You hold my heart in your hands
but yet it beats for another. Why
do I allow these feelings to control
me? I have love right in front of me
but for some reason its not the love
I long for.  Please release my heart
and set it free before its too late for
both of us.

Reality to me is a dream
Wake up stupid girl

Just when it is over,
you pull me in again.

In a world filled with lots of pain I look around searching for my lost soul.
Darkness overcomes like a shadow that threatens us from behind.
I search high, I search low. The answers lie between heaven and hell I know it.
Not knowing what will lies ahead I keep moving on. I have to, my mind says so.
Each passing hour I hear the clock ticking louder and louder...I am running out of time.
Into the darkness I go until it hits me like a bolt of lightning...I realize I am not in search of my soul.
I am running from myself and what is to come.

Red Roses Blooming
Two Heartbeats That Are Now One
Aching  and Waiting

Hope lies somewhere within me.
I can feel it.  I know its there.
Hope used to be my friend. Always there by my side.
Somewhere along the way, hope became my enemy.
It's been dormant for quite some time. "Hope where are you?
Show me you are real."  I  need you now more than ever.
Here I sit, talking to myself cause Hope won't fight back.
I guess Hope won't show it's face until I find my true self.

I sit the whiskey on the table, but keep filling my empty glass.
No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to erase the past.
I'm getting old quickly here, just remembering you dear.
Please hurry and leave my mind, but for at least one last time
It'll be one more glass, no two, hell make it the whole **** bottle.

I'll keep on drinking you away, taking it slowly sip by sip.
I close my eyes and I think of your soft touch on my lips.
I'm getting old quickly here, just remembering you dear.
Please hurry and leave my mind, but for at least one last time
It'll be one more glass, no two, hell make it the whole **** bottle.

Why is it
that I let you
hurt me always?

The knock is heard at the door.
I slowly make my way toward the sound.
Dreading every move I make as I get closer.
The sound is getting louder, almost deafening me.
I know what awaits me at the other side of the door,
for Death knows no stranger.
It's up to me if I invite Death in.
I choose to keep the door closed this time
and make death wait a little longer.

After all this time don't you know me by now? Don't you know how I will react? Don't you know when I will cry? I am supposed to trust you. Love you. Respect you. How can I do that when all you seem to do is hurt me?You are just like everyone else in my life. You only care about you. When are you gonna start caring about others?  I feel I don't know anyone or trust anyone. Maybe that is how life is supposed to be. Well, you know what? Get out of my life and stay out!!!

This is about as useless as yesterday's garbage
You will find no recycling going on here
Just scattered torn up pieces of trash
Yes, this is my so called life.

Please don't justify the way I feel
Unless you have been through this
Don't tell me my pain is unreal.
  
Stop saying things will be okay
Do you know that for sure
Or is that just to delay.
  
What I need is for you to let me be
Can you do that for once
I ask this of you do this for me.
  
Show me you care and I will move on
Tomorrow I will awake to a new day.
Thankfully today will be gone.

She put all she had into their life together and  
thought they were soulmates...but yet he was still stuck
somewhere in his past and could not give his all.
In reality, she was just as alone as she was before he existed.

I find myself searching for something.  
I am racing around looking,
not even sure what I am in search of.
  
The summer days are so long.
Yet they slip right through my hands.
What is it I can't find?  
  
Finally, it comes to me.
A tune so familiar.
I am searching for my youth!
  
When did I become this old lady?
Who is that I see in my own reflection?  
It can't be me, I know it can't.
  
I am holding on to only memories.
Still I am in the making of new ones.
Its all so fast, life that is.  
  
When can I find my real self.
Where did I go?  
Where did time go?

The shade is surrounding me
Hiding me from the sun.
I try to go toward the light
but the darkness is spreading rapidly.
Soon the night will overtake the light.
I know this feeling all to well.
I relive it everyday, but yet it feels a dream
Everything is starting to blur during this changeover.
I am becoming lost in my thoughts.
What in the world??? Wake Up!!!
All I want to do is run, but I know that I can't out run the night.
I just fall and the twilight overtakes my body.

Its dark. The tears stream down my face.
I scream in terror at this unfamiliar place.
No matter what I do, its just not enough.
I can't take this anymore, its all too rough.
This has been going on for far to long.
I have got to get a grip, I have got to be strong.
Maybe now with you holding me near during the night
I will wake tomorrow knowing things will be alright.