There I am
in each of all the blades of grass.
Out there in the field as them,
I take deep breathes at last.
How to capture an essence?...
in the world spinning on axis in excess- to fast,
I grow out of sunlight but
am birthed from a sliver of the moon crescent's past.
If I do believe in unicorns-
it's because I've held the devil's horns
within my tiny finger's grasp.

It's like suddenly I was watching everything from deep under water,
and thinking about how we don't really think about things
after they've "just been there" too long.
Which of these girls is not like the others?
Which of these girls does not belong?

We are never really rejected.
There are no true mistakes.
No could haves that really "could have been."
No should haves that you really "should have been part of"
Everything that happens or doesn't- comes along or is an opportunity missed because it simply needs to be.
Fall-backs are crucial parts of the puzzle which is understanding.
Not getting what we want can be a huge step towards reaching a bigger dream...or walking the path meant for us.
We’re not rejected. We’re redirected.
There are no parallels or alternatives, we can not force the "hand of fate"...
There's only this as it is.

I often tell people who ask me...
-Take the path of least resistance.
By this I don't mean to take the easy way every time,
I'm really saying when hard work feels good it will pay off. When dreams, goals, plans, people, and the day to day flow and provide for themselves within your life equally as much as you strive to provide them for yourself then, they are yours to have.

Strain, stress, anxiety, tension- those things are for no one.
Those emotions are indicators manifesting themselves because your internal compass is off, you're not heading true North, somewhere you've forced a wrong turn.
Stay the course, trust the source.
Happiness>Everything.

While you are wide eyed dreaming;
frozen, stuck at seeming,
I'm live life streaming,
with those of us out here being.

While "just concepts of people whom do not exist"
walk 'round and 'round the edges of the abyss...
Some pushing others, some jumping,
some running, never stopping-

I'm upon the mountain screaming,
"Take the people, leave the people-
but do not try to make the people,
you are only disturbing the balance."

When you can't struggle any longer
it's to your peace you must surrender...
Because there is so much for us to miss
when there is so much to remember...

If you must...
Use your memory to give back life to that which no longer exists,
Can you recall how you ended up here?
Do you remember how warm the light felt against your body then?

Whoever thought walking down was easier than up,
has never chosen the bottom over the top.

When my demons catch me up,
and I fear that I may falter...
I call upon the most high,
and take my shadows to the altar.

Light a candle and from that many,
no time to curse the darkness.
If a single heart can choose to beat strong,
the strength of love beats those heartless.

In the water I'm born again,
in flowing silence I am fluid;
Just visiting here beyond this.
The weight of my body and of it all is lifted,
This seamless resistance soothes me.
Underneath...I re-emerge from under-neath,
as if entering the out from inside myself...
Here, like this, I almost remember being born again.
So many dimensions within "ours",
I re-emerge, reaching up from the bottom-
eyes open to the sting, as if I'm shattering the looking glass...but quietly.
Watching my own hand reverse-penetrate the undisturbed surface.
If I could just take it all in-
water into my lungs so that I may be born again into what's next-
This moment, the moment every cell of my body struggles to perpetuate...
that's when the floating silence
is who I am.
That's when I realize I have to break the silence
and the surface,
and breathe again.

Most people misunderstand, as humans it is not for us to look to escape our darkness, it is that we must learn to love ourselves there...

If you can do that, you've already begun the journey of bringing it to light, of seeing yourself out, and of embracing the two halves that make us each whole....without each, you can not understand either.