Danaca Terlaje

Danaca Terlaje Jun 2013

One..Two..

I realized I wasn't the only one in his life,
He promised someone else she'll be his wife.
I'm not trying to be selfish, but he told me about the ring
and all the other different things we could be.
I was walking on the street all by myself, actually seeing how alone I was.
He was walking along the street with a beauty I couldn't beat....
-D.

Danaca Terlaje Jun 2013

A.P

Lying in the dark she thinks of where it went wrong,
She cries until 3 am,
Letting the inner demons play in her head.
She thinks the world is a lie, she thinks of the day where she can finally die.
But what she doesn't know is that the world is mesmerized by her beauty..
Where without her the world would be missing a bright star....

-Dear Alana,
You mean the world to me and without you I wouldn't know what to do. I know that's the most cliche line ever but it's completely true. Although distance is between us you're still family to me and I'll do what I can to make sure you're okay.
So much has happened to you with no answers given and I know it's hard but I promise you it'll be okay and someday you'll realize that sometimes having no answer IS the answer.
Sometimes it just happens, life throws an unexpected card down and you're suppose to deal with it.
People don't give you a handbook on how to deal with it, but I know you can handle this with the most grace you have. You're the strongest, most caring person in the world, and no matter what I know you can get through this. I love you..
-D.

Danaca Terlaje May 2013

I miss you Papa...

Five years ago today my whole world changed.
But somehow I'm still waiting like a broken doll waiting to be played.
I'm trying to hold on to what little remains;
Still waiting for that trip back in May.
Never forgetting that promise we made.
Now I'm realizing you're not coming back though,
But yet, I feel like an abandoned home at the end of the road.
You're missing all the roses that grow..
-D.

Danaca Terlaje May 2013

Distance.

I'm came home for the winter and I saw your face;
It's not the same.
Miles away gave us pain.
I tried to stay, but you were okay.
At least that's what you told me.
Those days alone on the road hurt like hell.
But thinking about you now, with her...
I know what it means to be in such pain that your chest is tighten,the walls are closing in on me and I can't escape it.
I can't make my way to you like I promised.
-D.
I'm sorry for the distance I've made..

Danaca Terlaje May 2013

Untitled

She can be loved, but she doesn't believe that.
She sits in her room in the dark thinking of ways to stop her heart.
She use to have a big ol' smile on her face,
Until one day..
Everything changed.
Now all she has is the memory and an old tee shirt.
-D.

Danaca Terlaje May 2013

A not so fairy tale

The trees are now dark with the ash from our use to be love.
The water is now stained with the blood of our pain.
Our hearts now broken from what we thought would be forever.
"Once upon a time" turned into "We tried".
Now where do we go from here?
I see nothing but what we promised we're never be.
Don't you see?
We weren't suppose to be..
-D.

Danaca Terlaje May 2013

Tick Tock

12 AM and I'm still laying here.
My mind is filled with the pictures of you and I.
Days on the couch,days we lounged.
Remembering the day you you told me about all your scares.
That ones from this and this is from that.

1 AM and I'm observing the moon.
I'm observing it the way I observed you that day at the lake.
The way your eyes glimmered with the water.
The way your hand stretched for mine,holding me close so I wouldn't fall.
That day I fell hard though,I fell for your blue eyes matching the water,your blond hair shining with the sun rays.

2 AM couldn't come any faster.
You said,"1,2,3…", and like a perfect harmony we sang "I love you"
You loved the way I wrote,using the moon as my light.Your words for my inspiration.
I loved the way you spoke,soft but with purpose.Your words entranced me easily.
That first night was special.I was scared but you reassured me.

3 AM snuck up on me.
Now I'm thinking where it went wrong.
How our little stares turned into big arguments.
I love yous turned into just leave me alone.
I guess this is our end.
I guess I'll try and fall asleep now.
-D.