So I know it could be worse
My throat will be bleeding by next verse
I could hurt for a thousand years
Drowning myself in a ocean of tears

Slowly falling into a pitch black void
I could have left with you being mildly annoyed
Instead it was like my love was *****
The words don't come out so motions I aped

The sword that pierced my heart
Was a sword of lust

The sword that pierced my heart
Was a sword of lust

I reach into my skin
Pull out nothing and proceed to sin
I am nothing but flesh destruction
Nothing leaves without detection

A petty truth I leave unto you
Think with your head and before you do
Disregard that puny ***** you call your heart
It will destroy you, love will tear you apart

The sword that pierced my heart
Was a sword of lust

The sword that pierced my heart
Was a sword of lust

LUST!
LUST!
LUST!

Sweet sickness
I cure with
This bottle of
Jack

Empty reasoning
You don't understand
Just how I
Feel

I sit and watch the world go by
I'm so sad
I can't stand it anymore
I am mad

Headache I have
It hurts so bad
Marijuana helps dull the
Pain

Watch as I
Twist in this
Sick convulsion I have
Made

I sit and watch the world go by
I'm so sad
I can't stand it anymore
I am mad

Your arrogance is what
Shall feed
Watch out now
You'll bleed

I sit and watch the world go by
I'm so sad
I can't stand it anymore
I am mad (x2)

I will never cry over you
I will never worry for you
I would never beat it to
I would never even care to

Never write a word again
This time I am gone for good

I will start a ******* gain
You won't have to push it in

No words can describe this
Always knew it would end like this

I have never felt this good
You think it hasn't, but it's understood

Hey!
Hey!
Hey!
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right

It's so amazingly bright in here
I no longer have to fear

I will start with someone else
Someone else will have to help

You don't even begin to care
The life I lead will help repair

The burden you lift
Will help me shift

I thought you gave a ****
Yet I always knew it would come to this

I will never see you again
You are nothing more than a stain

Hey!
Hey!
Hey!
Hey!
Hey!
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right

Pain...

It is bliss,
the suffering.
Lamentations such as this
end up smothering.

The kid,
the Christ,
the *******,
the confused.

The unimaginable gift
inside my head.
The knife I lift
will end you dead.

The blood,
the sorrow,
the ***,
the end.

Blow a load.
I would like it loose.
I don't care when or why.
I just need it.
Seven hundred ten just ahead.
Smoking would be nice.
I want to wreck everything you have.
I am like a parasite.
I ****
I ****
I ****
I ****.

I love you how you are.
Everything.
Your face,
your hair,
your voice,
your ****,
your smile.
Don't disregard them.
Enjoy yourself for
who you are.
My blasphemous angel.
My dream girl.
My counterpart to the
******* sideshow.
Don't stop being who
you are.

She says hello.
I give a distant reply.
I really don't know
the where, the how or why.

I keep hoping for some kind
of dream to realize.
She haunts the visions in my mind.
I try to keep these sighs from becoming cries.

I can't stop dreaming
of the love I have.
I can't stop dreaming
of the love I have.

Why the hell must I sleep alone?
Why the hell can't I hear you on the phone?

My eyes tear up
from all of these thoughts.
I just can't stop
thinking of you, whom I have not.

I wish I were stronger
than I am being right now.
That I could be with you longer,
but I just don't know how.

I can't stop dreaming
of the love I have.
I can't stop dreaming
of the love I have.

Why the hell must I worry?
Why the hell? I am sorry.

I can't stop thinking
I can't stop dreaming
I can't stop worrying
I can't stop loving

You.
You.
You.
You.

I want you here.
Safe and in my arms.
I want to be with you
in every way possible.
*******!
Why do I have to **** up?
God ****!
I want us to be
together.
Can't you see
what you are doing to me?
Love
Lov
Lo
L

Someone ease my pain.
It is seeping through my eyes
onto my skin.

****** wrists
and broken fists
mean nothing anymore.

Tears of a lonely buffoon
fill up all the debris in the room.

I take this as a sign
or a reaction,
maybe a reflection
of the pain I have caused.

My eyes sting,
my knuckles swell
while I sing
this song in my personal hell.

Take this as it comes
as it shall pass.
Pass
Pass
Pass
Pass
Pass it away.

There is evil
And there is this
A sharpened blade
Between your lips
A swift pull
Widens the smile
Two apples
Choke
A steel pole
In your hole
Shoved until
It pierces the fruit
A fire lit
Underneath
My mouth waters
Knife and fork in hand
As you roast

Was I not good enough?
Was I not likable?
Was I too sensitive?
Was I too good at what I did for you?
Was I your hero?
Was I a villain?
Will I come back?
Will I leave for good?
Will you learn from your mistake?
Will you deny our love for something you can never have?
Quoting a song written by Kurt Cobain, what you have done to me has "beat me outta me."
I sit here in a confined space surrounded by lunatics as I write this.
You were my angel.
You were my captain.
Now you're just...

Intoxicated by sadness
I'm in love with my madness
Shoot the gun
Into your brain
I keep my face
Masked insane
Black my soul
Tear your hole
Angry *****
Of my dreams
Things just ain't
What they seem
Found somebody
Take your place
Smear my lust
All in your face

What's that sound?
Everybody gather round.
You hear it now?
That sizzle, that crackle, that awful smell?
It's time for you all
To do the crack dance!
Do the crack dance!
Shake and shiver
Scratch and paranoia
Do the crack dance!
:D

Why do you love me so
I have nowhere else to go
I can't keep myself in check
You once made me a wreck
I will never stop myself
I am the one put in this hell
You don't have to cry in fear
I will always try to hear
Why have we become estranged
Why the hell am I so strange
You will grow bored and never look back
I am just useless, stupid and lacking tact
I will never feel that again
If you want me to leave just tell me when
I am ******* scared
I would like to feel you care
Never going to stop this pain
Never going to end my shame
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
We should stop
We should stop
We should stop
We should stop
We should stop
We should stop
WHY

I have issues to work on.
These issues don't work.
My issues tend to darken
and make me become a ****.

I smell it in the air.
I smell it in the air.

I wish I could express myself better.
I can't think of the words.
The blood on my head gets wetter,
it tends to attract the birds.

I smell it in the air.
I smell it in the air.

Change sweet change.

Can't any of you see
how tasteless you appear to me?
The lowest common denominator
of which this town is full
has begun to tire me.
Think I should leave you all
be for awhile. Nothing you can
ever say can begin to interest me
anymore. You are all d bags, b holes,
and ******. Attention is what you seek
stupidity is what you present.
I will leave you with this to ponder as I sail away
from this stupid **** island surrounded by a
**** sea.

The strength to continue,
that's what I have now.
To sally forth.
To rise from the ashes,
like a Phoenix given life.

If anyone tries to stop me,
I will cut them where they stand.

I will conquer my fears,
and swallow them whole.
Watch as I consume your hatred,
and **** it back out.

If anyone tries to stop me,
I will cut them where they stand.

Watch the **** out!
Watch the **** out!
Watch the **** out!
Watch the **** out!

If anyone tries to stop me,
I will cut them where they stand!

I feel bad for you
I can see it in your language
I can feel you in my veins
I can smell it in the air
My hatred and envy
In my eyes
In my heart
Why must tears flow faster than blood?
Dizzy now
Drunk on depression

If you were a mirror
I would break you
If you were a can
I would crush you
If you were a cd
I would scratch you
If you were a toilet
I would **** on you

But you are none of these things
You are a frightened little girl
So now all I can do is feel bad for you
Because I don't like hurting little girls

I'm
in danger
of ending up
back where I started.
Why are you so persuasive?
I wish I could rewind sometimes,
get back to the great start we
had. I'm so sad I could weep. A
little joy is what I need. Suffering is so
4 years ago. I wish I could change it all.
Your tears have built me up. Made me strong enough to
make a decision so precious yet small. Look at the monsters we've
become. Wish I could change you, wish I could change myself. It's scary
to think about all that. If I would try again, I would strengthen.

Why are you scared?
Why must I shout?
There's nothing there
in my head, just let me out.

Every time I breathe,
think of a time to bleed.
Every time I breathe,
I feel like we should breed, yeah.

Now watch, just watch
as I blow your mind.
Feeling as if I'm after you.
This knife, this blade
it shimmers bright.
I will slice you if I'm wanting to.

Yet every time I breathe,
I feel as if it is my last.
Every time I breathe,
sleep the death red dream, yeah.

Sleep the death red dream.

I pull you in with these tales of misfortune.
To make you feel better about the **** life you have.
No sympathy here.
Just a whole lot of misery.
Misery loves company.
Join me (us)
Join me (us)
Join us (me)
Join us (me)

You try so hard,
so hard to please.
Nothing comes
to you with ease.

I take my time,
watching the clouds roll by
as they slowly turn to grey.
For the times I was high
never took the thoughts away.

Leave it behind.
Leave it behind.

I cried so much,
I hurt so bad,
thinking about
the time we had.

Wash it away,
all the thoughts were there,
in the flesh under my hair.
Still thinking it would go somewhere.

Leave it behind.
Leave it behind.

I love you so much it makes me dumb.
I ****** you up, and so am I, **** it.
If I could taste you again, I would feel better again.
I'm drunk and ****** up. I want to stop caring. ****.
If I could change for you I would. I can't. I won't.
I like being me and I like you how you are.

I can't stop.
I won't stop.
I love you.
**** the world.

I'm stuck.
You're stuck.

So you think you're special
You're just a footnote
Of things to come

I could stop
Crying over you
Go out and find someone new

As a matter of fact that's just
What I'll do
******* I will come out of this
On top

On top
On top
On top
On top.

I'm better now.

Death is drawing near
My eyes begin to close
I see nothing in all its
Stark reality
Deep red from my stomach
Flows forth as I open my eyes
Again
I look up and see two suited men
They are arguing
I have a secret
Who am I?

Kinda wide ,
kinda snug
I don't mind
who I love.

In my bed,
your bed.
I try it
doesn't matter

Oh,
I can laugh.
You can scream.
I wanna stop.
I don't wanna cream.
I don't give a ****,
we can start to bleed.

It's done
It's done
It's done
It's done

Lets come!

I go through these phases
I don't want to leave the house
I want to drink my pain away
I want to beat the people responsible
Mercilessly
I want to cry rivers of tears
I want to die in a pool of blood
I want to kiss her one last time
I want to hurt myself
Eternally
Oh, can't you see what you've
Done to me
A wreck of a man
Doctors don't even understand
What's wrong with me
Beat myself to death
Beat myself to death
Beat myself
Beat myself
Beat

Don't take what I say in anger to heart.
It ruins me.
I want you to be happy.
I don't want to hurt you anymore.
Disregard these angry rants.
I wish to say I'm sorry and to wish you luck.
If I could take back everything I would.
Jackie, I love you and I wish you find in someone else what you could not find in me.

I am doing fine without you.
I don't cry.
I have found someone else.
We are doing great together.
I love her.
You can't do better than me.
You won't last without me.
I could have you back anytime.

This is a cry for help.
Help me.
I wish to harm myself and others.
Harm them.

Look at how happy everyone is.
I must turn my head.
If I have to look at this
I'm going to end up dead.

Drugs won't help.
Neither will *****.
I may as well stay in this hell.
****, I have nothing to lose.

If I have frightened you with my words,
Don't be afraid to comment.
I want to hear the sound of birds,
I don't want to *****.

****
****
****
****

What have I done?
Done
Done
Done

Life is worth losing.
Life is worth losing.
Life is worth losing...

I made up.
A thought came
to mind. While
you're away, does
it hurt as
much it does
me? There has
to be a
solution. There has
to be a
better way. I
will find it.
I swear on
the church of
Joe Bob Freeman
there has to
be a better
way.

Somebody new.
Finally
somebody new.
I couldn't ask for anything
more.
I am broken.
I need someone to repair me.
Will you be the one to do it?
I hope so.

So long to the heartbreak
So long to the torment
So long to the depression
So long to the anger
So long to the bottle
So long to the bowl
So long to you

I could leave it all behind.
But, it wouldn't be so fun
to watch you suffer or whine.
I never think my work will be done.

Looking towards the sky
for nothing at all.
Just thinking I may be a lucky guy
to be with someone who is such a doll.