I cry, I scream.
Can't you see I'm hurting?
You walked away. Now a dead doll, unresponsive,
Pretending to listen, empty, distant, cold.
Angry at myself for believing, hoping,
That the frog can tame the scorpion.
Your mask fooled my love-blind eyes.
Recklessly and fearlessly I have loved...
It was my choice.
It is my pain.
It is who I am.

I put the pieces I have together,
the puzzle incomplete.
Looking for what I've missed,
Not willing to accept defeat.
The video plays back in my mind...
I let slip the villain, the indifferent and unkind.
Only to be matched by your doomsday defences
Aggressively fighting for safety... relentless.

Today, an abundance of joyful memories fills my mind
When I remember your smile, beautiful, kind.
I have made my choice I want to stay
Growing memories beyond yesterday.
Whether you can see past the full moon storm,
I do not know... I do not know...

The remembering unfolds as layers fall away,
We are yin, we are yan, orbiting night and day.
My mind fails to comprehend the vastness of our being,
Yet my heart knows. It knows. It fully and deeply knows.

Inside me the ancient and dormant sense you,
A low thrum, broadcasting to unite us two.
From the beginning, we dance, we laugh, we play,
Life after life finding each other hiding in the hay.
And then! Seeing your soul scream in delight,
When I find you and kiss you and make it all right.
Our dance across time, manifesting the divine,
Is the being of love... to all a sign.

(Alternative ending:)
Needs nothing except Korean and wine.

I think my demons are just my own
Too revolting for you to be shown,
Yet in the mirror their twins play,
In you, in exactly the same way.

I received your letter, the heavy one.
Between the lines it seems you're done.
Again and again, I read, one more time,
Finding a reason, it will be fine.

I write back to you, right words I choose
To love, not hurt and speak the truth.
I send my words away, to the air,
Trusting to find you, what I share.
Time goes by, would I have to wait
Till morning? I know it's late.

You reply and we talk,
Slowly closer we start to walk.
Kind words come, I see some light,
Perhaps sleep we can through this night.
Tomorrow again the sun will rise
For us to look in each other’s eyes.

For a moment I forgot
I'm your owner I'm not.
Part of the drama I became,
Taking from you, just the same
As the bounds you try to free.
But now I can clearly see
You need to fly, wild, high.

I give you my rock as refuge in times
You need to be held, loved sometimes,
When tired of fighting demons in you
I embrace, hold space, make magic us two.
You are the gift I have, but have I cannot,
I love you woman, with all I've got.