I feel nothing no one to hold I love him does he love me I shall no know I break down and hear the sound of my heart beat and me bairly breathing  am I gay I'm not sure I love him he makes me smile happy and surprised to feel free to finally be me I'm an empty person no family to hold and cling on to they won't expect what they can't expect well e=mc square and when your there I'm not empty while you are standing there next to me let me be me set free

I see u in the way my minds eye I read and read and really I hate this I love you too so much but my soul is like the Pulitzer prize so proud to behold I feel as if my  life is a a dive into darkness of darkest abyss and it like the shadows of my own inner-city of demons perched upon my soul and people  perhaps need  me to be something I'm not sure I'm ready to be I need u by my side and I don't have the heart to tell you I'm a guy your a guy we all wish allowed that are love could just be pure I know if tell my family then I'll just be told there's something wrong with me and that my love will be forbidden and I hold on breathing without you by my side and I take it all in divided into two groups of people who are saying that we should not be together  but I will hold you for ever

I sit here silently listen to music and think is my thoughts while they float around allowed I see myself as a different person I hear the sounds around me take the lyrics in makes no difference music's just freeform expression of ones and just and demons I go to school and go to college I gained knowledge there is no difference in the way I walk around these holes the emptiness I walk I see the darkness the tide ebbs and flows the ocean goes home seem to float away faces in the crowd I talk but no solace is found allowed I read my soul as if it were a blank page I see nothing nothing but pain disdain and discord I put the record on that block I see nothing shock of pain there's no freedom in this world left is there nobody here that actually cares the hear someone share their words my feelings written down on paper is there no one that can come take you away from here do you weigh your mind body and soul I wear my heart on the sleeve setting in cold or nothing to behold I read this poem aloud and then I walk through a desolate crowd if there is no one watching sitting there and watch ruins of cities wants forgotten I look at prep yet and I look at different cities around the world that look at Ohio Troy I love you get Connecticut and I look at the town I live in Norwich all the Forgotten buildings once burned unseen I mean all these towns are we forgotten all these places around the world the Berlin Wall USSR Soviet Union's all the time nothing to see nothing I am too young to know this but for what our society does to are young lead them astray to lead their pain away for nothing good can stay everything gold is nothing to hold for we are all better left unseen forever

For  every one daily life seems fun I see dark thoughts mean people walk the halls around me I see Busy supermarkets filled with busy people no one stops and ask how is your day going  they keep going on there merry little way and or push you for no reason for what so ever to them your just another person amidst the rows of sovern faces in a crowd you feel empty hated but there are no way you get noticed you just take it this just another busy day in the life of a nameless person with no face and no one to care

I dream aloud well I think I hear nothing I see nothing what is a walk these busy crowded streets I hear footsteps I hear the cars and hear the trains I hear people walking I hear the faint sound of my breathing and I think what is this world that we have created what is the hustle and bustle of the city I want to see this world where I want to see this world where there is more where there are people who actually stopped and care and actually see what's going on the world and know what they feel to see your c** in his life of propaganda and we can't really understand what it's like us we've been there and that person shining your shoes that person cutting your hair we can't see what their life is like under the seams but we feel the dream the life where everyone is equal I'm a dreamer for equality and what really matters all men are created equal so it was said by a very famous man but all I see is wallowed society and lies what lies behind the weight she will lies behind the virtue of every broken sad and tierd face and everyone puts on off foreshadowed lie and I said here I ask why but am I not a dreamer for a dream society where everybody is perfect there's no faults there's no I'm too fat there's no there's no outer beauty in yourself to anything and I asked please let me be the dreamer not the treat me like I'm the dreamer and not the dreamy