I should have kissed you back
Stupid isn't it
Maybe the worst I'll ever be
I feel stupid now
I long to know what your face was saying
I wanted to look back
I'm looking back now
You're not there anymore
Who would be when people like me leave scars on everything they try to heal
I'm selfish
I want that again because I'm selfish
But I never deserved to kiss you
I should have never even been a piece of your world
Ive always had a remarkable talent of ending up exactly where I don't belong

Moving on is one task I never see complete.
I couldn't forget many things if I tried.
I'll never forget when he was my best friend.
I'll never foget the nights we walked and left our shoes off because it was just that warm.
I still see us standing at the water on our walks.
I still see the person he was and who he made me. I still cry because I'll never be that girl again. So untouched by pain, so naive to what he would do. I remember the first time he touched me. He showed me the stars. He made me feel special and wanted and important. Those were the happiest days I've ever experienced. I still feel all the boys who touched me after him. With their strange ***** hands. All still unknown to me. I remember thinking they would be all I could have. I was there for their use. A kiss is just a kiss. It doesn't mean that he'll love you in the morning. Wake up. Show yourself the stars. Leave your shoes by the door. Whisper to the wind and know that the sun will come with new seasons and people to let go of, and when it sets you can look at the moon and know that he will be looking too.

I hope you cry tonight *******
Your tears won't come close to half that I've shed for you
Let's be friends
What's a friend anyway?
I can't say I never saw it coming
I knew this day would come
It's funny
You think you're in control
You think I'll be so broken without you
*******
I was broken before
You're just a another piece that doesn't matter anymore

who said I needed to be possessed?
i never have imagined myself answering to someone else's command
living my life for another
is this what everyone yearns for?
why some toss and turn at night
love?
love is not the opportunity to say "you are mine"
"forever and always" "I would die without you"
*******
love is passion yes but not ignorance
love is about appreciation
not possession
I am not "yours" i am mine
you may be my partner for as long as i allow it
and no your physical health would not change if i choose to leave
do not lean on me
we can carry each other
do not try to stomp a forever out of me
you and i both know we don't have that much time