It's been about a week
Longest week of my life
We have clarified that we are just friends
I'd rather remain friends
Then not be anything at all
I begin falling into a seemingly unescapable hole
You send a simple text of "Yes we can do that"
The hole grows smaller

I dyed her hair purple
it was weird
She showered
And then at 11 she left
I almost didn't get to say goodbye
I fell asleep
I miss her

These ******* french fries
are taking forever
You lied to me
I ate my burger 20 minutes ago
I wish I wasn't having this dilemma
I wish I wasn't alone
I wish I cared about myself more
then I cared about you

All I see when I close my eyes
Is You.
All I hear in those dreams
Is Your laugh.
If I had to describe what an Angel's song is
It would definitely be Your laugh.
If I could I would tell You how I really feel
But right now
You said You aren't feeling the best
And You want some alone time
But I don't want You to feel alone
You might think You are alone in this world
Which seems so cold and bitter
But You are my sunshine
You make me happy
And I want You to know there is sunshine in this world
And You are definitely the Sun You outshine everything else
Nothing shines as bright as You
No vice that I can ever have will make me as happy
As happy as I am seeing You.
The way You care for animals
Is one of the greatest things I have ever seen
The way You call Your blind dog to lead her
Is one of the cutest things ever.
Seeing You cry
Is like being stabbed with a rusty razor blade
It's deep and it will stay with me.
Seeing Your eyes begin to get teary eyed hurts like being set on fire
Seeing You late at night in my attempts to go to sleep
even though they are dreams I will stay awake.
But I'd stay awake for twelve days and twelve nights
Just to spend one minute with You.
I'd write a million books to spend a minute with You.
I'd write poetry about my Love to You at 1:05 at night
I know You won't see this.
I know You might not feel the way I feel about you.
But for You I'd rather spend the rest of our lives as friends
Then try to date for a year and it doesn't work out and we sorta lose contact.
I Love You.

I'm sorry
I'm not Your type
I'm sorry
I'm not like all the guys You've dated
I'm sorry
I lack the confidence to tell You how I really feel
I'm sorry
I may forever just be Your friend and You may feel unloved sometimes.
I'm sorry
You will ever experience not feeling as though You aren't good enough because to me
You are Aphrodite
You are Athena
You are Apollo
You are the Alpha
You are the one I love

There is someone I care for immensely
and I can't believe
I lived this long without her
they say "Love, which quickly arrests the gentle heart"
my Heart must be stone
but slowly
I fall in love more and more with her
and it just gets easier and easier
and happens quicker and quicker
and this isn't
seizing me with it's beautiful form
she doesn't notice
I care for her
I've never felt so alone
They say
"Love Hurts"
They're right.

Everyday I am without you
is like living without oxygen
Everyday I am without you
is like getting stabbed in the chest
Everyday I am without you
is like getting shot and fiddling with the wound
Everyday without you
Is a day not worth experiencing
Without you
All I can think about is you

It's been at least 8 days
It's odd
We live so close
Yet I've never felt
So far from you

Are we really
Just friends?
I never wanted those
Words to be said together
When referring to you
But
I'd rather spend time
Together platonically
Then not at all

Nobody has ever told me that