My mom speaks on her First and Only son….

….. Born August 1st. to a single mother who barely made it threw his birth. Pulled from my stomach because my stress level caused an early birth, weighing less to nothing he was born N gone, doctors said his heart just wasn’t that strong, lying on his death bed I pray, “O Lord! Let my son see his brighter days!” nothing but faith ran threw my veins, I trust the Lord to do the right thing; I awoke one morning to a bright august day, and there lies my son Dante, tears ran down my eyes as I held my baby boy for the first time since that day. Now my heart is whole, the Lord has granted my son a 2nd chance. “Just me and you my son” is what I whispered in his ear as he lay close to my breast. You will change the world one day my son and I will be there every step of the way to cheer you on…No father’s shoulder to cry on, I must bear the soul of a father, and the strength of his mother, how will I explain that his father never wanted him as his son….A blessing to me, was a burden to him. How will I explain to my son that it’s not because of him! It will break his heart to know his father never loved him. Birthdays go by, and a gift from his father appears…was I foolish to sign his name? To give my son some hope on his 5th birthday, that maybe one day his father will hold his hand and teach him how to be a man. Maybe it was wrong, but on that day my son smiled ear to ear. Not because of the pair of Jordan’s that lie in the box, but because the name on that little card said “Love Your Daddy”. As my son grew older he saw the reality, there is no father. Just me his loving mother, who has never left his side, threw the good, and the bad I had his back. And if that back shall ever turn…Lord I give you my permission to take my soul and let it burn. Because a mother could never abandon her first, and only son.

Lost in my soul is your heart, sitting wondering where our love lost its Spark. Today I cry because my heart has a hole that I am scared will never be healed. I lost my deepest meaning in this world, all because I wasn’t feeling the road we were traveling. If I said I could replace you id be a fool, the memories we shared will never fade, because with you I once saw my happy ending. Now I sit in the dark thinking why couldn’t my heart feel what yours so willingly showed me. My eyes fill with tears wondering why I had to be in this place. U made me whole, and now half of me has gone away. Color me Blue and send me to sea. Even in the darkest hour my love for you will forever live on inside me. Maybe in another world, a later date, we could make our love blossom like rose peddles on a summer day. But in this world and this date our love turned into April where the rain just won’t go away. Not because of you, but because I was too selfish to give you equal love and affection. I hope and pray that we will be close again, I know I broke your heart, but mine is broken too, I gave up an Angel, because I couldn’t leave my devilish ways behind me. Pray for me, and we both sit in the dark wishing for a fresh start.

I hear the demons calling me; they steady in my head rocking to that sad

sorrow beat. Someone send me faith cuz im blinded by this Misery. Its time to

overcome; send the patriots to furnish me. Taken over souls, Now Death got a Hit on me. The haters in

my past knocking down my door tryna be a friend to me. They hungry like some wolves, smell success

and wanna Corner me. Now im fighting for my right to be the best, “Animal Instincts”! -