i fear the chase
you a desperate hunter, i the desired treasure
your words enticing, luring me in
a sweet treat, tempting me towards the trap
i will run
i will not give in to this race
i have seen the end
i have known the heartbreak
i have felt your heavy hands upon my shoulder
i grow weary, yet this time i press on
this time i will not turn back

at least not now

i love roller coasters
but i'm starting to get sick

i hope this is a joke
that you don't really feel this way
like i threw away something great
for no reason other than selfish pride

i hope this is a prank
that you don't really think that i
never loved you and never cared
about you, who held my heart for so long

i hope you get a good laugh
that you are trying to poke fun at me
while hiding your own tears
because i know you can't believe your own lies

he kissed me like you do
an unknown face
accompanied by a familiar touch
he adored me like you do
as if my body
was a place he'd love to travel
he wants me like you do
my beauty desired
like a prized work of art
he stares at me like you do
searching my eyes
for something missing in him
but i turn away
he doesn't know me like you do
he doesn't care like you do
he doesn't need me like you do
he'll never love me like you do

she thinks i should take pills
swallow these capsules
meant to fill my 'chemical imbalance'

i hate taking pills
giving up the control
proving i can't fix myself

keep your **** pills
i can break through this
the mind can be overpowered

......right?

This isn't right without you

i shouldn't see the stars without you
the ocean is too far without you
i shouldn't feel the grass without you
even cars shouldn't pass without you
i shouldn't feel the breeze without you
leaves shouldn't shake from trees without you
i shouldn't see people smile without you
the weight begins to pile without you

with you stars shine bright, showing the expanse of the skies
with you the ocean is right next door, opening it's arms to me
with you the grass is warm and soft, tickling beneath my feet
with you cars fly by, showing promise of a road less traveled
with you the breeze is inviting, a brief essence of fresh life
with you the leaves fall gently, accepting their time of departure
with you smiles grace faces, making their owners appear blissful
with you the weight is pulling, one way and then the other






with you i cannot breathe
fighting the ocean of strife alone
with you i have your hand
but my fingers are always slipping
with you i cannot win
torn between two worlds that will not merge
with you my head is bowed
scared to look up and see the truth
with you there is love
but a love so heavy i'm not sure i can carry it

This isn't right with you

i'm hurting too.
don't you see it?
your face is blurred by my tears,
maybe that's why i haven't seen things clearly.

my heart's broken too.
can't you feel it?
a faint humming keeps me alive,
rather than the beating of a healthy love.

i'm desperate too.
do you hear it?
i strive for the sound of your voice,
but your words feel distant now.

i'm sorry too.