I wake up and feel something is askew.
Then I remember what I heard last night on the news.
Then I push it aside and turn on the TV.
I’m sure someone can deal with it better than me!
Our politics are failing. Society’s flailing.
Getting’ crushed under the weight of our own pompous detailing.
But I don’t mind, there’s nothing I can do.
I’ll just grab a bite, get another tattoo.
Maybe by the time I’m done, it’ll have worked itself out.
If it hasn’t I’ll just shut my eyes and think of something else!

I guess I could try to make a difference,
But I’ve got more important things I have to deal with.
Like the season finale of my favorite show,
A bottle of Jack to finish and a party to throw!
I guess I can try to help out, if I’ve got the time. We’ll see.
Hey, look! Beer over there is buy-one-get-one-free!
I gotta stock up for the big game tonight.
Gotta go. I’m sure you got the problem covered, right?

Drunks and liars and posers, you’re fired.
Idiots, *******, worldwide mob masses.
Outcasts that walk alone, self-loathers, homophobes.
Jesus freaks. One more drink. Intelligence levels sink.
Dumb jocks and ******. Gangbangers. Guerilla wars.
Drop the dime, save the time. Pretend you’ve lost your mind.
Uppers and downers. Immigrants, minors.
Emos and cheaters, and ******* wife-beaters.
****** ex-girlfriends, freaks, frauds, text message sends.
Alcoholics relapsing. Governments collapsing.
Oil spills, anything for thrills. Hold on, just one more ****.
Suicide bombers, no mothers, no fathers.
This world’s so ****** up, how will it end up?
I don’t wanna know, don’t wanna see.
Don’t make me face reality!

The dream I had,
That was so perfect,
Changed before my eyes.

A mutated love,
Turned to a nightmare,
Clipped my wings, the Crow can't fly.

The good times we had,
While scarce, were there.
I guess you must have forgot.

I fell for you, I loved you,
I helped you, I saved you.
And this is the payment I got.

Selfish desires,
And lie after lie,
Brought it to an end.

The hellish love,
The tainted passion,
Only truth could they send.

The falsehoods that hurt,
The more to come,
There's nothing I can do.

I watch, helpless,
As you tell them all,
That I was the one that hurt you.

You say you're sorry,
Wish me the best.
I've heard that all before.

Step over the pieces,
Of my heart,
As you walk out my door.

Now I've discovered,
The pain I inflict,
Is my only refuge I've found.

My soul is trapped,
In a whirlwind of torment.
I'll burn it to the ground.

What's left?

I know why people hurt.
I know what they do.
I now know how life goes.
I know what the world does to you.

How do you turn your back,
On what you've always known?
How do you do what,
You've never been shown?

With a life in balance,
And meaning in another,
How do you pick?
How does one even wonder?

You have to do,
What is right for you.
But how does it affect,
Everyone around you?

Would you destroy a life,
To make your own better?
What would you think of?
Would you even remember?

How would you judge,
An entire life?
Would you look at what they've done?
The wrong or the right?

But above all else,
I wonder this the most.
Would you destroy one you love,
For the sake of you both?

Questions.

What's the answer?

Welcome to my paradise.
My Hell.
So perfect.
But not so.
Happy, or no?
Do I know?
Half and half. I never know.
Never.
Supposed to be happy.
I am.
Usually.
But are we always?
Love, hate.
Anger, joy.
Always.
Never.
I don't know.

My paradise.

My Hell.

Traveling through this world so long,
There is now no difference between right and wrong.
What once was so very bright,
Is nothing but darkness, full of spite.
The Earth is harsh and cruel today.
It wasn't like that yesterday.
It was once so wonderful and free.
But not anymore, what's happened to me?

Fire should warm, but it only burns.
The world should be still, but it only churns.
Darkness grows and consumes your soul,
While light recedes to dust and mold.
They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Then my vision must be ******, because this world's time should be over.
The Earth's insanity from sky to sea.
But it wasn't always like this, what's happened to me?

The night is bright and the day is dark.
Our leaders are villains and the our heroes are marked.
Tell me what kind of world we live in.
Where the poor do good and the rich only sin?
The world is just wrong, from what I see,
But is it the world, or is it just me?

Somebody tell me, what's happened to me?

Traveling through this world so long,
There is now no difference between right and wrong.
What once was so very bright,
Is nothing but darkness, full of spite.
The Earth is harsh and cruel today.
It wasn't like that yesterday.
It was once so wonderful and free.
But not anymore, what's happened to me?

Fire should warm, but it only burns.
The world should be still, but it only churns.
Darkness grows and consumes your soul,
While light recedes to dust and mold.
They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Then my vision must be ******, because this world's time should be over.
The Earth's insanity from sky to sea.
But it wasn't always like this, what's happened to me?

The night is bright and the day is dark.
Our leaders are villains and the our heroes are marked.
Tell me what kind of world we live in.
Where the poor do good and the rich only sin?
The world is just wrong, from what I see,
But is it the world, or is it just me?

Somebody tell me, what's happened to me?

I lay alone in my room,
Waiting for the end.
Waiting for Him to come,
To take me around the bend.

I expected to see the Reaper,
To take me to the gloom.
Yet instead I saw a dove,
Flying around the room.

I watched it and wished that,
It would go back from whence it came.
And got up to try to scare it,
Until it spoke my name.

But where was the Raven?
The Reaper? The Fire? The Doom?
And then I realized it’s all the same,
As the dove inside my room.