hit the spot.

I drown my sorrows in cravings for you to touch me.
Touching my lips as we kiss passionately.
I'm craving for the smell of your fragrance,
For it to awaken my senses and fill my lungs.
You filling me and I, feeling you.
I don't know what I miss more, these cigarettes or you.

I'm light headed with a splitting headache.
Reality slowly kicking in,
I feel the blow right on my heart.
I need an antidote for these aches.
A huff or a puff,
Maybe just the sight of you.
Something to bring me healing and a dose of calming effect.

I have nothing left but hope
They say hope killed nobody
But that's where the danger lies
For I am a nobody
Who's hoping you can accept a walking corpse with ashtray lungs and a scarred soul.